Yay me!

So, after a couple of days of switching up my food, I saw 204.5 this AM!  It first said 204, but then 204.5.  That's ok -- I'll take it!  After not seeing any kind of loss in almost 2 weeks, the 0.5 is just FINE by me!  :D  Although, writing it on my calendar makes it look like a 1lb. loss for the week since I 'weigh-in' on Sundays.  LOL  I just hope it keeps going down and I don't have another stall anytime soon.  But if I do, if I don't lose after a few days, I most certainly will be checking my food again to see what I could switch up.

I am feeling a bit better today.  I am still tired, but better.  My youngest got up at almost 1AM and stayed up until almost 4.  URGH.  I was a blubbering mess by the time the hubbs got home and in bed around 8.  About that time, little guy got up for the day, and I was just a wreck.  I just don't do well without sleep.  And honestly, this is becoming my reason for not wanting more children.  But the hubby said he couldn't sleep, so he got up with them so I could sleep another hour or two.  I am SO thankful for a good husband who occasionally drives me nuts, but overall is just a wonderful man.

Back to not sure if I want more kids....  I know that sounds weird and selfish to say that I might not want more kids due to lack of sleep, but I just am not emotionally stable when I am lacking in sleep.  I don't know why.  But I just start to fall apart!  I can handle almost anything, but lack of sleep does terrible things to my state of mind.  So for me, I keep thinking that I don't know if I could be a good mother if we did have another because I am struggling with everything right now.  I have so much to do, but I am so tired I can't accomplish as much as I would like.  I really was spoiled by my first sleeping so well so early.  :(  Now don't get my wrong, love my kiddos to the ends of the earth, but I feel like I am failing them now.  Between trying to live with my hubby's work and school schedule, keeping up with the house and projects, taking care of the kiddos and pets, and then trying to eek out a bit of time for myself each day, there just aren't enough hours and enough energy.  I know that this may change as time goes on, and I pray it does.  I really hope that we can get back to only one wake up at night or maybe even sleeping all through the night.  That would be REALLY nice!  But for now, I am literally just living day to day.  I am trying like the devil to get on a solid schedule and plan some new things for the sanity of us all and to break out of this rut we've been in.

Well, the hubbs has now decided that he needs a nap so I am going to go and attempt to get something done.  Not sure what.  I won't be able to work in the bathroom like I thought though so will just have to see what I can do for now.