Trying...

I am going to be trying to catch up with things over the next few days.  The hubby is going to be working his night shifts, so I will have more access to the pute.  Especially since he said he would be leaving it at home!  Woot!  So, my posts will probably be coming at night.  But that is ok -- better then than never!  I can't guarantee I will get on here every day, but I will make an effort to get on when I can.  Especially with the dead lappy.  Yes, she is DEAD.  The hubbs worked on it for almost an entire day trying to revive her, but he finally told me, "Well, I didn't want to say anything, but the code said FATAL HARD-DRIVE ERROR."  GASP!  DEAD.  :(  So, I will be short the lappy until he installs the new hard-drive.  Toshiba wanted to charge us$50 to send it in and back!  Yes, it's under warranty.  We BOUGHT a brand new hard-drive at friggin' Best Buy for that and the turn around time will be WAY less!  I'm sure once tht is up, I won't be floating around like a ghost.... Seems like lately I'm on less and less.  I've noticed it with other people, too.  Hmm...  Hope this isn't a trend coming.  I'd hate to lose any of you gals!

I guess I will cut to the chase on the weight-loss front.  I got back on LC today after my high carb cycle.  Not sure what the result will be, mostly because I was BAD!  Yes, I know the point is to have more carbs than normal, but man did I milk it!  LOL  And I indeed did enjoy it.  My weight this AM (I think?) was 203.5.  I believe I weighed in this AM.... maybe it was yesterday?  Yes, I'm forgetful today!  Been busy trying to catch the housework back up and running errands.  My 'official' weigh-in day is normally Sunday, but that won't be a long enough stretch to see if I made any real progress.  So, even though I may check my weight, I don't think I will do an official weigh-in until the beginning of July.  I really don't want to get hung up on the numbers.  And I'm afraid I might.  Although, I haven't been as bad as I thought I might be.  I will do measurements when I hit one month from the time I measured.  Don't think there will be a change, but I'll do it anyways.

I realized the other day that we are in week 25 of the year.  That leaves 27 weeks for 2011.  Kinda hard to believe that the year is almost half way over!  UNREAL!  Anyways, my point is that even if I only manage to lose 1lb. a week for the rest of the year, I will have lost 27lbs.!  ON TOP OF the 18.5 I've already lost.  That would put me at 171 with a total weight loss of 45.5lbs. for the year of 2011!  Now, this is being 'conservative' and hoping I don't hit any nasty plateau's.  But the thought that I could possibly end the year in the low 170's or maybe even the high 160's if I happen to have a couple of good losses.... especially since the difference is only 2lbs.!  :D  I will just need to stay on track as much as I possibly can.  I think I will be fine until Oct.  Oh, Halloween, how I love thee!!!!  It has thrown me off before.  I get so caught up in the festivities, I well, eat like a Christmas hog that has no idea it's going for slaughter come winter!  LOL  But the thought of being down that much, even if it takes a long time, is great motivation for me.

Yes, I am trying to see the silver lining in how I am feeling these days.  I am trying really hard to talk/write about how I feel and hopefully see how I can deal with those emotions and find contentment with where I am now.  I want to be more open to changes and more accepting of what is right now.  No matter what those things are.  So, I'm trying to be overall in a better place even if I don't really 'feel' it right now.  Fake it til ya make it, right?  I just wish I knew where/what making it was!  LOL

Ok, well, it is now getting to be pretty late and I should be heading to bed.  I didn't mean to stay up until 1AM, but eh, it happens!  Hopefully I won't be a zombie tomorrow!!!  I only have a couple of house things I REALLY want to get done -- I would like to finish dusting the LR and then do the floors.  But other than that, nothing on the agenda.  Although, I may do some laundry so it doesn't pile up.  That alone is a BIG job in this house!  So, if I can get the first two done and the laundry started after hubby is up, I'll be doing GREAT!  Here's to a successful rest of the week... For ALL of us!  :D