Messin' with me...

Either this is working, or my scale is messing with me.  I saw 197 this AM.  197!!!  FLAT.  Not a point 5 in sight.  I'm happy, but also somewhat wary.  Does that make ANY sense?  You see, I still can't believe that something this simple is working.  It may not be fast, but it's something.  And honestly, even though some part of me would really like to lose a ton of weight, I really have come to that part of my life where it's more important to lose it the right way than to lose a butt ton only at once.  This way, I am REALLY hoping that it becomes a habit.  I am just honestly surprised because... I didn't think just calorie counting would work.  I thought for sure I would not see a loss.  But I'm losing and it makes me very happy!  I really hope I can lose about 4lbs. per month.  I know I've said that before, but it still stands true!  That's what I'd really like... that means 9mos. from now I could be in the low 160's.  Lower if I happen to have a few good weigh-ins!  That would put me at the end of May, beginning of June.  I think I can do it, I just don't want to get hung up on too many things.

Even though this has been an emotional week, I keep trying to tell myself that eating out of control or not sticking with what I want will bite me in the back-end later.  Cause it will.  I've already been up and down and all over the place, but eating like crazy would do nothing but make me feel WORSE.  And even with hubby home, I've stuck to what I was doing.  I told him that I was going to eat more balanced and he could do whatever.  And unlike normal (which is eating out and eating crap many times when he is off even though we SAY we aren't going to) we didn't this time.  I'm not sure of the change.... maybe it's because I'm allowing whatever I want as long as it fits into my calorie goals?  Like yesterday, I had Italian Ice.  I had been wanting it SO bad!  The stuff is so good!!!  So, I had that for my snack while we walked the Public Market.  Not to mention the fact that I did a huge grocery trip right before his time off so we are LOADED with food.  I mean, nearly $400 worth!!!  I had good coupons, there was a sale, and well, I loaded up.  LOADED.  My freezer and pantry are SO full.  Looks like I am going to have to get our overflow pantry cleaned out and ready to go or the pantry might explode.  Yes, it is THAT full.  I may work on that during naptime.

Anyways, I think the change to low cal has been hard on the hubby, but good at the same time.  He is still in low carb mode.  LOL  But it's ok.  We're working on it!  I will say, though, that doing low carb was a God-send.  I lost a lot of weight doing it before my first pregnancy, before my second pregnancy, and then after.  And I think it was a great lead-in to what I am doing now.  Mostly because, I think the low carb helped to set my mind to watch the TYPES of carbs I eat.

After doing low carb, doing low cal is somewhat easier because:

* I'm not use to eating useless sugary carbs so when I eat, I tend to eat healthier carbs anyways.

* Fiber is important when eating low carb, so I am conscious of eating foods that have good fiber.

* I'm already aware of carb, calorie, and fat contents for most protein sources.

* Since junk food has been off of the menu for a while, I don't really crave it except during THAT time.  LOL

So, you see, low carb was perfect for getting me to where I am.  I AM eating more carbs now, but in the form of whole foods and good breads and grains.  Low carb really helped to set me up to be more successful in low cal.  I just hope I can keep going and get to where I need to be.  The one thing I am having to re-adjust to is my fat intake.  I really, truly and honestly believe that the reason why low carb stalled out for me was due to my fat intake.  At the time, I didn't think it was a ridiculous amount, but thinking back on it, I'm pretty sure my fat intake was much too high.  Mostly because I would cook with fat, eat with fat, and then have some dairy on top of my fat.  TOO MUCH FAT!  Now that I have reduced that, I have naturally cut back on the amount of cals I am taking in because fat is the most dense in cals.  And still my carbs are lower than the average person, I'd bet.  Not that I'm really counting... but I'm not eating a lot of junk so I'd say yes!  LOL

Well, I best be tying this bad puppy up now that I have written off and on all day!  I got a lot done and even got to go out to dinner with friends at Red Robin!  I got the 'Natural' and had cantaloupe for my side instead of fries.  I did eat two small fries, but they weren't what I wanted.  :D  So, pretty happy with that.  Hoping that my weigh-in shows a loss tomorrow.  I am determined to be happy even if it is only ONE pound!  Wish me luck ladies!  :D