Pain

I am having some HORRIBLE pain today.  No, not TOM.  But wait, where are you TOM?  TOM?  Are you lost?  You should've gotten here already.  I'm sure you'll show up soon, but you know I hate waiting!!!  LOL  Anyways, back to my pain.  I have this horrible sharp pain shooting from the top of my left hip all the way down to my ankle.  I'm not sure WHAT I could've done!  I've had a similar pain to this back when I was preggo, but not since.  Then, it was my sciatic nerve.  I have had problems with my back and neck now for a while.  I'm not sure what it stems from, but I get these large knots in the muscles of my back.  My husband said that they were the size of golf balls.  I know when they are there -- I get massive headaches when they reach a certain point and I have to sit with heating pads for hours and then the hubby gives me a massage.  When the knot breaks, I feel like crying they hurt SO bad and then there's a flood of relief.  I literally passed out last time (asleep, not like a blackout).  I am considering going to a Chiropractor.  I've heard mixed reviews, but I've got to do something.  I'm obviously out of whack somehow and it's been worse over the last few months.  My friend who is a massage therapist said that I should also consider massage therapy and physio therapy.  She checked my back and said they were pretty severe.  :(  Guess I better get this figured out soon before I have issues that are even worse.

I made the decision yesterday to take out all the maternity things.  So, I did it!  I ended up taking out 11 pieces.  One of which was a dress.  I've decided that even though a couple of them are really cute and it would be nice to keep them, I'm going to let them go.  I know I will be able to 'replace' them in the future.  The only thing that I have found so far that I would like to get altered, is my denim jacket, but I want to wait until I get to the mid-190's to do that -- less than 10 more lbs.  But all the other stuff I am thinking I will let go if/when the time comes.  And for now, that's all the purging/prep I am doing.  Still getting rid of those 11 things gave me back a couple of inches of space!  :D  My closet is looking better and better.  We put in a whole new closet organizer when we expanded it and then I bought a ton of matching bins to put our things in.  All Sterilite (Made in the USA, woot!), clear, and light!  So, all of our non every day stuff (extra bags, gloves, hats) are all stored in those at the top of the closet.  And now that some of the 'old' stuff is being cleared away, it's looking nice and airy.

I wish I was feeling nice and airy!  I felt good yesterday until late when I was talking to the hubbs.  I realized that even though I was feeling good about losing a little over a pound a week, I was disappointed that it is going to take a LONG time to lose the weight I need to lose.  At 204, I need to lose 21lbs. to hit my goal.  At 1lb. per week, that's over 5mos. to lose that weight.  10mos. to lose 40.  15mos. if I decide to go down to the 140's.  That would put me at next summer at this rate.  :(  Boo.  But I don't know what else to do.  I don't want to cut my carbs any lower, I'm trying to make little changes to go to bed earlier.  And I am just now getting into the swing of my hubby's new shift work schedule.  I am hoping that I will be able to work out at least 30mins. during youngest's nap time in the middle of the day and then maybe another half hour after they have gone to bed.  I have been trying really hard to get the kiddos into bed earlier.  Youngest at 8, oldest before 9.  I am hoping to eventually work that back even more to youngest at 7:30 and oldest at 8.  When oldest starts school, he will have to get up at 6:30.  Right now, he still needs about 11hrs. of sleep (he is in bed before 9 and gets up around 8:15) so we will just have to see how he does with being in bed at 8 and getting up at 6:30 (that would be about 10 1/2hrs. of sleep).  And depending on how bad traffic and whatnot is, we may have to get up at 6:15.  URGH.  In which case he will either have to go to bed earlier, or come home and take a little nap.

I am worrying about this NOW because I want to try to get them into a routine before we NEED a routine.  It's easy when they are both home and we can do whatever, but I am thinking we need to do this now so we aren't fighting and stressed when we get closer to school.  Right now, bedtime routine for oldest starts at 8:15 and the earliest I want to roll him back now is to 8.  We'll roll back a little more every few weeks.  And I need to get back into the routine of doing review/homeschooling with him.  We've slacked on that in the last few weeks because of everything else going on and that is completely my fault.  So, I need to get back on it.  We do a little bit of math, penmanship, memorization and then some reading.  He wasn't doing so well on the reading at first and phonics, but he is doing better!  I know when he starts school that is what he will be learning.  So, as long as he goes in prepared with the other stuff, he will be fine.  Not to mention, he's already had two years of Preschool.  We just didn't go back this year due to our funds at the time being too tight.  Thankfully, things are much better now (we just paid off 2 debts and are about to repay 1 more plus rebuild our savings).  But considering all the drama that was at the school this year with the new Director, I'm just as glad we stayed home.

Well, I guess this is all of the rambling for now.  Nap time is approaching and I am thinking that I want to try to get a workout in today.  Wondering if I should track that, too?  I do have that dailymile thing on FB, but I don't think I'll be doing any serious mileage right now.  I'll be lucky to hit a mile a day!  But we will see.  I guess I could track it in my food journal along with everything else.  LOL  Have a great day everyone!