Always Thinking

I sometimes wonder if I tend to overthink things.  But at the same time, if I don't worry over it, then who will?

I'm feeling OK about the house recently.  After going back over the previous blog, I felt like instead of not getting anything done, we've actually done quite a bit for the short time we've been here.  I realize I probably could get MORE done.  I should do more.  But I seem stilted by the time.  You see, everyone is up and out the door here by just a little after 7AM.  Then just youngest and I are here with the animals.  Which is good.  But.. since I stay up until like 1AM, I don't get up until 9 or sometimes 10.  And by that point, I'm just in the 'GIVE ME COFFEE NOW' stage.  By the time I make food for us, we eat it, and get rolling, it's nearly noon.  That means I only have a couple of hours before pick-up for oldest.  Now, we HAVE cut out doing the drive.  And while I know it was the preferred method, it was sucking up so much time and gas!  SO. MUCH.  So, it had to be cut.  Just like hubby cut coming home for lunch every day.  He also chose to only take 30mins so he could have a built in 30mins of overtime at work.  That means if he stays over 30 every day, he gets an automatic 5hrs. of overtime.  That little extra helps so much!  Especially since I haven't found a way to bring in any income other than trying to cook more at home.  WHICH, has been going well.  We have also been good about not shopping, not buying frivolously but still having fun, and watching our grocery buys.  Back to my point... *ahem*  I don't feel like I get much done during the day because my time is limited.  It's so weird that we are now on more of a set schedule, but I can't seem to get with it.  I set my clock to get up earlier, but I somehow always sleep through it!  I know that some part of me enjoys the sleeping in and having my quiet time at night.  And I would be fine with that if I got more done during the day!

Like today, I don't feel like I got one quarter of the things I needed to get done, done.  I forgot to start the dishwasher this morning.  So the sink is full.  I did do a couple of loads of laundry, but just realized I never hung it and I need to do that shortly!  I never finished folding that basket of laundry in my room.  UGH.  What I did do was feed us all at home.  Even planned a nice dinner and tried a new recipe (we ALL loved it!).  I finally got my oldest curtains up after much crying, screaming, and cursing.  I hope my youngest was ignoring me!  HA!  I also finished his solar system, complete with clay asteroids for the asteroid belt.  But that was about it.  I also never got the paperwork done.  UGH.  I felt like I spent a large amount of time gathering my supplies and cleaning up.  I don't feel like I got much done in the actual work area.  Isn't that how it always goes?

Anyways, on top of that, I never did any kind of workout.  And I need to be working out.  Because along with the weight gain (around 20lbs.), my attitude has been shitty.  And I know the working out will help with both.  I'm watching my food but not getting nutty.  Just going back to around 1600 cals.  I did think of going extreme to around 1200 to quickly drop the weight and get it over with.  I'm still contemplating that.  And I may do it.  I just haven't decided for sure.  In theory, if I cut it to 1200 per week, I should be able to drop a decent amount of weight.  I just don't know if I can do it.  And right now... right now I'm not feeling strong enough, I don't think.  But I have to get back in gear.  I was down to like.. I can't even remember!  I want to say something like 170.  And I blew it.  I'm never going to see 155 at this rate.  :/  But if I buckled down, I might be able to get close by my birthday.  I will think on it.  I would need to do some major re-arranging in my food. 

Anyways, I'm just feeling like I'm in a rut and I can't put my finger on what is making me feel that way.  But I know I need to do something.  I just don't know what that something is.  Onwards, I guess!