And another!

That's right folks -- another post in under 12hrs!  Although, it may be over 12 by the time I actually get this posted!  LOL  I can't believe it, but today is my oldest's 6th b-day.  Where did the time go?  He's grown SO fast!  Today he is making robot/superhero masks out of paper bags and here in a bit, we will be making Mickey cupcakes.  Tomorrow is the pool and then his birthday dinner at O'Charley's.  Then we will come back here for gifts and those cupcakes!  Busy busy!  We aren't doing anything too huge since Disney was part of the boy's b-days this year.  Oldest understands and youngest, well, he doesn't care since he's so little!  His b-day will be next month and a similar style of party.  I mostly just can't wait to see him tear into his cake!  THAT will be AWESOME!  His theme will be little monsters.  :)

So, being that baaadddd girl that I am, I weighed in again this AM.  Back down to the 200.5 -201.  Not sure what is up with that -- I had pizza!  But I'll take it.  Yes, I know the pizza was thin, I didn't have much, AND I ate a huge salad, but still.  Shocked!  But happy at the same time.  Especially since yesterday I was sorta on the maybe I should jump ship bandwagon.  But I just need to sit where I am for now and keep going.  Slow and steady will win this race!  At least that's how I feel this AM.  LOL  I just need to NOT think about faster loss and accept slow and steady.  Most days I do but then there are days when I read about others losing 2+ a week and I get frustrated.  But you would think that since once in a while I have those good drops, I would be happier.  I need to learn to be!

Incontrol -- well, I've been at this for much longer than 5mos!  It's just this stretch has been 5mos.  I even tried to maintain a pretty healthy diet while prego.  But I guess this is just the 5mo. period that I've REALLY been trying to just lose since little man was born.  And.... I'm not a quitter.  I figure if I quit all I would do is balloon up even more!  Is it easier to just eat junk and be lazy?  Sort of.  But really, no.  Why?  Cause then you just gain MORE that you have to lose!  So, I know that for the long term this has got to be it.  I've always got to be trying or I move backwards.  I even wrote a blog about that recently where I mentioned that weight loss is like housework -- you have to keep on it everyday or before you know it, you're on an episode of Hoarders!  :O  But thanks for the encouragement!!  I seem to do well at management -- it's the losing that is hard for me!  Of course, I will be putting that more to the test this time.  The last time when I lost 40lbs., I got prego!  I would like to think I would've maintained, but I'm not sure.  Of course I gained while pregnant, but not an abnormal amount.  I only gained afterwards due to so much travel and stress.  No excuse, I know, but I just didn't have the options I would've liked and I honestly believe most of that was temporary because when I started watching my food, that first bit dropped right off.  It's been the weight since then that has been an issue.

I do hope that once I reach goal I am able to maintain.  Cause well, thinking about all this has now gotten me a bit worried!  I guess I've never really had a LONG period of time to maintain!  In high school, other than when I went on BC, I was almost always the same, but I didn't really TRY.  I mean, I did do the stuff like working out and trying to eat a bit healthier.  Although what I knew back then was very limited.  I stayed the same up until after I got married and then got diagnosed with the PCOS.  THAT is when I first started dieting for real.  And I've been going up and down since then.  Mostly due to having my babies!  I would lose, get prego, deliver and then not focus on that for a while.  Then when I DID, I would lose again only to get pregnant not long after!  So, I guess if I ever get to goal, that will be my real challenge because I seem to be able to maintain the little losses but I have yet to hit Goal.  Of course, I never really knew what goal was until recently.  And I'm still not 100% sure.  I just said 153 because that seems like a good attainable goal.  And at his point, only 47.5lbs. to that.  Lordy that seems like forever!!!!

Ok, well, now that I've gotten interrupted a hundred times and finally finished what I think I was saying, I should get off of here and get going.  I need to MOVE!  Lots of stuff to do today including making cupcakes.  Going to try REALLY hard to not overdo that.  Lunch is going to be super good because I KNOW I will need to at least taste the icing.  I'm not worried about the cupcakes -- oldest can try those!  But the icing I have to try to get the right consistency since I make it from scratch.  I think I can do it without too many taste tests!  :D  And since it's plain white, I don't think I will have to do much.  I bought the gels to do the Mickey and Minnie ears.  I just couldn't find the right candles.  Going to have to look for those later.  I found SOME, but I still need a few more.  Hmmm.... or maybe I'll get the ones that look like sparklers!  :D

Ok, Ok.  I'm going now.  Gonna read a couple of blogs, finish my protein shake,  and then get busy!