The 196 Blues

OK, well, I'm not really blue.  But, it sorta sounded good!  LOL  AND, I am actually 196 again today.  Yesterday was my relaxed day, so I had actually thought I might be up even more than that.  But the truth is... I didn't eat much.  We went out for brunch so I ended up just having that and didn't even eat all of it.  I wasn't hungry until late and then I had an apple with some PB.  Dinner was meatball sandwiches and chips with dip.  I found these amazing turkey meatballs at Kroger.  SO good!  The only thing is... they're huge!  NO JOKE.  I'm sure they are normal meatball size, but it's SUCH a pain to try to eat them.  I am seriously thinking that if we use them for pasta that I will be cutting them down.  And for sandwiches, they will get halved.  But the cals are really good.  I think these will become a staple.  Going to watch for them to go on sale and then LOAD UP.  Those, a salad and some mashed potatoes... YUM.  And at 160 cals for 6, WOW.  Yup.  So glad I found them!

So, instead of my weight being up more, I'm the same.  I'm ok with that.  I don't feel up or down about it really.  I would've liked to have seen a loss, but I know something is going on and I just want to ride it out.  I've just been doing this too long to let every little jump or dip drive me nuts.  I just have to do what I have to do and get on with it, ya know?  And the thing is, I know that the numbers are literally all in my head.  When someone on the street looks at me, they can't see those tiny weight changes.  People just recently noticed my loss and from my highest every, I'm down like 30lbs.!  And from my most recent high, 20.  So, I just keep remembering that most of these numbers that I see are just that.  What I see.  No one else sees a number when they see me and I have to stop living my life based on that number.  If it were going up and up and up, that would be different.  But I AM working on it and doing my best.  I know if I stick with it, I will see some changes.

Hubby goes back to work the middle of this week so I will be getting on a better schedule.  Right now, we eat mostly together and like I said, I've done pretty well.  But this weird bloating... yeah.  If it is in fact ovulating, that should be passing soon.  That means my next weigh-in could be good.  :)  I am hoping the bloat starts to pass and that I will see a loss come Sunday.  Even if it is a small loss!  I need a good weigh-in this Sunday seeing as how once I get close to starting my cycle, well, the bloat will begin all over again.  BLEH!  LOL

Well, I guess I should get off of here and get going.  I need to caulk and paint the soffit in the front if the rain holds off, run to JCPenney's, and stop by Kroger.  I don't have to go into the school today since oldest took his first round of snacks in all by himself!  He's so cute!  Growing so fast.  *sigh*  Time just goes by so fast, but he makes me so proud.

OH!  Family Affair, just wanted to say thanks for the reminder about trying customer service.  I will do that first but if they won't give it to me, then I will just return.  It was only two items... two pairs of jeans for oldest.  So, it's not a huge ordeal.  Just wish I hadn't forgotten it.  I wish I had more time to look for me, but you know how that goes.  Maybe if I get up and get going, I COULD look for a bit.  TEEHEE!  OK OK, I am off of here for now.  Later chicks!