197 Woot!

Two good things already to report!  First, youngest slept through the night!  I don't know if I wore him out or what, but he finally slept through the night and I got a decent night's sleep.  I did get up once to check him because I was so shocked, but he was snoozing away!  This has happened before, though, so I don't expect it to be a permanent thing.  And that's ok.  Getting some solid sleep last night made up for several nights of up and down!

Next thing is my weight was 197!  Yay!  That makes my loss for the month of August to be 2lbs.  Yeah, not much, but way better than June and July which was 0 and 0.5!  Glad to see movement in the right direction.  Even after going out for dinner last night!  Although, I do think I made really good choices.  Yeah, I could've eaten enough fries to fill a small elephant, but what good would that have done?  Nada.  I'd rather have fries when I could have them in a bit of a more controlled fashion.  At Red Robin, they're endless so keeping up with how many you have is darn near impossible.  Mostly because every time you move they're plopping them down!  So, if you don't order them, then just don't eat them.  Like I said, I DID eat two, but they weren't what I wanted so I just said no.

Anyways, happy with my 197.  I was secretly hoping for 196 something, but the 197 is still good!  I'm hoping that I can stick with this.  It feels pretty good!  And I feel like I'm eating at a level I can maintain and have some wiggle room.  I recently read somewhere that you should eat the amount of calories needed to maintain your goal weight.  I'm a bit under that!  So, if I have a hungry day and need to eat a bit more or a busy day and I eat a bit less, I should be ok.  And so far, that seems to be working well.  I just hope it continues to stick.  I know I will hit a plateau at some point, but I will have to find a way to push through it.  There are 16 weeks left for the year (OMG!!!) so I am hoping that I can be under 180 by the end of the year.  It sure would be nice to start 2012 off in the 170's!!!  Not sure it will happen since I have only lost 2.5 in the last couple of months, but can't hurt to have a goal, right?  :D

Emotionally, I'm feeling better today.  The loss of my friend's nephew has been hard and brought to light a lot of feelings that no Mom ever wants to deal with, but I've been pushing through.  Makes me want to TRY to enjoy my kids more.  It's hard day in and day out at times because you get into a pattern to deal with everything, but I am trying to be better about appreciating the small things with them.  And I realize, that most parents are doing the best they can... including me.  I don't always do great, but I always try.  And I think that my kids can see how much I love them.  It's just the thought of losing one of them just about kills me.  But just as you can't control your body, you can't control life.  All you can do is your best and hope that things go as well as they can.

I do have one worry right at the moment... My hubby is about to be off for 7 days.  We plan on doing a LOT of work around the house.  We need to put up some outside trim, hang siding, caulk it all, and paint.  That's not to mention the INSIDE stuff that needs to be done!  LOL  But that will have to wait.  Although, I may try to do some today depending on how the kids are.  We will see.  :D  Mostly work in the foyer.  May try to get my wall paint mixed (the color isn't quite right, but I have mix-ins) and maybe the steps prepped.  Been trying to do that for a while, but things keep coming up.  I never got to dust yesterday, so I for sure need to do that and more laundry.  BLEH.  Laundry is never ending!  Back to my point... I am worried that over the 7 day break, I will fall off plan due to being so busy.  :(  So, I am trying to come up with a plan of attack.  I think what I will do is plan on having a high calorie snack to help me stay on track.  Cause I will know that once I eat that, everything else needs to be on plan.  But we will see.  We have plenty of food in the house, so I'm hoping that with that here, I won't be so tempted.  The hubbs has been helping by saying he thought we should keep it simple -- especially at lunch.  Sandwich and some fruit or plain chips.  Sounds good to me!  :)

Well, I guess I should be getting off of here and getting on with my day.  Back later, chicks!