Blech!

I feel like crap right now.  For some reason, I am having a bout of major nausea!  It must be TOM.  TOM and I are NOT, I repeat, are NOT buddies.  He comes in once a month and royally kicks my ass.  Message to TOM:  Mission Accomplished.

I got to looking at my calendar today and realized I'm actually doing quite all right on my Challenge so far.  I've worked out 2 out of 5 of the last few days and I will be working out over the next two days which will put me at 4 out of 7.  Yay me!  I need that.  I need the toning almost as much as the fat loss!  But I am also thinking of adding on deep stretching.  I miss being flexible.  Being fat (and out of shape) makes flexibility a thing of the past.  And you know, I want it back!  I'm at the lowest weight I've been in about 7yrs, but at about 189, I've still not regained that flexibility.  So, I am thinking adding in stretching would be good for me.

Diet wise, pushing on through even with the nausea.  Although, I'm skipping food until dinner and just having my shakes.  When I feel nauseous, that seems to be the only thing I can get in that doesn't make me feel worse!  Sometimes, I think the shakes are 'too easy'.  My husband has been doing this with me, and he is finding it hard to go back to food due to the ease of shakes.  He's lost aout 22lbs. and only wants to lose about 5 more lbs., but he wanted to start adding in more food.  Well, since we've been doing this, he's finally gotten into the habit of eating regularly.  With shakes, even when it's busy he can grab it and go where as with food, he has to stop and make something and then needs to sit to eat.  You can't just grab a salad and go -- especially not with his job.  So, he's finding it hard to get back to eating 'real' food.  I finally just told him that he didn't HAVE to give up the shakes entirely -- he just needed to only use them as supplements and not the main staple.  Cause really, this is only a short term thing, not permanent.  But using protein shakes doesn't have to completely stop just because we are at the end of our weightloss journey's.  We can still have them on days where we feel like it or where it's super busy.  It's just about balance.  I think (and hope) that once I get to my goal weight I will be able to maintain doing low GI or Atkins phase 3 and 4.  I maintained before, I'm pretty sure I can do it again.  It's just this is the only way I've LOST.

I'm thinking of tracking my food on here under a new category simply because my last food journal is almost full.  I have maybe one more week left and I need to either buy a new notebook, or start recording it somewhere else.  I figured I might list that on here and even add another column for my recipes for my protein shakes and some of my favorite foods.  Although, as of right now, I've told really no one that I am posting on here.  I frequently post blogs on my MySpace page, but people get tired of me constantly talking about weight-loss and how I feel about it.  I truly believe that unless you've dealt with weight issues, you just don't understand the not only physical aspect, but the very emotional aspect of dieting.  And well, since I've gone through the ropes in the past and failed so many times, I think they were just tired of hearing it.  Even if now at this juncture, I am actually making great progress.  Again, I just don't think they get it.  Heck, I don't even think my family really 'gets' it.

Not to run off the track here, I do have a minor rant.  I am annoyed at my other dieting friends right now.  I feel as if when they stall out, they can't be supportive.  I'm not asking for a party or anything, just a 'good job!'.  But I'm not getting that.  Even when I am supportive of their efforts and I'm stalled out.  I have one friend in particular who says things like, "That's great.  But I am up 2lbs. and I can't figure out WHY!"  I try to be supportive and ask her to talk about it, but it's always the same thing.  She is NOT tracking her food or getting her workouts in.  So, after so many of these conversations, I get TIRED of her whining and never trying to be positive.  Not to mention, after a while, it gets draining to keep going over the same issues -- watch your food intake and exercise!  Keep in mind, she has no sugar/carb issues or even fat issues.  She can literally watch her calorie intake and drop weight.  She's just choosing not to right now because her FAT ASS husband calls her 'the food Nazi'.  Can you hear my eyes rolling?  In my mind, they sound like boulders.  I can't stand her husband -- he is a totally selfish man in more ways than just food.  He is up over 320lbs. now.  She's a whopping 150.  So he is LITERALLY double her size!  That's just insane to me!  Thus the sarcasm in the 'whopping 150'.  I don't know how she deals.

Well, that's all for me for now.  I need to get off of here and drag myself into doing something productive.  Not sure what, but something.  I hope I start to relax after blogging on here for a bit -- I feel like my writing is pretty stiff right now!  Hopefully, that won't be the case for long.

~Jewlz~