Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Taking a BREAK

I'm taking a break and cooling off.  It's SO hot out!  The heat index earlier was like, 106.  And it feels it.  I'm not even going to look now.  I'm going to focus on the fact that it is after 6 now and the temp is going down.  I'm going back out in 10 more mins.  I'm trying to work for 30, rest for 30.  Progress is slow, but it's progress.  I'm glad we're doing the Uhaul UBoxes.  I don't think we could load all this in like, one or two days and be out.  It's just... tooooooooo muuuuuuuuch heeeeeeeat.  I've sweat through my clothes like, 6 times. 

Luckily, my bro came today and cleared out quite a bit of stuff.  Which is great.  So, now I'm trying to finish doing some loading.  I'm trying to get all of the crap out of certain rooms.  I should do a list. Think I will do that now and come back to this later.

OK!  Did my list and did some work.  Probably wasted work.  I probably should've just waited. But...I got the futon in and almost all of the boxes. Tomorrow, I work with my BIL and SIL to clear out our storage unit.  I hope to get all of that in boxes, too.  For now, we only have one room that is 'officially' empty.  That is our second bathroom downstairs.  BUT, the office is pretty empty other than a trunk and one filing cabinet.  AND, my youngest's room is empty other than a dresser and his electronics.  I know I won't get a room knocked out tomorrow unless you count the storage unit.  But I'm going to take the progress where I can.

We STILL don't know anything on the other house.  We have less than a week to be out.  AND, I keep getting bad headaches.  UGH.  So... it's a bit of mayhem and I'm not happy about it.  But we will survive.  I just pray that if this is the house for us, that it works out.  I just want my family happy and safe.  But if it IS NOT the house that God has planned, that something will happen to firmly shut the door. Because this back and forth with the hubby is so hard...  And I will admit that financially, I worry it is a mistake. :/  I know the house is in an area that sells MUCH higher.... but I'm worried we are pushing it NOW.  Does that make sense? 

Ok, enough fretting.  I should go to bed and soon. I'm tired.  My body hurts.  I need to get rest or I won't be much use tomorrow.  Although, the kids are 'camping out' in the living room so I'm kinda sticking around a bit to make sure they go to sleep. Youngest is pooped, so rest is necessary at this point. Although, I see the fight still.  LOL 

Friday, June 19, 2015

Achy

This heat wave we're having is frying me out way faster than I'm liking.  I can't seem to get much accomplished because it's just so dang hot!  I have to stop all the time for breaks -- even if I'm just doing things in the garage. UGH.  But I'm making progress.  I'm just not sure it's ENOUGH progress.  Maybe I will feel better come Monday when they deliver the U-boxes.... I don't know.  Right now, it really feels like there are things EVERY WHERE.  Boxes in the downstairs, in the garage, in the hall, in the rooms... I'm trying to finish odds and ends projects and the hand full of odd 'fixes' for the inspection.  I realize I don't HAVE to finish the projects, but I refuse to leave it as-is.  It's a quirk of my personality.  I don't like to leave things a mess.  I don't mind leaving the painting as I know that is all about personal taste.  But I won't leave 'work'.  Basically, I'm finishing what we started in the office.  Which is trim, quarter round, and a coat of primer on the closet door.  I'm done with the trim.  I just need to finish the primer and the quarter round.  I'm going to go ahead and spackle and caulk it, but that is it.  I figure if they want it painted, they can paint it whatever color they would like.  It will be ready!  I also went ahead and finished the caulk on the fireplace.  I am, however, going to have to go back and caulk around one window.  I had spackled it at installation, but I think it shrank too much and it pulled away.  So, I'm going to go back over it with caulk and touch it up.  I'll do that while I have the caulk out for the office. 

We have exactly 10 days until closing.  Our inspection was over and there were no real hits on it.  We did go ahead and do several things on the list that were minor just because they were already on our 'To Do' list.  We've had our appraisal, but we haven't heard back if our price was right.  He indicated we looked good... but I just want to make sure!  I don't like sneaky weaky stuff.  LOL  No surprises at closing, please!

