Sounds like the title of a scary movie. LOL But it's true... it's how I feel today. I'm not scared to keep going. I AM afraid it won't happen or will be really slow, but I can't live my life based on fear. I have to keep pushing forward and do my best. 2hotinhere, you didn't scare me! Please don't think you did! I am NOT giving up. I am just not going to be so harsh on myself. I know I will eventually make it. I am just going to be more kind to myself right now knowing that my little one is keeping me from the sleep I really need. Napping would help SO much, but with two kiddos at home, it just doesn't happen. But I'm not giving up -- that's just not me. I may have bad days and feel like it, but overall, I KNOW this isn't just some thing to do for now and then give up. I will have to watch my weight and monitor my health for the rest of my life. I do NOT want to live like my parents. I want to be busy and active like my grandparents. When my Granny passed, she was 99. If it hadn't been for a bad accident, she would've probably been running around until the day she passed. That's how I want to live. Busy, active, happy.... not on the couch. I love my parents, but they spend too much time at home, on the couch, in front of the TV. They HAVE been trying, but I wish they would've tried more when they were younger. However, for my Mom, I understand. But that is another long story for another day.
Yesterday went pretty well. I sipped on water all day, but I forgot how much I drank. I believe at least 1.5L and then a couple of glasses. I took my vitamins, too!
Breakfast: coffee, a whole wheat LC pita with crunchy PB and a drizzle of honey
Lunch: Green protein smoothie (kale, blueberries, and banana)
Snack: Some cheese and pepperoni then decided I'd rather have popcorn
Dinner: Small home-made cheeseburger with RS ketchup and steamed broccoli
Dessert: I serving raw cookie dough
OK, I know the cookie dough sounds gross, but it was good! And I only had the one serving. I think the only thing I might have gone over on was the popcorn. I ate a couple of pieces of cheese and a few bites of pepperoni, but it didn't satisfy and I looked around and saw the popcorn. So, oldest and I split it. It was a nice change. :) I feel like I need to find more options for my afternoon snack. It feels like the only reason I ate dessert last night was because my snack hadn't been as satisfying as I would like. I'm afraid I'm in a 'habit' and I need to break it. So, today, I plan on eating something different. I also plan on eating a bit earlier. I've been eating late the last few days and I've noticed that I get much hungrier. Not going that long today. Going to try to eat a bit after 12. It's turning 9AM right now and I'm almost done with breakfast.
I'm doing pretty good at not 'snacking'. It can be hard with the kids... they are always eating and not finishing food. I go dump it before I don't think and attempt to eat it. As a result, I've gotten better at making them smaller portions so that if they want more, they ask for it instead of me throwing it out! LOL That's been working out pretty well. Snacking for a SAHM is probably one of the biggest things to avoid. Partly because you are so busy you want to eat when you can and partly because you hate to be wasteful. So, NOT doing that is a big accomplishment.
The rest of the time, I'm trying to stay busy. I'm trying to stay on top of housework, not let the toys pile up, AND work on projects when I can. Yesterday, I cleaned cleaned cleaned... and then I worked in the bathroom again. This time, I worked on the back wall and got it all sanded down. It looks SO good! I do need to touch up maybe one or two more spots, but after that, I will be ready to work on the ceiling patch. I'm not sure, but I may go ahead and prime and paint that wall before I work on the ceiling. The ceiling is just one small strip and won't need much, and any overspray texture in that area can be easily wiped off of the paint since it is semi-gloss. I am hoping that over the hubby's time off I can finish the walls, ceiling and floors. If he has time, maybe the hubbs can even put in the trim and the new door. But it will all depend on the weather, whether our windows get installed, and if we have any help.
Be proud ladies.... the urge to weigh was STRONG this AM, but I didn't. Logically, I know that I probably haven't lost anything so I KNEW there was no point in weighing. But that little niggling voice in my head said to do it. But I did NOT! I told it to shut up and quit being obsessed. I'm a bit bossy, so it shut right up and on we went. LOL I know I said my countdown was to go to Sunday, but I will be out of town on Friday and Sat., so not sure what will come of my weight. I am thinking I will have a gain. But I don't know. I will still do the weigh-in then because... well... I don't know when else I would except for maybe Friday morning... I may do that. I guess we will see.
One thing is bothering me, though. I had told my Mom we would be coming down for this wedding and staying the night. Now, she's acting like I never told her. I told her MONTHS ago and I hadn't said anything up until now because I figured with her knowing about the wedding that she would realize and remember that it's sort-of a thing that goes over a few days. I can't do the whole shindig -- I just can't. But I am doing the day before and the day of. And then when I mentioned having the house ready for the kids, she was like well it's just a couple of hours.... UHhhh.. No, I will be gone ALL DAY. Yes, the hubby will be there for part of it, but he will be coming to the wedding and to the party after. How could she forget that? Now, I'm not sure what to do. I am thinking of going down on Friday for everything alone and then driving down with the fam on Sat. The hubby could stay with the kids (even through the wedding) and only come for the reception. That would solve the staying the night thing and the kiddos being rampant alone at the 'rents. I think that is the best solution, even if it will wear me out a bit. I just won't be staying long at the rehearsal dinner. And I will need to make sure to get everything ready Friday morning so that we are ready to go Sat. morning. I think if we left here by 10, we'd be fine. Guess I will talk it over with hubby.
Well, I have gone back and forth on here several times. LOL So, I think I am going to go and get something DONE. Have a great day, chicks!
HUGS! I knew you weren't going to quit. An infant will suck the sleep right out of you, and you have to get adequate sleep for your body to do its house cleaning to get rid of water and such. The baby may make you stall for one or three months until the baby can sleep through the night. Hey one pound loss for three months, is one pound down, and not losing any ground! If you have to keep that a goal then it is a goal, you can out will weight and baby so you won't gain. I will totally celebrate with you if you can do it! (it sounds frighteningly hard!)
ReplyDeleteOh, MissCatty.... My 'baby' is 13mos. And STILL up one to two times a night. And fights his naps like the Devil! My oldest was SO much easier. He was a sleeper and still is. And we have tried EVERYTHING!!!
ReplyDeleteOy, I had a friend that had the same issue. She went to the doctor about it, and the doctor thought her boy might be ADHD, and the fact that he wasn't getting enough baby brain development sleep they put him on meds. Still doesn't sleep long hours, but he does sleep through the majority of the night. My youngest fought naps like the devil, and if he took one he was always up way too early for me. I eventually decided naps weren't going to work but quiet time, IE sit and read a longer book, or watch a slow paced movie was good enough, and I never pushed anything past bed time during that time period, sometimes he was in bed and so was dad before I could get groceries! Cranky babies are worse then cranky Miss Cattys! I would mention food allergies, but I am sure you have looked into that. My parents weren't above drugging me, but that much benedryl gets expensive and child protective services doesn't like whisky in the bottle... :D
ReplyDelete@ misscatty "...child protective services doesn't like whisky in the bottle..." LMAO!
ReplyDeleteTake it easy on yourself, Jewlz. Put away your scale for a couple of weeks. I slid mine back under the bed because I started getting scale crazy again. If my weight stays the same for a week I'll get myself worked up over nothing. Weight loss is tricky. Be good and loving towards yourself! We have to teach ourselves to eat well for life, take breaks, and have rewards when we need them. It is a slow process, and our numbers aren't going to go down every week.