Ramblings...

Got in late last night and ended up sleeping in super late this AM.  I will admit to being less than stellar on my diet.  Truth is, I didn't eat horrid, but I didn't eat great.  It is what it is.  And normally, Sundays tend to be my high days anyways since that is weigh-in day.  So, I did what I could on Sunday and even did ok Sunday night with only a bite of a gingersnap cookie to the tune of 'Oh, you HAVE to try this'.  They were made by my cousin who had brought them from out of town with her.  And I will confess, QUITE good!  Then I had one slice of meat lovers pizza on a thin crust.  I was starving and had limited options.  LOL  Monday I TRIED, but my parents just didn't have a lot in the house.  But when we got home last night, it was a dinner of thin crust pizza with sausage and pineapple, and then soco's and diet cokes.  I think the alcohol knocked me out!  I am not use to alcohol so a little goes a LONG way.  But today is going to be a better day.  I had LC french toast with sausage for breakfast and a cappuccino.  It would be a lot if it wasn't after 12!  I slept in LATE and was very hungry.  So, this was really brunch.  And since it is very filling, I more than likely won't do anything but a protein shake later and then a good dinner.

I just feel worn out.  I have so many things that I need to get done.  But the weekend wiped me out.  The funeral went well and more people showed than what we thought would.  So, it was good.  I think it made my Dad feel better to have so many people there and know that she was so loved.  My oldest wanted to sit with him during the funeral.  It was very sweet and I think it helped him to have his 'little buddy' with him.  We gave Granny some hydrangea's -- one of her fave flowers.  And even under the unhappy circumstances, it was good to see some family and old friends.  But I must admit, it really made me think about moving back home closer to family.  I never wanted to move when I was younger.  But when I fell in love with my other half, it felt natural to go wherever we needed to go.  I just thought that if it were meant to be, we would end up there again.  And we did end up close, but it's been in my mind lately to move back.  I'm not sure if it will happen, but it's in our mind.  My parents are pretty much alone now with my Granny passing and my Aunt passed a while back.  And then my bro has moved up closer to me.  But not to be close to me.  He's running from his problems.  Those won't go away until he faces them and deals with them.  But he won't listen to me -- I'm his 'little' sister so he still thinks of me as a kid.  For whatever reason, he also has it stuck in his head that I think I'm better than him.  No IDEA where that came from, but I think because we went different ways in life, he thinks that I think that when in reality, all I think is that he's my bro and I want to help him and him be happy.  The thing is, that will NEVER happen until he wants it for himself.

Anyways, back to what I was saying... it's been a long weekend and I am tired.  I know there are things that need to be done, but I would rather just hang out today and take it easy.  We are thinking of going to the pool or going to buy a small one.  Our old one won't hold air anymore and I'm not sure why.  That's like, $25 down the tube!  URGH.  But oh well, we would like a slightly bigger one anyways.  I also need to catch up on tons of yardwork and some housework.  But I don't see that happening today.  One more day won't matter, I guess.

On to another topic... I did my weigh-in Sunday and was back at 200.5.  Woot Woot!  VERY happy to see that.  Makes me feel like the gain from Vacay was mostly water from my cycle.  I am hoping that means that by next Sunday, I will be under 200 comfortably.  I'd really like to see a 198.?.  THAT would be awesome.  I did a VERY short cycle this time, I guess, so not sure how that will work.  The whole month has been weird!  So, here is to hoping that June will be a good month for weight-loss.

Ok, I feel like I've been rambling so I am going to end this now, check a few things, update a few things, and attempt to get going.  Hope all you chicks had a good weekend and I will talk to you again soon!  :D