Crumbled

I feel like a crumbled up tissue this morning.  My Mom called earlier this AM to tell me that my Granny had passed away.  She was 99.  I knew it was coming, realistically, but it doesn't mean I won't miss her.  Well, not her that had been sick with Alzheimer's the last few years, but the Granny I use to sit and have coffee with on the weekend.  The one who sewed me so many of my clothes growing up and loved to make me strawberry cakes for my birthday... with real strawberries out of her garden.  It's just hard to believe her shell is gone because her mind has been gone for a while.  Although, the last time I went to see her, she actually remembered me.  I will always remember her.

So, I am feeling a bit fragile this morning.  I just want to sit and remember her and hug my kids who will never know her.  That just breaks my heart.  She was a wonderful woman who was more like a mother to me than just a grandmother.  I wish I could remember all her stories.  I should've been a better granddaughter and written them down.  But I guess we all say that.  Why don't more of us do it?  *sigh*  I guess it's just one of those things that we all say we're going to do but never make the time for.  We all just get so busy with our own lives that we forget to invest the time in other people the way we should.  Especially our extended family.

I don't really have much else to write about this AM.  I am sad, but I plan on staying on plan and I am having a protein shake as I type.  And then my 'official' weigh-in is tomorrow morning.  Not sure what the rest of the weekend will entail now, but I will do my best when I go out of town.  That's all I got for today, chicks.  Hope you all have a wonderful holiday weekend and are able to stay on-plan.