Anyways, our Uboxes come on Monday the 22nd.  They pick them up on the 29th @ 9AM.  I hope to have the vast majority of our stuff cleared out and packed up next week, but I'm worried about the weather with these storms and the heat.  I just may not be able to get as much done as I had hoped.  I'm a hard worker, but I'm just not sure how all of this will affect me.  The storms make it a wet job along with headaches.  The heat is about the same!  I just don't want the hubby to come home and work himself to death over the weekend, so I'm trying to knock out a chunk.  Which means this weekend and coming week, I need to get as much done as possible, but then we have the heat and the storms!  UGH.  And it's a lot.  I'm trying to finish eating the food out of the freezer and fridge but not go over my cals something horrible.  Although, my bro said he would take anything that didn't get eaten.  Which is awesome.  I may take a few things with me to my Mom's though.  I'm not sure how long we are going to be there, so I need to make sure we have food that I can eat there.  I may even take my own pans.  We will see. 

What is REALLY going to suck is that my parents don't have internet.  :/  That means my blog and everything will be ignored.  UGH.  I'm not sure what to even think of that.  I'm thinking that I will have to try to escape at least once a week to a coffee shop or something in the next town over to borrow some internet.  I will have to to pay bills and such since I will have all of the final bills from here.  Which I have to call and disconnect next week; looks like it is only 3 things.  I've already paid off or shut down most of the utilities and bills.  Score. 

Our big issue at this time is that we haven't been able to find a house.  We keep finding stuff that 'could' work, but nothing we love.  Although, there was one house on Camelot that we DID love, but they wouldn't work with us because our loan is a VA.  And our top number is 200k.  And that house was a bit over 200k.  Although, now the bank is saying if we pay off our car, we could do 250k.  I hate to do that, but we are not finding anything and it looks like that may be our best option.  So, we are going to look into it.  We only owe a bit over 5k.  So, I'm thinking of borrowing the money from my parents to pay it off and then paying them back once our sale has gone through.  I'm not sure what else to do. 

Well, I keep thinking of things to do and keep getting texts, so I guess I should get off of here and get rolling.  I just remembered that I have to get a toilet thing since the toilet downstairs takes FOREVER to fill.  So, one more thing to add on my list.  UGH.  And I'm too blubber brained today to do much but throw things in a box.  And now my oldest is acting like a big ol' baby and it's on my NERVE.  Already.  Crying over his stupid Kindle not being charged!  UGH.  Not like they didn't get to play a TON yesterday because it was either a billion degrees or storming.  :/ 

Ok, off I go.  Hopefully my head will let up enough that I can live and function.  Crap to do and no one to do it but me.  GAH.  I had forgotten how bad this moving thing can suck at times....




















Saturday, June 6, 2015

Better

I guess I'm feeling somewhat better tonight.  I got a lot done today.  I got all of the laundry down, sorted, and several loads done.  I picked up the house and got a LOT of straightening done.  I finished cleaning out the second bathroom other than the rod and curtain -- I'm not sure if I should return them, pack them, or leave them.  I also managed to purge the shed, sell several things, and all in all just get a lot of things done.  I'm pretty happy with it!  I had hoped, really hoped, to get the office done, but I just didn't get to it like I had hoped.  Which blows.  But I'm just too tired.  I am going to go down and check laundry in a minute, but other than that, I've been taking it easy.  I am just SO tired from not sleeping well.  UGH.

My one sore spot tonight is that I found a small roach near my washing machine tonight.  Then after the folks who picked up some furniture left, I found a HUGE one.  Now, the small one was on the door of my washer and dead.  The big one was very alive and I managed to catch him.  I'm not sure if he was already in there, or if he came in when both doors were open (the walk through and the garage door).  But... I'm a smidge weirded out.  Now, I'm a pretty darn clean person, but I'm not perfect.  But the thought of those boogers being IN MY HOUSE freaks me out.  I know once they get in, it's a misery to get them out.  Funny thing is, we've been here for YEARS and never seen a smidge and now all of a sudden, they've popped up.  I just hope they are random ones looking for food and were unsuccessful!  Just weirds me out.  BIG TIME.  And now I'm worried because I have boxes stored in the garage and I'm worried there will be bugs in them.  They've only been in there a few weeks, but I'm worried.  I'm thinking of checking them all and moving them back into the house.  Is that stupid? 

