Sorta Bleh

I woke up this AM feeling sorta Bleh.  Not sure why, I have NO reason to feel BLEH!  I mean, we got our income taxes back before the government shut down, hubb's check was good for a change, and we have lots of exciting things going on around here.  But yet, I feel BLEH.  I even got two dresses out last night when I went to run an errand.  AND, some guy asked if I was 23.  I was buying one of those long nose lighters (for the grill) and he asked if I was 18.  I said, I'm WAY past 18!  And he said, what, like 23?  I was like, NO, but THANK YOU!  LOL  So, not sure why I woke up to feeling so bleh.  I know the baby was up every 2hrs. last night, but the hubby got up with him the last time so I could get some sleep.  He was getting up anyways to get ready for work.  He's just awesome for doing that!  I did hear a bit of whining after the bottle, but I just let him fuss a bit and he finally went back to sleep.  However, THEN he didn't get up until after 9!  Good for me, bad for the schedule.  I did get him down for nap a bit after 11:30, though, so that's only 30mins. later than normal.  Hopefully his schedule won't be off by too much.  I just wonder how long he is going to sleep.  We are suppose to have a play date today but it's only until like 3:30 or 4.  I guess that would be ok for him to sleep even to 1:30.  He's ready to go.  Just need to get the rest of us going and I will do that in a minute.

Weighed in at 205 this AM.  :((  That would be a super sad face.  But honestly, I know what it is.  This would be the bloat that comes with TOM.  I should be having him for a visit sometime this weekend, early next week.  *sigh*  I just get over a plateau and then TOM.  At least I have a normal cycle now.  For years before doing LC, I only had maybe 3/yr.  So, having a normal one is good.  I just hate the bloat that comes with it.  Not to mention the tummy issues.  I always have tummy and bathroom issues the day before it starts.  UGH.  But it is what it is and that's all there is to it.  LOL  That sounds funny!

Oh, about the two dresses.  Well, I got them because many of my clothes are now getting too big even though I haven't lost all that much.  And I kept thinking, what am I going to do?  All the old clothes are hanging and the skinny ones are too small!  Just a few days ago I was thinking that once I get under 200, I am going to go through my closet and get rid of all of my maternity things and plus things.  I only held on to the maternity things that were longish and looked like normal clothes to wear with my 'jeggings' and boots during the winter.  But now that I am losing, things are getting bigger and I know that for my mental stability, I really should take them out and put them away.  I am actually thinking about selling them as a lot on ebay along with some baby things.  I've mentioned before that I'm not sure about future kids, but it's also about space!  Not to mention, if I get to my goal weight, I won't need those big maternity clothes.  SO, we've decided to let go of a lot of stuff.  If I'm not using it, it doesn't need to take up space.  And right now, my closet is pretty full with my skinny stuff, my stored skinny stuff, in between stuff, plus stuff, and maternity stuff.  So, the first step to making room is to let go of anything that is maternity and plus.  Even if it still fits.  Even if I can make it work.  Unless I LOVE it, it has to go.  BUT it can only stay if I take it to have it tailored.  In which case, I will also be removing the tags because it will no longer be the size on the label, but MY size -- whatever that happens to be.

I know that sounds crazy, but I feel like just having those clothes in the house is like saying it's ok to be big still or that I don't think I can do it.  So, it's like a REWARD to clean all that out.  Not just the closet, but my mind.  That's why I got the dresses.  I had seen a post on another blogger's page about a bunch of cute dresses at Target, so I thought what a great idea to use for transition pieces.  I mean, dresses will work for a long time even with weight loss.  So, I'm going to use them instead of buying individual tops and bottoms.  Thank goodness the weather is warming up so that I will have a few months before I have to fit into my old 14's or buy new ones.  I wouldn't be mad one bit if I had to buy all new clothes come fall!  That would actually be really awesome.  :D  I believe that I have bought 5 dresses now...  yup.  And 6 pairs of shoes and 4 bags.  All I might need to get through summer is some cute new jewelry.

Heh!  Not feeling so bleh now!  Feelin' sorta good now!  Think I will get up from here and do something with this dreary looking day.  I bet THAT is why I feel bleh in the first place -- it's warm but overcast outside.  On to it!