08/15/2011

Yesteday's food was....

Breakfast: 2/3c. oatmeal with 2tbsp. splenda, 1tbsp. smart balance light, cinnamon and a drizzle of honey (I ate maybe half) and of course, coffee

Lunch:  1/2 turkey sandwich (1 slice LC whole wheat bread, 1/2 leaf romaine, some mayo, and 4 slices super thin turkey lunch meat, half an apple and some Doritos.  I didn't finish the apple or the Doritos.  water

Snack:  3 vanilla sandwich cookies; water

Dinner:  Pad thai, some General cho's with rice, 3 crab rangoon's; Mello Yello zero

Dessert:  Cookie Dough.  Probably around 2 servings.

I  know dinner could've been better, but I was SO tired and that sounded SO good.  Going to be better today.  :D  About to head out for the day.  I ate breakfast and wasn't really hungry, and now I'm not sure if I should eat or not.  I don't want to get there and be starving, but I hate to eat when I'm not hungry.  So, I think I am going to go pack a turkey sandwich and some apple slices along with my big bottle of water.  Weight this AM after breakfast was 204.5.  Not surprised.  Chinese food is salty and I had a good breakfast with lots of coffee and water.  LOL  I am thinking I am closer to 200 and hovering.

On a good note, other than some fussing, it seems that youngest slept through the night.  He woke up once and fussed, but not long and went to sleep.  Please, Please, PLEASE let this mean he will sleep through the night soon!!!!  I don't want to get my hopes too up, but I REALLY need him to sleep through the night soon.  I think that would make a big difference in how I feel.

On another note, oldest starts K Friday!  It's only the first of two staggered days and then it officially starts full time on the 29th.  But, it's really cool.  I'm excited for the both of us!  I don't think there will be tears.  I could be wrong, but I just don't think there will be.  Youngest will be at home this year and probably next.  I don't see doing any kind of Pre-K program until he is 3.  My friend was going to start at 2, but I just don't know if that would work for me.  A Mother's day out program would be nice, though...

I am sorta in a place where I am wondering what life will be like with oldest in school.  We did two years of Pre-K already, and then this year at home.  After this, I KNOW that homeschooling is not the right choice for oldest.  Can we say social butterfly?  Oldest needs a social scene and we just weren't getting that at home.  Not to mention, with youngest running around and still not sleeping, I know I'm not giving him the time or attention that is really deserved.  I tell ya, I give praise to those who can do it!

Now, on to the diet stuff.  I am still not sure where to go from here.  I am trying to eat better, even if the last couple of days doesn't reflect that.  I am doing 'mostly' good, but not as good as I could.  OH!  I need to post today's food.  Here goes....

Breakfast:  Two slices LC french toast with powdered sugar glaze, 5 slices of SUPER thin bacon; coffee.  I didn't finish the toast.  I got full!

Lunch:  1/2 turkey sandwich (same as yesterday), some apple slices, some Doritos; water

Snack:  Ice cream at the Mayfield Dairy tour.  YUM.  I know it was probably two servings worth of crazy, sugary, moo cow goodness!

Dinner:  A few sips of wine, spaghetti (Dreamfields) with home-made meat sauce, 1 slice of buttered bread; more water

There it be.  I don't PLAN on eating anything else tonight, but who knows?  I am feeling full and guilty.  LOL  Mostly about the ice cream.  I could've thrown half away because it was bigger than I thought, but it was soooo good.  I swear, I could go swimming it in!  It's the new O'charley's caramel pie.  EVIL!

So, you see, diet wise I am just floating around with no idea what to do.  I want to lose, I want to be healthy and happy, but I feel like I am doomed to sit here for a while.  I guess all I can do is my best and see where it goes.

Well, for now, going to go and relax.  It's been a long day and I want to let my food settle.  Hope everyone had a good Monday!