06/22/2011

Sitting here in the dark with no power.  UGH.  I am SO over these storms!  I mean, it is SUMMER and we are STILL getting these bad storms left and right.  When are these going to pass?  Seems as if we are getting more storms now than ever.  I just can't figure out why!  Aargh!

Well, I had started a blog previously, but I wasn't sure if I wanted to post it since I had started it a couple of days ago.  Not that I really feel much different or that I even finished what I was saying, but there were a lot of angry and bitter feelings in that post.  I just don't know if that is the right thing to do.  Do I finish it and post it and basically let it go?  Or do I just erase it and forget it?  I'm just not sure.  Some part of me is aching and feeling incomplete and lately, I've been praying for release from it.  I just want to let it go and move on.  I just don't know how.  But I can tell you, I think the stress of all of it is affecting my health.  My stomach has been off for a few days now!

On THAT topic.  I'm not sure if the upset stomach is from stress or simply from eating more crap than I am use to.  I have been BAD.  Really.  REALLY BAD.  *sigh*  Not that it's going to last.  Tomorrow is back to the grind.  Not sure exactly how the first couple of days will go, but I do know that I am going back to LC as planned.  Other than that, not sure what anything else is.  I can also tell you that I don't think I will do another long cycle like this until I hit another plateau.  And even then, I don't think I will do as long.  In all honesty, it's my own fault.  I let my stomach do the talking!  :O

Not sure if I will weigh-in tomorrow or not... I weighed last night before bed at 204.  :O  BUT, I should start TOM any day now and the pure weight of carbs is always high.  So.... when should I weigh???  I may weigh on Sunday but not take it as a 'real' weight until I've had at least one week back on LC.  But we will see.  Not sure how my body will react.