I do realize I'm moving to an area where bugs are more rampant.  I do realize I've only seen two.  I'm still wigged out.  From what I've read, all it takes is ONE female roach and BAM.  You can be infested!  I am wigged out central right now.  I just don't understand where they could have come from.  I'm honestly thinking my husband brought them home from FL!  UGH.  I don't know what to do.  I do have boric acid powder that will kill roaches, but I'm not sure where to put it with only seeing one live one.  He was flying, so it was no help.  Apparently the brown banded male cocroaches fly when disturbed.  UGH.  I really hope it was a freak thing of one just flew in...  My skin is crawling just thinking about this. 

Other than that, it was a good day.  I'm trying to unwind and relax and not think about issues and stress.  I just want to get some good sleep, get some things done, and not feel like my brain is a mess, ya know?

Ok, off to pop this laundry back and then snack and bed. 

Friday, June 5, 2015

Anxiety

I haven't been posting lately, but I should be as a means of dealing with my anxiety.  Because my levels have been through the roof lately!  Some good, some not so good.  So, there ya go.  I know that writing and working out would help, but I've not done either.  I HAVE done copious amounts of wine drinking.  I have done tons of not sleeping.  I'm worn pretty thin, truth be told so I'm trying to do some kind of decompression in the form of blogging. 

SO, I guess an update is in order.  On the weekend of May 30, we got confirmation of 3 verbal offers on the house!  We ended up only getting 2 in writing, but two was more than enough!  We countered one and it was accepted!  As excited as I SHOULD be, I know that until the inspections are over, they have an 'out'.  So, I'm waiting for that confirmation now -- our inspection was over 3 days.  Day 1 was the start of the radon testing.  day 2 was exterior and interior, day 3 (today) was radon readings.  I know the radon was clear because I was here when they pulled the machine!  Now we wait.  I hope everything is ok.  I'm sure there were things found, I'm sure we will need to do something.  I just want to know and get it locked it!  Pretty much, once this is done, we are all set.  I can't think of anything else that needs to be done.  Well, other than pack the whole house, find a new house, and get out!  UGH.

They want to close and start moving in on the 29th.  Today is June 5th!  That means 24 days... which means we actually need to be out a few days before that, or at least mostly out.  This is why my anxiety is through the roof... it's all the unsure's right now.  I hope we hear back soon about the inspection.  I don't want to house hunt until we do.  The plan is if the inspection comes back ok, I will go down to look Sunday/Monday.  Hopefully get offers in that week and then go from there.  It's just all of the waiting and stress up to that point and very little down time. 

UGH.  I really should just get up from here and get to work.  Typing this all out is actually making me feel MORE anxious. I think I just need to get to work and that will help.  Off I go!

Friday, May 29, 2015

Purge?

I came on here to post, and realized that the post I wrote a few days ago never got published.  So, you lucky folks are getting two for the price of one! HA!

Things are ok right now.  We had another showing and I think it went ok.  No real feedback, though.  On a good note, my brain has been in a better place, so that helps a ton.

It helps that I have been out of the house some.  LOL

So, we've been going over the options with our house.  I'm not sure if I mentioned this last post (I didn't go back and read it well) but we are at one month on the market.  We are REALLY bummed about no offer and as I said, we aren't sure how long we can do this separated thing.  It's hard and frustrating, and I'm just not sure we, as a family, can do it too long.  So tonight, hubby started looking at a few rentals down there just to see if anything was available.  And sure enough, a few things have popped up.  SO, we are now back to looking at that as a real and viable option.  If we can find something for $1000 or less, we could swing it now that all of our debt is down.  We only have two things left since I took my Mom's advice about paying off the HVAC.  And that is the AmEx card and my car.  That's it.  The other things we had already been working down and had paid off.  But with my parent's help and guidance, we paid off two others.  We had originally wanted to wait and save that money for the next house, but my Mom made some good points and after thinking on it, realized she could be right.  For one thing, it makes things easier NOW.  Less to stress over NOW.  For another, it gives our payments time to be reflected on our current credit reports.  Also, it will make closing and moving our accounts easier because there will be fewer to move!  I'm glad we went ahead and did it.

