Day 86

As I mentioned in my last post, I wanted to give myself about 3 months to try to make a big dent in my weight.  I counted it up last night, and it is 86 days until my oldest's b-day weekend.  So, I have 86 days to try to get really close to where I want to be before summer really kicks in.  Goal?  Hmmm.... not sure what my goal is?  Maybe that is something I should work on over the next few days -- setting up specific goals.  I know in the end I need to lose around 70lbs., but not sure about how I want to deal with 'mini' goals.  I do know I hope to be back in my 14's and them be lose!  That would be about 30lbs. from the 213 I weighed in yesterday.  And that is where I am going to start because that's when I switched over.  Even if at one point, I had seen 208.5.  Although, I did see 212 this AM!  Not sure if it is for real, but I'll take it!

Yes, I'm one of those crazy people that weighs in every day.  I don't take much stock in it, but I do it to try to follow trends.  I really only count once a week, but I like keeping track.  I think I mentioned before that I am also doing a food journal and using www.calorieking.com to get my numbers.  I did pretty darn great yesterday at 1600 cals and 35 carbs.  I don't really watch cals, I watch carbs.  But I think it is interesting to see what makes the most difference.  I also track fat, fiber, and protein, but like I said, mostly to check for trends.  I remember the last time when I was losing like crazy, my cals would be high, but my carbs really low and it just dropped off!  And after, I was able to maintain by eating low carb and low GI (but wouldn't lose) right up until I got preggo.  So, I'm just going to go with the flow of that this time with my low carb eating and protein shakes to see where it takes me.  I'm hoping it takes my butt right into those 14's!  LOL

The biggest thing worrying me these days is that I get very little sleep.  My youngest is STILL not sleeping well and last night/this AM was no exception.  I cried again this morning because I am just SO sleepy that I feel like a zombie.  My husband says he can tell.  He's so sweet, and so supportive, but I know with his work schedule, he has to be tired, too.  I really wish we had some family close by that could watch little man for a weekend so that we could take a small trip either the two of us or us and our oldest to just get a break.  I'm lying.  I want it to just be the two of us!  And I want to have more energy to be able to spend with my oldest -- I feel like he's getting ignored lately, but by the time the day is wrapping up, I'm wiped out.  So, I spoke with our regular sitter about coming over maybe once a week during the day or every other week to watch the little one so I can spend the day alone getting things done, OR spend the day taking the other one to do something fun.  Just the two of us!  Not to mention that if the hubbs is off, we would get to have a 'date'.  AND, she is really cheap, so I think it would be worth the extra cash to get to spend that time with him and by myself!  Best of all, the boys love her!

On a separate note, I am feeling a bit less stressed in the financial dept.  We kept up with our tax papers really well this year and I made sure to prowl the websites (irs.gov and taxactonline.com) for any and all credits that we would be allowed.  Mostly for upgrades to the house and whatnot.  So, we are getting back MUCH more than what we have in previous years.  And because of that, we have decided to be responsible with that money and pay off at least 3 debts.  They are small -- one only $300.  But we've been working on paying them back since right before Christmas when the DirecTV issue happened that put us behind in the first place.  But I don't like debt and once these are paid off, other than our house we will only have one loan left to pay off!  And that is a HUGE chunk off of our shoulders!  And best of all, we found out that we can cancel our escrow account on our house!  WOOT!  That will drop our mortgage payment down to a MUCH more reasonable amount.  Saving us about $150/mo.!  Now, granted, will we have to put that money aside to pay the taxes and insurance, but the bank won't be holding my money hostage and raising my payment every year to keep their minimum.  Which I know they re-invest to make more money off of.  I'll take that $300 back, thank you, to put into my OWN savings to make money to pay towards future bills.  I know that this is off topic, but the relief I feel at having the end goal in sight is tremendous and will most surely have an impact on my health.  I am just so pleased!

Well, the day is dragging on, pouring rain, foggy, etc.  But I should really get up from here and try to get a few things done.  Our playroom looks like a bomb exploded!  Not to mention the dishes won't wash themselves nor the laundry put itself away.  So, I am off for now to get to work and maybe make a few phone calls.