Another day...

So.... I've been doing LC, but not drinking my protein shakes.  I SHOULD be, but I just haven't felt like it the last couple of days.  As I admitted, the last two days were the LC french toast.  Today was Greek yogurt.  YUM.  I eat it with fresh strawberries, some crushed pecans, and a drizzle of SF maple syrup.  I drizzled too much today, though.  I rarely do that.  But it's ok.  I didn't go nuts.  Just a bloop too much.  lol  Maybe tomorrow a protein shake will sound good.  We will see.  Hmm... or maybe do one for snack?  I've been skipping snack too much lately.  I need to get back to having my snacks.

Today has been another day of feeling tired.  BUT, I'm dealing.  Youngest was up what felt like a hundred times last night and I was WORN OUT.  But so far, I've done a lot of housework and gotten the place picked up pretty well!  But the biggest thing is that we've already had a morning of fussing and yelling.  Oldest and I already had a run in.  The good thing is, that I took a breath, stepped away, and then came back to talk to him.  I hate to say it, but I started crying and so did he.  I told him how much I loved him and that I HATED having to yell at him and I wanted to know why he was angry.  He told me he was lonely and missed Daddy when he was at work.  :(  I thought I did the right thing keeping him home from Pre-school this year, but now I think not.  I think he needed that social interaction.  Just like I need it!  Anyways, we sat and had a good talk and things feel better.  He seems like he feels better... lighter.  I am hoping this means that the war of words is over.  That's what I pray anyways.  I want it to be.  Maybe me trying harder socially will make it easier on him, too.  What could it hurt to keep trying?  I refuse to let this area beat me down.  I've got to get out and get our lives rolling in a better direction.

Things on the doggie front haven't really changed.  No one has come forward willing to take him.  However, we have been walking/running him on the treadmill.  Believe it or not, he really seems to like it and HAS seemed calmer.  I am now thinking of trying de-sensitizing training to help with the anxiety.  Which means, I need to take a trip to either Walmart or Petsmart soon because he needs a harness and not just a regular collar -- he can pull out of those and I'm not willing to chance it.  I may even buy a simple muzzle until I am sure he's improved.  But for now, he is with us and I am not willing to let him go to be put down.  So, we are going to work with him the best way we can for now.  Who knows, maybe we can rehab him!

On the front of working with the dog, I told the hubbs that the time on the treadmill is good, but he needs more than that.  He needs to get out and walk with us for extended training.  So, for my exercise, I am hoping that we can find a way for me to walk the dog every evening.  Even if it is only in the neighborhood.  Not the best area for that (no sidewalks) but we have to get him chilled out.  And I need more exercise.  So, it will have to do!  Worst case scenario, we have to walk in people's yards.  They'll have to get over it.  I hate it when people walk through my yard, but considering there are no sidewalks I've gotten over it.  People will just have to do the same for me.  I just have to remember to carry poop bags.  I REFUSE to leave my dog's poop in someone's yard!  REFUSE!  That is so nasty.

Hmmm... Anything else?  I haven't weighed.... I don't plan on weighing until Sunday.  But I don't expect much.  Not that I have much planned for this weekend except for going to some sort of festival thing with my Mom, but seeing as how I have my cycle and my tummy has felt unsettled lately, not sure if I will see any loss.  :(  I was hoping for around 195 so I would have at least a 4lb. loss for the month, but the last I checked my weight, I had bounced back up to 201.  So, no idea how that will translate in the next few days.  Not counting today, 3.  I just don't think I will see any kind of loss between now and then.  Not that I weighed this morning.  I didn't want to know!  But I will weigh in on the 3rd and take whatever number it is.  I have to work with it and keep moving.  So far, every month has shown some sort of loss.  And I sure don't want to give up.  But GAH!  I'll have to someone manage to lose an extra half pound to pound over the next few weeks so that I can reach the 52lbs. by the end of the year!

Ok, well, I am going to get off of here for now.  I need to wash up some dishes, take down laundry and some boxes, and then feed the kiddos a snack before we go to the park.  It will be nice to get out.  I need to go get the harness, too.  BUSY BUSY I also need to find something else to wear as I don't think my sundress would be a good idea to chase kids around in.  LOL