Should be...

I should SO be sleeping right now seeing as how it is almost 2AM.  But for some reason, I can't!  I don't know what the deal is, but man, it needs to take a hike!  And it's even worse that I KNOW I am tired.  I think my body is just too wound up.  Why?  Not sure.  I've been sick, super busy helping a friend, and super busy catching up on the house.  I've worked my tail off so I should be tired.  But I'm not.  I'm UP.  And wishing I could go to bed and snuggle with the hubby.  I just feel... distracted and AWAKE.

Got back on plan today.  Didn't eat as much as I should've and didn't record anything, but I know I stayed on plan.  I have felt better, but I've felt worse.  Wish TOM would get his ass here so I could be done with it. UGH.  Tomorrow, going to catch up on my food journal and I am thinking I might need to start keeping track of my feelings for the day on each day.  But man, that's a lot of journaling to keep up with!  I blog here, on MySpace, I keep a home journal, AND now righting down my feelings in my food journal.  UGH.  Maybe I won't do a whole journal thing, but just updates so I can look back and see what was going on at the time.

I am SOOO ready to weigh.  I am SOOOOO ready to be done with my 'strict' plan and get into maintenace, but I FEEL so far away from that.  I'm not sure why?  Maybe because I've been doing this since summer and sorta feel like I need a long term break.  But I also want to hit my goal or very close to it.  *sigh*  I guess I just have to stick it out and find a new motivation.  I hate having lack of it right now.  At least I'm pushing through.  I guess tonight I just feel off.  Geez, come on TOM, get here and give this old bod a break!  Makes my hormones NUTS and my thinking all foggy.  HATE IT!!!!

Well, going to go lay down even if I feel like my brain is 'busy'.  Maybe just the act of laying down will calm me.  G'night.