Early

I'm writing a little early because, well, I'm tired as crap.  We had HORRID storms here again last night and youngest got up several times.  I believe he is teething.  Then the stupid cat decided she needed to squeeze herself through a gate -- that wasn't attached!  So, she knocked that over and it was SO loud!!!  Then the dog was in a panic and pacing.  I think both of them will have to sleep in the kennels at night.  Between the other's need to dominate unless he is forced not to, the others constant nervous pacing, the cat's incessant need to prey at night (I know, that's just what cats do!), and then the baby still up all the time, I'm getting worn people!  Add to all this fun that the hubbs isn't here and come Fall, oldest will be in K and oh boy.  I guess I did too much yesterday and it's biting me in the butt!  LOL

Anyways, doing ok today so far.  I was DYING for coffee and hadn't had anything since yesterday at around 8PM, so I went ahead and had some before 12.  I physically could feel my stomach grumbling, so I had one sausage and a couple of eggs.  I just love those Beddar Cheddar smoked sausages.  Oh, and a small handfull of blackberries.  I normally do a protein shake in the AM, but I was just wanting regular coffee and the eggs SO bad!  So, I listened to my body and ate them.  No, not my stomach, my body!  LOL  I think that for snack/lunch I will do my protein shake.  Maybe a blueberry/spinach one?  YUM.  Although, right now I am so full, I don't think I could drink one!  HA!  And I didn't even finish all my food.  :)

Got up to 200.5 this AM, which is quite spectacular seeing as how it was MUCH higher just a couple of days ago.  Still not sure if I will do an official weigh-in Sunday or if I will wait until it's been 7 days since back on the LC part of the cycle.  Today is day 3.  I really hope it keeps dropping and I go under 195.  I can't remember what the numbers did last time other than I do remember gaining a lot initially having the higher carb week only to drop well when doing the low part.  And let's throw in there that Tom should be here soon.  I keep having the cramps, but he has yet to show his mug around here.  It's ok Tom, you're not on America's Most Wanted!  LMAO!  So, I am not sure how that will affect things because, well, I tend to gain water weight.  But not sure if I have already and the high number was a part of that or if that was only due to the excess of carbs in my system?  Hmmm... not going to stress.  I think I will just give myself a few more days.  I will probably check my weight, but won't do anything official until Weds. AM.  That's one week back on LC.  Or maybe I will just wait and make it official the following Sunday?  Eh, we'll see.  I don't want to dwell on it too long.

Mostly don't want to dwell on it because if I don't have a good loss, I don't want to get in the frame of mind that I've not made progress.  I would love to see 194, but I would be happy with 195 because that would put me at a loss of 4.5lbs. for the month of June -- which slightly exceeds my 1lb. per week goal for this month!  Sorta helps to add some oomph to May since that was a holding month with vacay and all.  And it helps that I had a couple of good months previously to balance out all the numbers for the first half of the year.  If I were to end this month with 195, that would put me at a loss of 21.5 for the first half of the year.  Which puts me behind.  BUT, only by 4.5lbs.  And seeing as how I didn't really try until Feb., I changed my plan up a couple of times, and not to mention that stall, I'm going to take it.  If I had NOT lost the 18.5lbs I have so far, and had instead gained it, my weight would be.... 235!  Oh my!  That would exceed my highest known weight of 226.5!  21.5 would put me at238!  Yes, I'll take the smaller loss than the gain, thanks!  So, to finish the year out at 1lb. per week, I would need to have a few good weigh-ins.  Hopefully I can do it and end the year a whole 52+lbs. lighter.  If I only get down 1lb. per week and that's all I get, then so be it.  But my new goal is to have lost 52 for the year!  Seems like a nice and realistic goal!  :D

My overall goal of about 153 will stay the same.  I just think it would be cool to say I lost 52lbs. for 2011.  Or more!  ;)  Well ladies, I am going to get off of here and do something with my day.  Maybe read and dust since out of all the things I did yesterday, that wasn't one of them!  LOL