SO, with all of that in mind, we can do a rental now.  It's scary to think of leaving home we already own and hoping it sells.  We know if we do it smart, we can be ok for a while.  It just sucks a bit to be so tight.  Others do it on smaller, and we can, too.  But it's also nice to think of us all being together and not having us and things spread all over.  We have this house and storage and then hubby at his rental.  It would be great to get it all in one place.  Even if that place is only a rental.  It's looking like our best option unless some other things fall into line.  And maybe the house being empty will help.  And like I think I mentioned, we are thinking of neutralizing all of the paint.  If we do, I may very well hire someone. Depends on cost.  I think it would just need to be the foyer, living room, kitchen and hall.  I could probably do it myself, really.  Maybe just the living room/kitchen?  I'm going to think on it some more.  I just wonder if it being super neutral and empty would help, ya know?  I want to think people are smart enough to be able to change paint and see their things here, but I'm thinking maybe they can't?  No idea.  I guess we will see. I hate to spend much more time or effort, but I'm not sure what else to do at this point.  I'm really tempted to pack up as much as possible and go.  I pray that God gives us guidance.  I know what I would LIKE, but I also know that he sees a bigger picture than me so I pray that we are able to figure it out and be patient!

Well, I hope this helps me to sleep some.  I should REALLY get to bed.  UGH.  Wish me luck on doing the right thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT?

So, after doing so well the other day, I had a mini meltdown of frustration and chucked my laptop.  I normally would've plopped it on the couch, but I chucked it on the floor and jacked up the screen.  I didn't throw it especially hard or violent, I just sorta threw it down and well... now I feel like I've wasted all of my careful penny pinching by ruining a brand new electronic device.  I guess I should have followed hubby's advice and returned it before.  The screen had been giving me issues from the get-go.  I think the issue is that it's a hybrid laptop/tablet and the different functions tend to fight.  There would be days it worked fine, great even.  And I would LOOOOOVE it.  Then it would hang up and not work much at all.  I think I am just better off with two separate devices.  :/  I think if we can get this one fixed, meaning if hubby can fix it, I will keep it as my tablet and for travel.  Then when we get settled, we will do what we agreed about getting a home set-up.  I will do the majority of stuff on the home one saving the other for only the tablet stuff like reading.  I'm not sure how much involvement I want with FB, either.  I'm starting to think that FB is a huge part of the problems.  It seems like after being on there, that's when I have issues with pages functioning the right way.

Other than that, I'm really not sure what to talk about.  I'm not talking to friends much right now.  I'm not posting on FB.  I've not even been blogging all that much.  I am writing in my journal, but that is about it.  It's not that I don't want to talk.  I just don't have much TO talk about.  There has still been no progress on the selling of the house.  Which is REALLY starting to eat at me.  It's been a month.  And not a single offer.  :/  I don't get it.  The realtor seemed SO sure of it selling and fast.  Then she seemed really sure of an offer last week. Nothing.  And then this weekend, hubby and I BOTH had a super strong feeling that it was going to happen and..... NOTHING.  I don't get it.  UGH.

I guess that is one thing on my mind is how long can we do this.  How long can we keep going on this house?  How long can we sit here waiting for it to sell?  I know what I told hubby about having to sit on it, but is that how we really want to live?  CAN we live that way?  I'm not sure I can do this for another year.  UGH.  My brain wants to keep moving forward, but I almost feel like it is wasted effort.  For example, I kind of want to just keep going forward with moving.  I told hubby to look into storage down there.  I think then when he comes up one weekend, he could fly and then just drive a Uhaul back with the things from our storage and garage down.  Plus anything else we want to go ahead and get out of way.  I'm thinking of going ahead and getting rid of most of the 'For Sale' items.  I'm thinking screw this whole staging thing!  I've also been thinking about dropping a hundred bucks or so on a 5gal. bucket of beige paint and neutralizing the whole damn house.  I hate to do/spend that, but I also want this place sold.  I'm not sure how the paint could stop a sale, but... whatever.  I've never let a paint deter me but people are weird.

Other things have been going ok. I'm just in a funk.

