10...

Yup.  10 whole days since I last posted.  I am enjoying the holidays, but it's been super busy.  So, again, I just haven't been posting like before.  I'm trying to relax when I can, but for the most part, I feel sorta fried!  And right now, I'm worried about us all being sick for the holidays.  The stomach virus is going around like CRAZY and I'm worried about getting it.  Not only do I hate the stomach flu, but I would sure hate to get it during the holidays.  I know there's really no way to avoid it since oldest is in public school and I DO have to leave the house sometimes!  I can't live like a hermit.  But the thought of it just makes me nuts.  I'd sure love to know where all of these came from -- I don't recall EVER having the stomach bug when I was in school.  Especially not high school.  And here lately, the ones going around are taking down the whole family -- not just young kids.  I get the younger kids one since their bodies haven't built up immunities, but what's up with these vicious stomach bugs taking down entire families???  I just don't understand where they came from!  It's driving me crazy.  It's like some alien virus that was dropped from outer space and they just spread all over the damn place now.  AARGH.  HATE THEM!!!  Everyone prays for cures for tons of things... I pray for the stomach virus plaque to die down or go away.  It's a menace to people and families.

Ok, ok, ok.  On to something else.  I know the LAST thing anyone wants to talk about when talking of dieting is of being sick!  So, I will get on with it.  My weight this AM was 191.5.  Which means I am about the same.  Not going up... not going down.  My diet isn't horrid.  I'm somewhat trying... I'm not killing myself or counting each little thing, but I guess that it helps IMMENSELY that I am sooooo busy running around.  Literally.  I am up, down, and all around non-stop these days.  Between running after the kids, running errands, trying to get projects knocked out, decorate, shop, cook and clean for Christmas, and then finishing up school.... well...  YEAH.  CRAZINESS.  But overall, I think it has helped to stay busy since if I wasn't busy, I'd probably be eating every sweet thing in sight!  LMAO  I HAVE been eating a lot of junk... but I'm trying to eat it within reason.

On a good note, I saw an old friend today and she hadn't seen me in a LONG time.  And she was shocked at how thin I was.  She said at first, she didn't know what to say.  Not that I was THAT huge before, but at my top weight I was 226.5.  And on a short girl... well, 35lbs. looks closer to 50.  I'm not that short, but I'm no where near tall either at just under 5'4''.  So, it was nice to see that someone else really NOTICED.  People around me say they see it and say things, but when someone comes back that hasn't seen you for a LONG time and is like WOW, well, that makes a nice little ping in the brain.

Also... I got into my 14's!  Not SQUEEZED, but IN them!  I pulled them right up and buttoned them.  I didn't believe it at first, so I tried on every pair I had!  Only one pair was slightly snugger than comfortable.  I won't wear those until I get down another few pounds.  But I was SO pleased!  SO!  I hope to be a 10/in the 160's by summer.  Not sure if it will happen, but I'm sure gonna try!  After that... well... not sure where I want to go, but I'm just going to see how I feel then.  I think I will want to lose another 10 to 15lbs.  Maybe do the mid 150's.  Possibly 140's since that is where they SAY I should be -- 145 or less to have a BMI of 25 or less.  Although, I must admit I think that BMI stuff is a bunch of horse pucky.  I've covered that before, but I'll say it again -- too many factors contribute to overall health to ONLY look at height v. weight.  That's why I say I'll keep working my way down and go from there.  I refuse to go to a number just because they say that's where I should be.  I want to go where I feel good.  Of course I want to look good -- that's understood!  But if I get to say 156 and I feel good, look good, and don't have to kill myself to stay there, then that's where I'll stay.  If I go lower of my bodies own accord, fine.  But I refuse to starve myself or work myself to death to get to a number.  I want to live life and enjoy it.  And for me, I just don't think that 10 or even 20lbs. at that point will make me feel tons better.  But who knows?  Never say never, I guess.  LOL

Well, I guess that's all I have to say for now.  I'm sure the next few weeks will be mayhem, so I am just going to say see you later for now!  Hope you are all having VERY happy holidays!  And Merry Christmas!  :D