I am downright unhappy today. 205. Two hundred and five pounds. I hate it. I hate it and I darn near hate myself. I know that's silly, but geez. I am staying on plan and doing the absolute best I can and my body is fighting me like the devil. I just don't know what to do anymore. I've been doing this now since the 26th of Dec. and all I've lost is a measly 11.5lbs.? Just doesn't seem worth it anymore. I'm sitting here counting every piece of anything that crosses my lips and haven't eaten off plan or over plan in well over a week (and even then, not too horribly bad) and yet, the weight is holding on like there is no tomorrow. I am SO frustrated I just want to give up and cry.
Then, the reasonable part of me kicks in. Would I have rather GAINED 11.5lbs.??? Which, I more than likely would have if I had continued eating the way I was before I started cutting down on carbs. I was gaining a lot and rather quickly. So, I know it would've been the opposite. I would've been buying even bigger clothes. So, I have to keep reminding myself of that. Keep trying to see the good and know that if nothing else, my body has got to be getting healthier just from doing the right things even if it is slow to show up. I have to remember that my moods are better and I'm better able to deal with stress. I have to remember and focus on the good things that are going on and stick it out. But that doesn't mean that I don't hate it or understand it. How is it that my carbs and processed foods are so low, my water is good, I mostly take my vitamins, and my cals are even fairly low (for my current weight) and I'm still not losing??? I just don't get it. WHAT am I doing wrong? I feel like something is really wrong with me. :(
Maybe it's time I make an appt. with the Dr. to get checked out. I hate to go again until my yearly, but I just feel like something strange is going on that I am not losing no matter what I do. Maybe I need to try a new plan and shake things up? I just don't know. I just feel really bummed out right now and am questioning. No, I'm not going to give up even if I am upset and feel like it. I'm just going to keep plugging along for now. I guess I will review my food journal again and maybe do some research and see if I am missing something. I just can't live with this anymore. I need SOMETHING to change and SOMETHING to work. I'm afraid if this keeps up, I'll become a depressed mess. :(
I know what you mean. I'm going through the same thing where I exercise everyday for 60-90 mins, I eat a whole lot better now than when I started and still the scale won't budge!
ReplyDeleteIt could be that we're gaining muscle and than contributes to the slow descent of the scale (since muscle weight more than fat)
Hope things gets better for you :)
There are a lot of factors why you couldn't see a change, try not to get discouraged (easier said than done, I know :\ ). Maybe a visit to the doctor is a good idea.
ReplyDeleteHow many calories are you eating per day? 1200 is the absolutely bare minimum any person should eat, and even for weight loss you might need more than that right now! If you are sitting at 1200 calories each day or below that amount your metabolism might be sending signals to your body that it's starving and so it's retaining everything you've been eating believing it's not going to get enough food that day. I'd check with the doctor and find the best caloric count for your current weight each day for safe/healthy weight loss of 1-3lbs per week.
The big thing right now is to not get discouraged and fall off plan! You can do this!