DOH!

JUST realized that the reason why I may not have any readers is because on here when I leave comments, it comes up as Jewlz280, but in the forums, it comes up as JustJ280.  I'm not sure why!  Maybe when I originally opened this account someone else had the same or similar?  I'm not sure!  Either way, if you're on and see me, feel free to leave me comments or something!  I'd really like to find other people in the same boat as I am.  I feel like no one else really understands.

This all came about from a conversation last night at GNO.  We were talking about things going on in each of our lives and ordering food.  I ordered on glass of Malbec and then we started talking appetizers and I said I knew it was all good, but I thought I was going to try the shrimp -- it was something I hadn't had, yet.  The others then proceeded to want to order more and all of us split.  And I said, no thanks, I'm just going to stick with the shrimp.  So, my friend asks if I'm dieting and I said yeah, I had just recently lowered my carbs back down and I was finally seeing progress and feeling really good.  She then proceeded to tell me how my problem wasn't some strict diet, but I needed to get out and get more fresh air.  LOL  I told her, I have an insulin problem, so it most certainly IS my diet that I need to watch!  I then told her I needed to lose at least 60lbs. and she was like Wah?  NO WAY!  I said yes.  She said, you can't be but maybe 170lbs!  So, I did it.  I told the whole world my weight was (at that time 209).  My friends then said, they didn't believe me!  I told them, come back to my house and we'll weigh!  They said, NO WAY!  Your scale is broken!  Now, don't get me wrong, I love my friends and I think it's great they didn't think I was too big.  But then they started to say, well, you look great and we love you as you are!  Phoo-hockey I say!

Now, like I said, these women are my friends, but when they started saying I was fine, I felt like, they don't get it.  They are thin, and blonde and well.... thin and blonde!  I'm the curvy red-head with the pale skin and blue eyes!  I just don't look like them at all.  Not that I want to, but I don't want to be coddled.  After a few mins. of this, I was like, really ladies, you just don't understand.  Until you've REALLY been overweight, you just don't get it!  Then my friend was like, well, I do!  I was 190 once!  I said, that doesn't count if you were preggo!  LOL  So, all of this got me to thinking that no matter how much this is on my mind, no matter how important and how big of an issue this is for me, other people who have never dealt with being overweight just don't get it.  I do have other friends who diet and watch their weight, but they are also very thin and when they need to lose, it's 10 to 20lbs.  Not that it isn't something, but it's more daunting when you need to lose 60 to 70.  I have one friend who even though is thin, she gets it.  She has a ruler body shape and she needs to watch her food carefully.  She is also watching carb intake, so we talk about that a lot.  But if she falls off of the bandwagon, she gains quickly, and with her shape, 10lbs. looks like 20!  But that's it.  I just don't feel like the majority of other people in my life GET it.

At least my hubby and family get it.  My Dad is a diabetic, and has been watching carbs and eating a mostly whole food diet for YEARS now.  How's that for sustainable???  He's lost about 90lbs. not even TRYING!!!!  And he's finally gotten some of his health issues under control.  I plan on living on low carb for the rest of my life.  Not NO carb -- low carb!  I went back through the Atkins book and realized I am done with Induction and have moved on to Owl.  Under 40g seems to work for me and at some point, I will move up when I am closer to goal.  But for now, this is working for what I'm wanting.  And the hubbs says he's happier not having so much junk in the house.  I still keep some higher carb things here for him and the kiddos, but event those items will eventually be back in my life -- just not everyday.  Like, whole wheat double fiber bread.  My son has PB sandwiches on them.  :D  He's never really had white bread, but the one time he did, he said it was yucky and had no taste!  HA!  I hope that by getting him on the RIGHT carbs without making it an issue, he will just grow up eating those things because that is what he knows.  All things in moderation!  :D

OH!  Other than the topic of my weight last night, my GNO went well and I had a nice time out.  And my food, OH THE FOOD, was SO good!  I got the wok seared Lamb.  NOM NOM NOM!!!!  I tried a bit of the appetizers, had my glass of wine, and my lamb.  Then a cup of coffee while we sat and chatted.  I got up and weighed this AM.... 208.5!  WOOT!  I managed to go out, have a great time, even have wine and coffee with a taste of appetizers and STILL stay on plan and lose!  I am SUPER happy right now!  I hope this keeps up for at least a bit longer.  I'd love to get under 200 in the next two weeks!  Well, two weeks from Sunday since that is my weigh-in day.  It would be really great to kick off April under 200!  That would put me MUCH closer to getting back into my summer clothes.  :D  Not to mention I'm hoping it will help keep my energy up so I can do all the yardwork that always needs to be done around here in April and May.  Especially this year since the 'big' project is the back yard!

Ok, well, I'm going to get going.  I need to run out and do a few errands, and then get started on some Spring cleaning.  I am going to try to work on closets/clothes first.  FUN.