Yes, another blog already! I guess I just feel like writing. Mostly because, I don't feel like dieting today. I just.... don't. I had a long, hard conversation with myself this AM over something stupid. AKA, cereal. All I wanted this AM was a big bowl of Crispix with milk and sugar. *sigh* I haven't had that in years, but for some reason that sounded SO good this AM! I DID eat a handfulish amount of the cereal, but then caught myself. I think I am having sympathy cravings. Or is that depression cravings? I don't know. Either way, I wanted that cereal like none other. But I talked myself out of it. Like, OUT LOUD. I'm sure I sound nuts. But I don't care. I put the box away and had a leftover sausage patty with some cheese and a protein shake. I already had almost an entire bottle of water. For lunch, I will probably do a salad and take my vitamins. Dinner is going to be some leftover mu shu and mixed veggies. I won't eat the sauce, the pancakes, or the rice. So, I think that will be ok. I just feel so out of whack. I don't know what happened to my confidence. I think it went down the drain with the sunscreen.
Is that how it is always going to be? We are going to feel great and successful and then BOOM -- hit a wall? Cause that is how I feel right now. Against a wall. And I want to give up. Even if I know in my logical side of my brain that all that will do is make me feel WORSE! I am just so darn bummed about zero loss this month. I mean, I know I should be happy about no gain, but dadgum. I just feel annoyed! ANNOYED! And I don't know where to go from here. UGH.
On another note, I won't be able to weigh-in next Sunday. I will be out of town on Sat. for a wedding shower and so I'm thinking I will have that be my off day. I think I will do my 'official' weigh-in that morning. Not that I am expecting much at this point. I just feel like I'm struggling and getting no where. :( My friend's wedding is coming up in just a few weeks and I was hoping to be in the 180's by then. LOW 180's. THAT isn't going to happen now. Well, unless I start dropping some major poundage each week. And that isn't going to happen. So, I'm feeling really down about things right now. I know it will eventually pass, I just feel like yuck now.
Oh, and still no improvement on the workout front. I was looking up simple ways to burn 100 cals. last night and found some fun stuff. May try it. What could it hurt? Also not sure what diet I want to stick with. I know I keep saying I'm going to switch, but I keep coming back to avoiding processed carbs as the way to lose and that seems to be what works best. I just don't know if that's really it or it just feels that way.
Ok, going to go for now because I'm bumming myself out. LOL Have a great 4th ladies!
I've been there I tell you. Like you work so hard, eat right, exercise and but no progress. It is definately annoying and sometimes defeating.
ReplyDeleteBut you gotta put in in perspective. As you said maintaining is not as bad as gaining.
F the numbers, they don't define who you are. And you're amazing and you've come so far in your journey.
I always remind myself that I didn't gain weight overnight, so that means I won't lose them overnight either.
I hope you feel better Jewelz