Saturday, April 6, 2013

Down

I'm feeling a bit down today and I'm not sure why.  I felt fine all day yesterday even with the rain.   But today... Today I just feel off.  :/  And I know I'm off because I couldn't wrestle up the energy to be happy for a friend who had an incredible weigh-in this week.  I commented and I am super happy for her, but in my heart, I wasn't so jazzed.  I don't even feel like doing much but sitting on the couch.  I think it's my lack of sleep.  Youngest fought bed like the devil so by the time he was finally out and I got a shower and to bed, it was SUPER late.  Then he got up what must've been 3 or 4 times plus the time I got up to put oldest on the bus.  So, I feel drained.  That very well could be why I'm not peppy -- I'm just worn out.  But I am still going to try to get out and take my sausage dog for a walk.  I don't know what happened while we were out of town, but ol' girl seemed to have gained about 10lbs.  The house sitter said she found and ate nearly an entire bag of dehydrated chicken.  Heifer!  Those are TREATS not DINNER!  UGH.  She is SUCH a hogger!  I don't doubt my male got some, but SHE is the one who thinks she has to eat non-stop.  I wonder what makes dogs do that?  Growing up, none of our animals were like that.  Our dog would eat once a day and be done.  But these... these are on the hunt for food non-stop and they aren't even all that active!  And the female just puts on weight so so easy.  And she doesn't need it -- it isn't good for her hip AT ALL.

Anyways, it's a gorgeous day out and I really need to pull myself up and out of this funk.  But so far, no go.  I still have plenty of housework to finish, but I haven't done it.  I did get a lot done, but I didn't vacuum, dust, or mop.  And I can't really do that with everyone here anyways.  And 3 outta 4 are here -- one of which is sleeping.  So, going to try to get in a good vacuum and dust over the weekend if I can get the hubby to take the kiddos and KEEP them outside for a bit. Then if I can, I want to mop.  I am for sure not doing it today since I already feel like crap. I did straighten and clean a lot yesterday, so overall it isn't bad.  Just dusty and in need of a mop.

I wanted to add that I have added a new thing to my blog -- my activity.  This won't be on there every day, but every day that I work out it will be.  I don't think I will keep up with cals and I'm pretty sure I'm only going to use my Polar every once in a while just to see how I'm doing.  I want to keep this low key and NOT get mired down strictly by numbers.  I know for me that I have to keep it real on the food and track.  But when it comes to activity, I know about what's what so I just want to check it as I go once in a while and make sure I'm where I should be, ya know?  Like if I get to take the dog for a walk, I'd like to wear it because I'd like to make sure I get in enough of a walk to wear the dog out, burn some good cals, but not overdo.  It's just another tool, but nothing to get bogged down with. 

Today's Food:

1/2 plain bagel -- 125
1tbsp. butter blend -- 50
1tbsp. blackberry preserves -- 50
2 strips of bacon -- 80
2 eggs -- 160
Coffee -- 0
Breakfast Total:  465
Hmmm... went a bit over here.  I guess I could cut back the butter and the preserves some.  Butter will be hard (I used half in the pan for the eggs and the other half on the bagel), but the preserves would be easy.  I thought it was a lot.  Not sure how else I could get the number down without giving up a slice of bacon.  And well... I love me bacon!  LOL

2 oranges (a little over 16oz. with peels and stuff) -- 137
water -- 0
Snack Total:  137

2 servings pretzels -- 260
2 servings cheese -- 200
tea -- 5
Lunch Total:  465

Barilla pasta pack -- 320
10g. fresh parm -- 42
water -- 0
Dinner Total:  362

1/2 and one quarter of a cosmic brownie --  175
I think that is right... I had the half my older son didn't finish and about one bite (or one quarter of a half) of my younger's.  Meh.  Close enough!

Total for the day:1604
Right on!  Off to bed soon.  I will say, I was finally a bit productive.  I got my budget binder cleaned out, a few months ahead worked on, and some old papers pulled out and a few tax papers put together.  But that is about it.  I also listed a few items to sell... hopefully those will move pretty quick.  I'd like to get my garage cleaned out, before bad weather rolls in.  I want to be able to pull my car in to keep it safe.  An early Spring storm is what did so much damage before. I also want to get rid of as much unused stuff as possible for the future... aka, moving.  And then of course, the extra money is nice, too!  HA!  So... slowly but surely!

3 comments:

  1. I hope you feel better Jewelz.. sometimes it just happens so I honestly don't think there's anything wrong with it. I know I've had those days (lately too). I have a sausage dog myself lol... not sure what type of dog you have.. but mine's a basset and I swear she had some food radar on constant alert of any possible begging opportunities. She's suppose to be a "mini" basset but she's topping 60lbs right now.. anyway I had her on weight management dog food cuz she's my fatty head :) and I want her healthy and happy.. Kinda hard when she's so good at giving me that adorable doggy look for treats lol

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  2. Today I'm feeling pretty meh. It was supposed to be in the low sixties, but instead it's rainy and grey out there. So much for the warmest day of spring so far.
    My last couple of weigh ins have been nothing but disappointing, and I only weigh in about two times a month. It seems that my weight flat out doesn't budge unless I do something radical like a master cleanse, or live off of nothing but greens for a couple of weeks. Otherwise all I can do is maintain. Le sigh. Maybe it is the PCOS that makes my body like this. I dunno. I really am leaning towards trying the Atkins thing though. Have you ever thought of doing it again? Perhaps it would give you a jump start, and get the scale moving again. Plus, you don't have so much to loose anymore, so you wouldn't have to stay in the tough phases for very long.

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    1. Oh, it wasn't my slow losses that have me not jazzed for her, it's just I feel down. I'm feeling a bit better tonight and I got to looking at my calendar and I was oh yes... I probably have a bit of PMS. Mine hits about 6 days prior to starting, lets up, then I get my cycle. Or, it could just be exhaustion. I'm not sure. But it isn't about my weight... I actually feel really good about that! I do have to work to not compare myself to others, but most of the time, I'm good with slowly but surely going down. Over the long haul, I have consistently went down every single year since my second child was born and that is more important to me than quick loss. :)

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