Many thanks...

Once again, many thanks to all you ladies out there for being so supportive and understanding.  I swear, I don't know what I would do without you!  Thursday night, I ended up having a MAJOR meltdown.  MAJOR.  I'm not proud to say it, but it involved screaming, crying, and even stomping of the 5yr. old variety.  After the stuff going on for the last few weeks since vacation, I just SNAPPED.  Hubbs, again, came home SO late and I just... blew.  Don't get me wrong, the people he was helping out are nice people, but I am SO tired of helping others out only for our needs to get bypassed.  I don't know if these people would do that, but right now, I had just wanted to focus on things that we had needed to get done around here that had been put off.  And when you tell me you're going to be home at say 3, and then don't get home until almost 7.... Yeah.  I totally had a tantrum.  Hubb's and I haven't had an argument like that in YEARS.  Years I say!  So, I guess to some extent we were just due.  We usually don't fight.  We may disagree and argue, but never screaming.  This involved lots of screaming.  I finally just said I'd had enough and was getting out for some fresh air and I spent the rest of the evening out.  But I was bad.  :(  I was hungry and had already decided on popcorn at the movies.  When I ended up not going to the movie as planned, I bought popcorn at Target and a diet coke.  But I guess it's not bad since I'd already planned it and looked up the nutritional info.  I ended up going to the movies later to see 'Bridesmaids'.  OMG.  I needed that!  I was laughing SO hard!  But it also made me sad in a way.  I miss my girls!  But all I did was finish my diet coke from earlier.  I'm thinking it all balanced out because the scale did not punish me when I checked my weight yesterday.

No punishment today either.  After my meltdown Thurs., we decided to get outta the house yesterday to look for furniture.  I am so tired of unfinished things and projects, that we have decided to have a yardsale to get rid of tons of stuff including furniture pieces that I just don't think I am going to have time to do anytime soon.  Mostly a couple of chairs and some tables.  I have already found a sectional I really like and I think will fit our space nicely.  I need to get that stuff listed as soon as we figure out when we want to have our sale.  We saw that friend that was moving (her hubby came into town so we got to say goodbye to them ALL), we went shopping, and then we went out for dinner.  I did GREAT until the owner came by to talk.  You see, we know them and we use to eat there a lot.  There was some family issues between the fam and their cousins and it shut down when they were trying to get a second location open.  Long story short, they re-opened the old location under a new name and we hadn't been since it re-opened.  He flat out asked where we had been eating, and we told him his competitor's across the street!  :O  We were sitting there almost ready to go when the waiter came and brought us a big cone thing FULL of these cinnamon/sugar things.  OMG.  CHURRO'S!!!  I had 1 1/2 of them (they were small ones, around 4inches).  SO GOOD.  But again, no punishment from the scale.  All that walking must've done some good!  Anyways, we swore we'd be back and that they had won us back over as customers so they didn't have to butter us up with anymore wonderful desserts!  LOL

So, now I am on to today.  Today was an ok day.  Food wise, I was FANTASTIC.  Exercise wise, well, I didn't do nada other than regular housework!  I feel like I'm not going to have real progress until I make the exercise a habit.  One Mom friend of mine said that it will be easier once oldest is in school.  Not so sure about that!  Still drinking water and got my vitamins in.  So overall, not bad!  But I'm afraid I won't see a loss tomorrow.  And now I have a stressful week coming up and I am afraid THAT will slow me down, too.  I would love to see 197.5, but at this point, I would settle for 198.  I DID see 199 at least twice in the last week.  But not before the drama llama rode into town.  *sigh*  At least I didn't do a major sabotage and GAIN.  THAT woulda been BAD!  As a result, no matter what the scale says, I am going to TRY to  be proud of myself for not succumbing to food.  But I really still want to see a loss!!!!

Not sure else what to say... I am somewhat nervous about tomorrow so I feel like I'm kinda blocked.  Not to mention TIRED!  LOL  So, I guess I will say adios for now and will be back with an update tomorrow.  Hopefully a good update!  G'night chicks!