Almost there...

My weight this AM was 190 flat.  OH, you TEASE!!!  I wish I could've just seen 189.5!  But Lordy, I am THANKFUL to see 190!  LOL  I guess that means my eating hasn't been as horrid as I had thought.  I try to be really conscious of eating mostly veggies at meals and then protein.  I really try to leave carbs as the 'last minute filler'.  Not that I wait and eat them until the very end or anything, I just try not to eat them first.  I try to eat just a few bites of the carby stuff and fill up by eating the other stuff then if I am still hungry after I have finished the other two, I may finish it.  I guess this idea is working for me!  WOOT!  I'm also doing better about water the last few days.  My water bottle was nasty (ok, not nasty but if felt nasty from where I'd been sick!) so I had wanted to run it through the dishwasher.  It being a rather odd shaped bottle, I hadn't fit it in until the other day and got it nice and disinfected.  LOL  I then took it out and scrubbed it really good with a bottle brush, hot water and soap, just to be sure.  So, now I'm back in business!  I just don't do well drinking water out of a glass.  I always seem to think I've had enough when in reality, I'm short!  Not doing so hot on the vitamins.  It goes in phases for me.

I've been thinking a lot on the exercise thing and really trying to figure out WHY I am not working out.  Yes,  a large part is that youngest doesn't really give me any time at all, but I really need to be finding the time.  I am starting to think that I am going to have to do it at a time I really don't like and just get over it.  I just don't want to do anything too intensive.  Just some walking and toning.  I love the Pilates and I KNOW if I would just start I would love it.  Once you get into the groove with it and really start seeing the changes, you want to keep going.  And since it's not going to get my heart rate up crazy high, I can do it at night even right before bed.  Doing that with some deep stretching would do me a world of good!  As for the cardio part... well... I'm pretty active with walking and stuff, but I'd like to try to add in a bit more.  Nothing crazy.  Just maybe an hour or so a week.  Now, I know that doesn't sound like much, but I don't really believe in the whole working out until you puke thing.  If you want a plan to backfire for me, that's the way to do it.  I have no issues being active.  I love to work on the house, run around with my kids, garden and all that jazz and really believe that just MOVING is really what we need more of.  I mean, my 99 year old Granny never did formal workouts.  But she was always on the go.  So for me, it's about the food and I am thinking I am doing better than I thought.

I WAS worried there for a bit.  I do seem to have a pattern, though, and that makes me feel somewhat better.  Patterns really help me feel... calm.  Like routine.  So, when I saw the pattern of losing and then holding and then losing again, well, it feels good.  The holding time is different but usually tends to be around the same time of the month, if ya know what I mean.  Tracking over all of this time has really been good and really helped me to see what my body does.  And it's helping me to not freak out.  I know my loss is slow... and I know this isn't for everyone, but it sure is what I need at this point in my life.  I do still get disappointed at times.  I mean, I would LOVE to see huge amounts of loss at times.  But then I think, do I really want to deprive myself and hate this?  No.  For once, I'm going to attempt to enjoy the journey as much as the destination.  :D

Well, not going to stay on here and keep going on and on.  I need to finish up some housework and then get oldest and run an errand.  That errand being buying my first stand mixer.  I am going to get one that I am unsure of and give it a whirl -- it being the BHG or Better Homes & Gardens brand.  Had pretty good reviews!  So, want to try it out and see if I like it.  The one I REALLY wanted which is the Kenmore Elite is on backorder.  :(  It's basically a Kitchen Aid since the same company makes both.  I'd love a Breville, but honestly, I don't do a ton of cooking so I don't feel right spending that kind of money on a mixer.  Then last night, I stumbled upon a Bosch Compact and a Kenwood Chef.  I REALLY liked the Kenwood!  It also has a blender, food processor, and juicer!  That would get rid of a few different gadgets for me!  But I'm not sure if I really want something that fancy and I never could find a price.  So, I think starting out with something like the BHG will be good for me.  I just don't know if I would end up using all the gadgets and if it would end up being more work to use it than what I already currently own!  Truth is, I don't own anything but a blender and a hand mixer.  I don't have a juicer or food processor now.  I generally just hand chop everything and never use a juicer.  And realistically, I don't know that I would use them even if I had them.  LOL  So, starting out basic seems to be the way to go for me.

Ok, ok... enough rambling!  Going to get off of here and get to it.  Think I will start the dishwasher and do the dusting first.  Then get dressed and head out.  I'm surprised I've had time to write this!  LOL