Check-in

Hey Ladies!  How is it shakin'?  All over the place here!  lol  I know, I'm a ham!  Which lately would be true considering the blatant amount of pork products I've consumed.  Normally during PMS, I crave things like cookies.  No, NOT this time!  I craved bacon, pork rinds, pork chops... it was strange!  But at least all on plan.  So, I'm good.  My weight this AM was 201, but I've also finally started TOM so not sure how accurate my number is.  Not fretting either way, ya know?

We had a pretty decent week other than the fact that my oldest had a massive meltdown over the weekend.  So, he's grounded.  Which is kinda rough because in all honesty, it means we as the adults are somewhat grounded, too!  But I'm telling you, he just went too far and the punishment had to be more severe.  He also got two spankings -- IN PUBLIC.  I couldn't tell you the last that happened.... I can't remember really the last time he had been spanked period!  I'm not anti-spanking or anything, it's just it's one of those things where I feel that the punishment should fit the crime.  And usually, spanking isn't the best fit.  Mostly because usually he's a well behaved kid.  But man did he throw the mother of all nasty tantrums Sunday.  I was so embarrassed.  Not only by him but by how I handled it.  But honestly, I wish I knew of a better way.  I tried to sit him down and talk to him but by that point, he was so far gone and screaming his HEAD off!  I spanked him to snap him out of it and took him to the car.  Then he kept screaming and screaming and I finally screamed back.  *sigh*  I hate screaming!  I feel like it is more damaging to a person to scream at them than spank.  Well, as long as you spank and not beat!  But the screaming, well, it just does something to you.  Maybe I'm wrong.  I don't know.  Especially since its not like he gets yelled at much, either.  I just don't know what has come over him lately.  He says he hates it here.  No, not at home.  IN TN.  UGH.  I guess none of us are really happy here.  :(

On that topic, we are attempting to make the best of it while we are here.  I am thinking of looking for more community things to do.  I know I've tried before but I want to make another attempt if at all possible.  And I'm excited for oldest to go to K.  We know we have at least a few more years here (2 to 3) so we can't be mired in misery for that amount of time.  We just have to keep pushing through and make the best of it.  Just like my weight loss.  LOL  Does it always come back to that?  Pretty much.  HA!

Now, confessions and prides:  My first pride is that on Sunday (my hubby's first day off) he thought he would be sweet and bring home Dunkin Donuts.  Now, let me say, few things drive me as nuts as DD.  I freakin' LOVE DD!!!!  I'm not sure why I love it so much, but it brings me a happiness I just can't explain.  I don't really crave it or anything, but when it's there, I want it!  And it can be 1 or 2 and I'm good.  So, here my hubby is bringing them in because sometime last week I said something about stopping to get a coffee and maybe a donut but we just didn't have time.  So, he bought 6!  Here's why I'm proud.  I didn't touch them!  NOPE.  I smelled the bag, and I enjoyed the aromas, but I didn't eat or even lick a single one.  I don't know how or why, but I just asked did I need it and would I feel good after I ate it.  Would I feel guilty?  The first two were no's.  The third a resounding yes.  I told my hubby I just wasn't in the mood for them and he was welcome to them.  He was like cool, no biggie.  :D

Next is pizza.  We almost ordered a pizza yesterday evening.  We were tired, grumpy, and hungry.  But at the last minute, I told him I could throw together what we had planned in just a few minutes if we both did it together.  So we did.  :D

Confessions:  I've had french toast for breakfast the last two days!  :O  Now, that sounds worse than it is.  We had low carb versions -- 10g for two slices.  So, I don't feel overly bad.  I rarely eat it, but I love it!  But I still wanted to confess it.  I think that's the only confession I have.  I've been pretty good, just not having my protein shakes like normal.  I will do that tomorrow.  Maybe even later today I could do a half one for snack.  Especially since there are some yogurts that need to be eaten before they go bad.

I am also trying to work out a workout routine with my hubby.  So far, we have yet to find a good home for our dog, so we are trying to literally exercise the meanness out of him.  LOL  He's not really mean, but I think the exercise will help to deal with his anxiety for now.  I started training him on the treadmill and he REALLY seemed to like that.  I want to get him up to a good half hour on that in the AM and then hopefully we can do a 30min to hour long walk in the evenings when weather agrees.  It will be good for both of us!  :D

Well, that's enough rambling.  On my final note, my lappy is fixed!  YAY hubby!  I've missed you lappy!  :D  She's better than new now, believe it or not.  So, I'm super happy!  Just have to get all my settings, bookmarks, etc. back up and going.  OK, now I'm done!  Have a great week ladies!