Better

I'm feeling much better today than I did the other day.  I'm still tired thanks to an OH SO CRANKY toddler, but at least emotionally I'm not feeling like things are so outta whack.  Hubby and I got the kiddos to bed early the other night and were able to sit and talk and snuggle.  Amazing how just doing that and having some downtime together can make such a huge difference!  It was really nice to chill.  But then last night youngest fought and fought and fought sleep.  And then he was up during the night having a COW.  Literally.  It sounded like a pissed off cow was hiding under his crib he was carrying on so much!!!!  I was about to lose my temper and spank him I was so annoyed.  I finally sent my husband to bed and I rocked him until he was out cold.  Took a while, but it was better than keeping the entire house up.  I didn't go back to bed this AM, either.  I decided to just stay up because there's really no point in trying to go back to sleep when I know that someone is going to be here in 45mins.  So, I just got on up.  I thought of working out, but I was groggy so I passed.  I think I will do it this afternoon.  I think I am just going to TRY to workout at a few different times and see how it goes.  If I keep trying I will surely find something that works, right?  UGH.  I HOPE.

I didn't weigh today and probably won't the rest of this week.  TOM got here yesterday and it's messing me all up.  I was hungry ALL DAY yesterday.  And it about drove me nuts.  And the chocolate craving was insane!  I know I went over my cals.  I had extra fruit, an extra multi-grain Wasa crisp with PB.  And straight semi-sweet chocolate chips.  It was that or go nuts.  I think I went the last two days but I have just felt like I was STARVING.  Constant stomach growling, being light headed, and cranky.  I made a plan for today as soon as I got up, though.  I'm upping my protein.  I looked back over my menu the last two days and I think my protein was too low.  I figured if I upped that and lowered processed carbs, it would help.  I didn't eat a ton of carbs yesterday, but I started the day off with a blueberry bagel since that is what sounded good and I think it got my sugar off to a bad place.  Normally it isn't an issue, but I guess having my cycle is making my body all weird this time.  I normally don't have nutso cravings during.  I usually have it during PMS and then it passes quickly.  Not happening like that this time... I hope that upping the protein helps this time because I'll be huge by the end of this week if it keeps up!  I already don't expect a loss, but I sure don't want to gain.

Well, I feel like writing more but I need to get off of here and get out the door.  We needs odds and ends stuff from the grocery store, so I'm going to go ahead and go while oldest is at school so I don't have to go late tonight.  Hubby only has one day off and that's date day so I don't want to go then.  Not to mention, hubby has been tired lately, too, so I don't want him to have to deal with the kiddos alone.  He may not even get home until super late tonight.  I made white chili last night, but it came out super salty so I am going to fluff it out some more and water it down.  It was yummy, just a bit salty.  So, I think I can add more to it and make it better.  Not sure if I want to do that tonight for dinner or tomorrow.

******  Back from errands and so far, the extra protein at breakfast has made a big difference!  That, or my hormones are finally dropping back to a manageable level.  LOL  The protein helped so much, I didn't even finish my food.  I had 3 heels of bread, one egg and one turkey/cheddar link.  I didn't eat the 3rd heel.  I would normally only eat two pieces, but one was so thin... wouldn't be enough with it and one other and didn't want to waste it.  But I did end up wasting some because I didn't eat the 3rd one and it wasn't the thinnest one!  LOL  Well, going to tie this up for real now.  My car is finally done and I need to go and pick it up once youngest gets up from nap.  Which is going to be around 4:30 to 5 whether he wants it to be or not.  I don't have much choice!  He'll probably be a grump, but there's not much I can do about it.  Later ladies!