TWO

That's right -- TWO posts in TWO days!  Shock of almighty shocks.  LOL

Anyways, just wanted to post that I am already starting to drop some of this built up fluid.  I weighed in at 190 this AM, so I am hoping to be very close to my low by next week.  I'll probably weigh-in on Thursday or Friday.  I haven't had any water, yet, this AM, but I'm about to get on it.  I'm actually thinking of trying to paint for a couple of hours before I have to be at the school.  If I get started soon, I could do at least an hour to an hour and a half.  Which would allow me to knock out a big chunk of the celing.  And since that really needs to be done, that's sounding better and better by the minute!  That alone would be a good amount of exercise!!!!  I need to clean the kitchen and do some laundry, but I could do that later.  While I can, I really should paint!  The sooner I do it, the sooner it's done!  LOL

Food is going well.  The chocolate shakes are really helping me because when I'm in a hurry (like this morning), I can just grab a shake and go.  But with still doing L&G for major meals, I can really have flexibility.  I don't want to do all shakes, but having them for when I need them is AWESOME.  I've not even had any major cravings or challenges as far as food goes.  Which surprises me since I didn't eat so well for a couple of days!  Usually, cravings are insane.  But I realize I can control it, so I do.  I really want to drop some more numbers.  I want to be very close to a healthy weight -- as close as I can get and maintain without killing myself to be there.  That's just no way to live.  :)

I realized the other day that I am the 'fat friend'.  I always knew it, but it really hit me the other day that I am no longer going to be the 'really fat friend'.  I may still be heavier than my little group of friends, but it's going to be by only 10 to 30lbs. (I have some very thin friends!) instead of 50 to 70.  I don't mind carrying a little extra weight as long as I know I'm eating healthy and getting my exercise, but before, I was just BIG.  Even now with just about 40lbs. down, I see a difference in the way people look at me and treat me, how I feel, and in how I feel I look day to day.  Overall, it's been a big change.  And even now when my average weight is in the 180's, I feel good.  I may be heavier, but I'm not huge.  So, it's a good feeling for me right now.  The scary part is, I didn't really see how big I was when I was in the 220's and about to hit the 230's.  I see now how bad it was and I am VERY glad that I chose to take another whack at it and try to lose this weight.  I almost gave up!  And I am doing it!  Slowly, but doing it.  NONE of my old friends have every seen my weight this low.  So, whether I am in the 150's or 180's, it's going to be a shock for them to see me.  Which is a nice thought.  LOL  It's always nice to make a good changes and others see it!

Well, I think I've rambled on enough.  I really should get my tushy in gear and get downstairs and do some painting.