Writing a new post

Well, I'm back from vacay and decided to write a new post.  That's right, VACAY!  After my last post, the hubbs and I talked and decided that we really needed to take a break and get away for a bit.  We were both just FRIED and feeling the crunch and decided that for once, we were going to put us and our needs ahead of what anyone else wanted or needed.  I know that sounds selfish, but that is EXACTLY what we needed right now.  And it was GREAT!  We went to SC to see some friends we haven't seen in a while.  We've missed them so much.  While there, we went to the beach, went out to eat, shopped, etc.  I stuck to low carb for all but 2.5 days and then I am back on the wagon today and doing fine other than being exhausted.  But I AM proud to say that I bought TONS of new clothes (at great deals!) all in L and 14's!  AWESOME!  I knew that at like, Wal-mart and Goody's I had been a 14, but had no idea I could wear them in the higher end clothes.  I AM ECSTATIC!  I'm hoping these clothes will last for this summer and if I have to buy more next year, so be it.  But for this year, I think I can make all these shirts work.

Anyways, it was a nice relaxing vacation that was overdue in my book.  And thankfully, these are great friends who are low drama and great to hang with.  We all talked about the drama going on around us and how we were feeling pulled in the middle and how we all thought we could handle it.  Unfortunately, not many ways to deal with it other than to stay out of it.  I try, I really do, but sometimes it's hard for me to keep my opinion to myself when someone is doing the same ol' things over and over again and then asks me what I think.  It's like, don't ask if you don't really wanna know!!!  But they always ask and inevitably get upset when you point out what it is they knew they didn't want to hear.  Like, yeah, you're being a big baby -- grow up, get a job, and stop whining to me about things and then saying that I don't get it!  I mean, I may be older than you (by only 5yrs!) but I DO remember what it's like to be in your early 20's and struggle.  We ALL have been through it!  Get OVER yourself!

Back to the important stuff.  I weighed in this AM at 196.  :O  Yes, I realize that sounds high, but I do NOT travel well!  I love to travel, but I find I don't eat or drink enough when traveling.  Then I had my cheat day on Sunday night.  MORE travel on Monday and I didn't eat 100%.  Then yesterday was Cinco de Mayo.  I didn't take any of the days off totally (which I don't like to do, I'd rather just have one thing off).  But I will say, yesterday had lots of tequila and cerveza.  OY.  But it was FUN!  So, today I woke up to a REALLY high number, my period, and TONS of BLOAT!  My skin on my hands was swelled up over my ring!!!  I've been drinking my water and shakes (640z of water down and it's only 5PM) like a mad woman!  I swear, I don't think my toilet has been used this much in ages!  My water bill from drinking and flushing is going to be through the ROOF.  LMAO  But amazingly, the swelling is already moving down.  So, that leads me to believe that given a couple of days, that 196 will be back down in the mid-180's.

And hopefully, in a few weeks I will be seeing the 170's.  I am on it people.  I want this!!!!  I had so much fun shopping and seeing my friends and going to the beach without feeling like a WHALE.  It makes me want to continue seeing those numbers go down.  I want to be a healthy and happy weight and be able to maintain it for the rest of my life.  I want to feel good, look good, and not have to worry so much about weight-related health issues.  I wish that after all this time that I had been able to find a way without doing the shakes, but losing at all has been a huge victory for me.  The only way for me is this, and I CAN do it.  I mean, I started this path last July on the 31st.  I hope to be in the low 170's by then.  I will be VERY happy with a 50lb.+ weight loss at that point.  I will feel like I'm on top of the world!

Well, I guess I should stop rambling.  I'm overall just in a better place today, if somewhat bloated and tired.  But by next week, I hope to start seeing progress down.  I'm keeping track in my notebook and on my calendar -- and of course, on here.  I really do need to start getting on the forums some, but I just never seem to get to it!  Maybe I'll go cruise over on there now.  ;)  Toodles!