Thursday, May 21, 2015

Looking for IT

I decided yesterday that instead of just hoping for a silver lining, I needed to actually LOOK for it!  I found it.  :)

I found it in going over the budget with hubby.  He finally got that I wasn't knocking his pay.  I wasn't complaining about lack of money.  I was stating a financial fact that we were already super tight running two households and that any other debts on top of what we were currently doing just wasn't possible.  Seeing the numbers and actually taking the time to process it, he finally got it!  I was so relieved.  That's a silver lining.  :)  He finally gets that I'm not trying to be a pain or whine about money.  He finally got that what I was trying to explain is that this is just how it is NOW.  Once we sell this house and he isn't renting, we will be fine.  As long as we don't go crazy on the house we buy, between the two that should be about $700 back into our cash flow.  Which means we would be just fine! 

Now that he has calmed down, I feel more calm and more enthusiastic.  Because before I was stressing over the numbers.  He was so adamant that I was second guessing myself and it was amping up my anxiety making me question the numbers even more.  Which made me feel like things were way worse than what they were.  Now that he gets its... it's a huge relief. 

I've also calmed down about the houses.  It will be what it will be and instead of focusing on what isn't right now, I'm focusing on little projects and things around here that I've been wanting to do or that need to be done.  I'm also focusing on me a bit more.  I cut and colored my hair (myself) and did a pedicure (again, myself).  I slept in this morning and now I'm doing a few things around the house.  I'm going to focus on what I CAN do instead of what I have ZERO control over.  I may even do some jewelry stuff because that would just be fun.  LOL 

What I'm putting off, because I'm SICK of it, is painting.  I just don't wanna. I NEED to get some things listed for sale, but I re-listed that dining/patio set and no takers.  BUMMED.  I really want to sell it.  I would refinish it and use it myself, but I'm just not sure.  I don't get why it isn't selling.  Maybe I should just keep it.  Anyways, I'm reluctant to sell anything else until the house is sold because what is here has the house somewhat staged.  I guess I could sell a few things, I'm just not sure what.  I've sorta been thinking of just donating crap.  I'm sorta sick of looking at some of it.  LOL  I'm just being lazy about it, I guess.  I think it's because the few things I've listed recently haven't moved.  I see people posting jump and it sells almost instantly.  Drives me crazy.  But what I'm really putting off is finishing the office and painting.  *SIGH*  I need to suck it up and get it done.

Not much else is going on except for school is officially out and we are SO glad.  We are all just burned out and need a few lazy days to recover.  Thankfully, this week has been easier on me and youngest, but oldest is worn to a nub.  I can tell because he looks worn to a nub!  He's tired, doesn't have any energy, dark under his eyes.  So, I already told him today he needed to take it easy.  It doesn't help that major storms have been going through so we've all felt severe sinus pressure which keeps us from sleeping and gives us headaches.  I know that is part of it.  Hopefully we stay healthy and are able to rest over the rest of this week/weekend. 

Ok, off I go.  I've already given my bedroom a good dusting, I've got the pull for the light downstairs drying from where I glued it back together, and folded some laundry.  I've got a small load of darks going, dishes washing, and I did several small things yesterday.  So, maybe I can get these few things done and talk myself into at least a smidge of painting.  I know part of the issue is the paint I was using was old, at the bottom, and starting to get clumpy.  So, I've left it open to dry out and then I'm going to put it in recycling.  Opening a new can with fresh paint should help so I keep telling myself to stop dreading it!  I just do.  But it needs to be done.  BADLY.  UGH.  I did find an area around the window I need to touch up, too.  It's like it has settled or dried and shrunk and needs another touch up.  I can do that.  I just don't wanna.  lol  But I need to stay busy and get things done so I'm not going crazy once the house does sell.  Maybe I will spend today doing a few odds and ends upstairs and then when I go to clean down there tomorrow, I will focus on paint.  Although, oddly enough, I kinda wonder if people will want to do viewings this weekend.  The weather is suppose to be nice, it's a long holiday weekend, and most people are out of school.  So, I'm wondering if people will try to take advantage of it to look at houses.  I sure hope so!  :D

Ok, for real.  Off I go!  Lunch and back to work!