Not on it

Well, today is Wednesday and I've not been on plan.  Well, not true.  I've been somewhat on, but not 100%.  I'm not sure why other than I've been busy AND now sick.  Yesterday was rough -- I felt horrible!  I haven't weighed and I don't know that will for a bit.  TOM is coming and I know that I'm going to be bloated on top of not doing well diet wise.  It's not that I am going hog wild -- I'm not.  I did fine all day today until dinner and dessert.  And even though neither were totally over the top, I'm afraid that it's enough to keep me from losing even if I have been very active except for yesterday.  I am still not 100% feeling well today, but MUCH better than yesterday.  Yesterday I could hardly move or I felt like I would faint from so much pressure in my head.  I did a LOT of housework today and got caught up after being down yesterday.  Thankfully I had cleaned really well from before, so it's not like it was really bad.  The worst thing is the dusting.  I STILL have not dusted!  It's at the top of my 'To Do' list for tomorrow.  FUN.  I need to get over it and start making that the first thing I do so that I will do the worst and get it over.

Everything else is going well and that's why I'm so surprised at my lack of ability to stay on plan.  The house is moving right along and I was able to do a LOT of caulking over the time the hubby was off.  He was sick at that time and didn't feel like doing much, so I was able to work.  I also got a lot of the kids clothes (and mine) sorted, labeled, and ready to go in the attic.  I need to finish up the last few boxes and that way they can all go.  I may have some of them sold.  That would be nice!  I need to list the other things and just get them out of the house.  Plus, the extra money now would be wonderful.  lol  But otherwise, we've gotten a lot of progress done and we are feeling much more relieved.  I think the big thing has been knowing that we've hired someone to come in and do some of the things that we just don't feel confident in doing.  That, and we're at the point where we're just tired.  So, having it done is just one of those things we no longer have to worry over.  We have a budget in mind of what we want to spend, and I'm not willing to go over $1600.  That's about 80hrs. worth of work.  I hope he is able to do a lot during that time! And if he does a good job, hopefully he can come back in the Spring and do the cabinetry in the kitchen.  I did our last house, but I just don't think I can do it here.  I may give it a try, but we will see.

Overall, I have NO reason not to be doing this and making progress.  I just haven't.  I haven't been awful, but I've not been good enough to loose I'm sure.  UGH.  I need to stick to it tomorrow and for the rest of this week.  Heck, until Thanksgiving!  I want to try to stay on plan through the weekend since I haven't started this weekend out all that great.  I am going to try to be decent at Thanksgiving.  I don't think it will be too hard other than desserts.  And even that I don't think will be a huge issue because we are only going to one family dinner at my hubby's family and I am not bringing back leftovers!  Then the following day will be with my family and I am the one cooking, so I know what I will be putting in my mouth and what's in it!  LOL  I just need to quit being a ninny now and eat the way I know I should eat.  I need to quit being a lazy ass and workout, too!  I wish I had more motivation to do it.  UGH.

Well, it is now after 11 and I need to get going.  I need to get all the AM stuff done before I head to bed.  The hubby went to bed about half an hour ago and the bed should be warm!  I may post my food again over the next week just to help me get back on track.  Here is what I had today:

Breakfast:  1 1/2 chocolate chip pancakes with butter spray and SF syrup; coffee with heavy cream and sweetener

Snack:  Fiber One 90 cal bar (chocolate and PB), 1/2 banana; coffee and water

Lunch:  220 mac-n-cheese pack, Gala apple; water

Dinner:  Shredded enchilada chicken over multi-grain chips with sour cream and salsa, refried black beans and cheese; diet Mello Yello and water

Dessert:  NSA vanilla ice cream and crushed Oreos; water

Reading it doesn't look that bad... maybe I did ok?  I think the worst with dinner was that it was probably too much of each thing all together.  I should've said no to the cheese!  LOL  And you know, I think I am going to try making my own refried beans.  These are SOOO good but VERY high in cals from where they add so much oil!  If I made them myself, I wouldn't need to add the oil.  I think I would just add some chicken or beef stock.  Not to mention this brand is rather expensive.  I can easily get the bagged ones and make them!  LOL  Or even just plain canned.  Anything would be better than this pricey stuff.

Anyways, that is all for today and I am now going to head on.  Later chicks.