Cheating

I so cheated today.  Like, big time over the top and don't want to stop cheating.  LOL  I just couldn't help myself.  LOVE cheat day!  I probably didn't go crazy.... Breakfast was good and then a very light and nibbly lunch of a spring roll and a couple of crab rangoons.  Then three cookies.  I JUST had dinner and it was Chinese.  And wine.  And I also ate some chocolate.  And there may be ice cream.  Just don't know.  LOL  So far, the wine has been the best.  I feel nice and relaxed.  LOL  I had mu shu pork (without the pancake things) and that was SO good!  I wonder how many carbs are in that?  I mean, it's just pork, mushrooms, and some other veggies.  Can't be too bad unless you eat the rice and the pancakes.  I also didn't use the extra sauce.  Hmm... not sounding as bad as I thought now...  LOL  Either way, it's what I wanted and I have enjoyed it.  I'm sure the worst was the rice that I ate of my son's.  But it was good, too.

I did my weigh-in today.  BLEH!!!  199.5.  So, I ended the month of July the same way I started.  I am ANNOYED to say the least but I believe that it is my own fault.  Even though I enjoyed the week off in June, I don't think it was needed at that time.  Like I said before, I won't be doing that again unless I stall out.  But I will be taking a cheat day here and there -- like today.  I don't know why, but I just needed today off.  Tomorrow is back to the grind.  I AM pleased to say that even though my weight didn't go down, my measurements did.  I'm STILL not working out right now, but they went down.  1'' on bust, 1'' on waist, and then 0.5'' on my hips.  Craziness!  Not sure how that happened.  But, I am thankful for it so that I don't feel like I lost the entire last month.  But now, NOW I am really behind.  Just sucks.  Today was the last day of the 26th week of the year.  I should've hit closer to 26lbs.  I am 9lbs. from that.  :(  So, I only have 26 more weeks from tomorrow to lose the 35lbs. I need to lose to hit my 52lb. end of year goal.  I don't think I'm going to make it.  I would need to lose 1.5lbs. every week for the rest of the year.  And with my current streak, it's not going to happen.

I'm not sure where to go from here on that front.  I was on plan all week and kept my carbs low, but I didn't lose.  BUT, I also had TOM, was traveling and out in the heat a lot, and then I've never dealt with stress well even if it wasn't bad.  I just don't travel well.  lol  Anyways, I'm not sure if I'm not doing something right or what.  But this month sure was a disappointment to me in the weight loss dept.  So, I'm not sure what to do from here.  I'm kinda thinking I should stick it out but another part of me is wondering if I should TRY calorie counting.  I've done it in the past without much success, but maybe things would be different now?  I just don't know.  I am just frustrated that this month was a bust.  *sigh*  I somewhat feel like a failure.  Here I've been trying to be encouraging to everyone else, and I let myself down.  I really don't know what to do now or where to go.  AND, I have a total of 46.5 to lose just to get to 153.  UGH.

Ok, this post is making me depressed so I think I am going to get off of here and get going.  Not sure how the rest of this night will go, but I plan on relaxing and then heading to bed.  Not sure what tomorrow will bring either!  I really have no plans.  BORING!  But that is ok, I need to take it easy and rest up if possible.  LOL  I have YET to really do that!  So, resting tomorrow will be good even if nothing else is done.  I just need to make some decisions on where to go from here.  Have a great weekend, chicks.  Talk to you all soon.... I hope!