I am absolutely nervous about tomorrow's weigh-in. I'm not sure why, and really, I could weigh NOW since it's after midnight, but I am TERRIFIED. I am SO afraid that I am not going to see a loss or maybe even a gain. I've been good and done what I should but I am still afraid. I just don't think I have it in me to see 0 loss or a gain. I honestly may have an emotional breakdown and gorge myself on the cake I just made. NO! I didn't make a cake for that! The hubb's just had a b-day and I was sneaky and make the cake tonight with him not home. I'm letting it 'settle' right now since i just poured the ganache all over it. I'll finish icing it and putting on the finishing touches here soon. I should be in a rush...it's late after all! But I need to hide the darn thing and the only place is the oven... where I cooked it! So, it's having to cool before I can put the cake there. He better love me for this -- it's a German Chocolate with the pecan/coconut filling and then a ganache on top. Then I will sprinkle on the roasted coconut and pecans and do some pretty stuff. LOL And lemme tell ya, it looks GOOD! I did taste a few things.... aka the first batch of pecans.. which I burnt! YUCK! And the coconut. OH YUM. Oh, and the ganache. But no worries, it's a bittersweet one so the carbs in that are so low I'd have to literally lick a big dollop. So far, all I've licked are my fingertips and I shouldn't have to do that anymore because I've moved it to the cake plate. I just want to try to let it set up some before I go and put anything else on it for fear of making an absolute mess! Not sure what to do with the leftover chocolate. Glad I only made a half recipe!
Back to my point... I am terrified to weigh in. I have tried to be positive this week and see things in a better light. I've tried to really think over my life and my food and where I want to go with it. But for some reason, that niggling fear is there. Driving me bonkers. Some part of me wants to weigh and just get it over with!!! Although, now wouldn't be good. I just chugged some water. When I'm anxious, I tend to drink a lot of water. I'm not sure why. Tomorrow is suppose to be an UP day for me, but I'm nervous about that, too. I'm technically following my rule, but another part of me says forget it -- stay LC and see what happens. I sorta did IF today, but I didn't get to eat when I would've liked. So, I ate a VERY late dinner and I didn't even get to sit and enjoy it. I just stuffed some roast beef stew down and then tried to finish everything else up. Craziness. I did enjoy the stew, though. It's one of those super quick meals that makes you feel comforted. As I was sucking it down, I kept thinking, I wonder if there are some other low carb veggies I could add to this and make a big pot of it? LOL Always thinking!
Well, I guess I should quit worrying, get off of here, and finish up that cake. THEN, I need to head to bed. I am tired and have had a darn busy day and I don't think tomorrow will be much better. I just pray that I see a positive number tomorrow.
Good luck with your weigh in tomorrow! Honestly I can relate to scale fear so much and the anticipation and fear all rolled into one. If you see a loss great! If you don't, please don't throw in the towel because a variety of reasons could be why! I remember when I was just a weekly weigher, on the day of I didn't lose anything but it was an off day because of sodium, hormones, muscle soreness and the next day it was a loss!! Have a great Sunday!
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