Still not working...

Most of my blog stuff still isn't working.  I can get on here to blog the same way by going to the main page, signing in, and then going to another blog and clicking on the 'Site Admin' link.  But I still can't open some blogs or comment and I still can't just jump on here like I would like.  UGH.  I sure hope they get this fixed soon!  Why is it that my blog is taking longer than most to fix?  It's nothing special, but it's my support and release.  Does that make sense?  OY.

My weight for the last 3 or 4 days has been 190.  It will flash 189.5 then roll to 190.0.  I'm not sure why it's not moving down... my calories over the last few days have been spot on... if not a tiny bit lower.  So, I'm a bit annoyed that it isn't letting more go.  I had really hoped to be firmly in the 180's by now since I'm doing pretty well.  I had really thought I'd see 189 this AM.  Even 188.5 by Sunday.  But I'm guessing that isn't going to happen.  bleh.  It makes me bummed but I am trying to just be pleased with the 190.  I don't really ever expect or want huge losses, but now and again a 2lber would be nice! Especially when I am trying hard and making sure that I don't go over cals.  As far as I can gather, I only went over one time on one snack.  I know it wasn't enough to keep me from losing.  But I am a bit bummed still.  I guess I just feel a bit bummed after my last post.  I feel like I need to be making progress.  I mean, I'm only down 6lbs. from about this time last year so I had hoped to lose another couple of pounds before I got to the one year mark.  Now granted, I went on vacay and had some other issues go on so when all was said and done, I will be happy to just weigh less this time since I could've given up and GAINED.  But I didn't.  But I would've loved for it to have been more than just 6lbs.  But every pound has to count or I WOULD get discouraged.  It's just making me feel a bit down.  Not a lot.  Not enough to throw me off track.  Just enough to make me feel a bit unhappy and wish that I was going faster.

Overall I guess I'm pretty happy with where I'm at.  I only begin to worry when I see people and they don't give a positive reaction.  Or they say, "You're still in the 190's?"  That sorta kicks me in the balls as they say.  UGH.  I know I shouldn't let myself be bothered by it, but it just makes me worry that I should be working harder.  But in the end, I have my reasons for doing it this way and know that in the end this is the only way I'm going to be truly successful.

Speaking of being successful... shopping has been more successful lately!  I have gotten some GREAT tops lately!  And two dresses I LOVE from Ross.  One a L and one a M.  But don't get excited -- I think that second dress was just cut big.  I'm just happy about the L!  Even last year most of the dresses I got were XL if not 1X!  So, to be firmly in L makes me ecstatic.  :D  I can't imagine the day I need a M.  I would think I won't be in that for quite a while so that is why I was ok with getting the L's.  I don't think my tops will change much between the number I am and about 20 more pounds.  I honestly don't think even the bottoms will change much and since I was a 14 before, I have plenty without having to buy.  I'm hoping I don't have to buy for a until I'm a 10!  It's probably wishful thinking to hope I can make the 14's work until I'm a 10, though, huh?  Oh well, I will take it as it comes... if I have to buy more at some point, then so be it.  I'd rather lose the weight than worry about having to replace my clothes!  Especially since this is slow so I know it's not going to happen overnight.  Although, I have enjoyed the shopping to some extent so maybe it wouldn't be so bad!  ;)

Well, I need to wind this up.  I've been typing off and on today while doing other things like wiping down cabinets, doing laundry, and picking up.  I need to work on a project or two now, so I need to get going.  And the bad thing is that now I feel a headache coming on.  UGH!  Oh well, off I go!