Today is the End of Month weigh-in. I came in at..............199 again! Woot! I know, I know. I only lost half a pound for the month. Really, I maintained. But considering I bounced up to 210 at one point (I know a lot was water weight), I'm REALLY happy to be back under 200 and sitting at 199. I hope to leave the 190's behind this month. That's really my goal. I'd like August to be the month I break into the 180's. I know a 9lb. loss is a lot for one month, but I think if I really stick to eating well, it will come off. Not to mention, I am trying hard to stay busy through the day. I know I need to exercise as we've covered a hundred times before, but I am making it a priority to stay up and busy during the day even if I don't do formal exercise still. Out of last week, I only had one day where I didn't do a whole lot, but my knee was hurting. Thankfully, it and my ankles are feeling better after my fall. My ankles are more tender than I noticed at first, so I've had to be careful. Especially on the heels of just recovering from injured ankles!
Not sure what I will be doing today other than some general clean up and then getting the kiddos all cleaned up. Both are due for their regular baths, but I also need to clip their fingernails and toe nails and oldest for sure needs a hair trim. Well, youngest does, too. Not sure what else to attempt to do. I stayed so busy last week that I got a ton done! LOL Maybe I should work on a project today? I could probably get one wall in the foyer painted... or maybe a couple of the steps prepped for paint.... And I was thinking of going through my books and clearing some of them out. I was holding on to a few to keep but I've been thinking that maybe I should just let them go. I've read them and had them for years and well, now, I've never gone back to re-read them. They were decent books, but they just don't capture my interest anymore. So, I was thinking of gathering them up to trade in and only keeping the books I really love. I know my bookshelf would appreciate it!
I have tons of stuff I could do, I guess. It's just where do I get started? LOL I guess the first step is to get up off my butt and get going, eh? But I want to chill for a bit and enjoy my coffee. Youngest isn't screaming today, so I kinda want to relax and enjoy that for a minute. We've had a rough few days thanks to some formula changes, shots, and probably teething. Today is the first day in a LONG time that he hasn't woken up like a bear! Seriously. He was basically crying and screaming for the last 3 days so to have him be somewhat happy today is a relief. Now the hubby is saying that he may take oldest to the movies since it is so hot out. If he does, I for SURE can work on at least one project. Well, if I can drag myself off of the couch. Not sure why my motivation is gone today, but it sure is. I am just tired right now! Maybe I need more coffee... or water.... or should have my green shake! We will see.
Ok, well, I am going to quit lolly-gagging and get off of here. I need a plan of attack for this foyer. I think the sooner I get it done, the sooner I will feel better about it! About how it looks, I mean! So, off I go to the races. LOL
Showing posts with label July. Show all posts
Showing posts with label July. Show all posts
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Saturday, July 30, 2011
A better night
Sorry about the tantrum, ladies! Rough day. I was overly tired and sometimes I just feel like the hubb's thinks I'm trying to order him about when in reality, it's that I love him and worry. I know it comes across as mothering at times, but I just love him SO much that I can't imagine my life without him. Especially not for a job that someone else could do. Anyways, he came home from work and apologized. Even said I was right and when he mentioned it to his boss, he said no problem just to take Sat. off so he wouldn't be overworked. So, all is well. The hubb's and I rarely argue and even yesterday it was more of a disagreement than an argument. We have only had one knock down, drag out screaming match in about 5yrs. But everyone has meltdowns and that was MINE. LOL This, well, this was small. But no matter how small, I really appreciate that he took the time to think about it, fix it, and then apologize. *sigh* How is it possible that after 12yrs. together, I love that man more and more each day? It's almost annoying! LOL
Soo... weighed in this AM. I know it isn't my 'official' day but I've been checking every day or couple of days just to see if I'm going along the right track. Today I came in at 199! I'm sorta shocked. I'm not doing low carb, really. And I saw 199. What am I doing? Still the same eating as before with the green protein shake at lunch. I DID try a cabbage shake yesterday and well, I think I used too much cabbage. BLEH. I used 2 cups just like I do with the other greens, but I think the cabbage is too dense to do that. Next time I will only do 1 cup. I had a HARD time getting down just one glass. BLEH. But I did it and had a small salad since I couldn't do the full 2 glasses. And honestly, I'm feeling really good! I still can't believe the 199. If that sticks around until tomorrow, I'll be happy! I know, only half a pound down for the entire month, but let's face it, I've not been great! Any loss at this point is GREAT! Even half a pound! LOL Even though I wish I could see that 198 again on an OFFICIAL weigh-in! Kinda feel like it was a fluke that time. Hope this 199 isn't a fluke.
Well, a few things to do today and I'm not going to get it done sitting on here! Have a good weekend chicks and I will report back tomorrow on my 'official' weigh-in!
Soo... weighed in this AM. I know it isn't my 'official' day but I've been checking every day or couple of days just to see if I'm going along the right track. Today I came in at 199! I'm sorta shocked. I'm not doing low carb, really. And I saw 199. What am I doing? Still the same eating as before with the green protein shake at lunch. I DID try a cabbage shake yesterday and well, I think I used too much cabbage. BLEH. I used 2 cups just like I do with the other greens, but I think the cabbage is too dense to do that. Next time I will only do 1 cup. I had a HARD time getting down just one glass. BLEH. But I did it and had a small salad since I couldn't do the full 2 glasses. And honestly, I'm feeling really good! I still can't believe the 199. If that sticks around until tomorrow, I'll be happy! I know, only half a pound down for the entire month, but let's face it, I've not been great! Any loss at this point is GREAT! Even half a pound! LOL Even though I wish I could see that 198 again on an OFFICIAL weigh-in! Kinda feel like it was a fluke that time. Hope this 199 isn't a fluke.
Well, a few things to do today and I'm not going to get it done sitting on here! Have a good weekend chicks and I will report back tomorrow on my 'official' weigh-in!
Friday, July 29, 2011
Aggravated!!!
OK, so, fair warning to anyone who is about to read this and to any moderators who may stumble upon it -- This post is a rant and not about weight loss!!!
So, I just had an argument with the hubb's. He's been working a TON of overtime lately and I get that he wants to work and become one of those guys that they just CANNOT let go of because he's so flexible, capable, knowledgeable, etc. But this working all the damn time is for the BIRDS! I have a TON of stuff coming up in the next couple of weeks, so I need him home some to help out. But instead of being flexible for his family, he's bending over backwards for them. You see, they did some sort of training retreat and forgot to schedule enough people. So, they had given 3 people vacation and now they are short handed. But instead of just sucking it up and making some of the Supervisors actually WORK, they're working the guys who are there to death! Now, keep in mind, this is Industrial Electrical, Mechanical, and Electronics work. My hubby is the only person besides one other qualified to do Electronics. OTHER THAN a couple of Supervisors. So, instead of saying hey, we screwed up and now we are going to help you cover, they've scheduled him an impossible shift with no turnover. He's going to be exhausted and that cannot be safe! Not to mention, I am already worn to a nub from an injury, busy schedule, and a baby who is still up a lot. I was up every hour last night with one or the other. Oldest was having bad dreams. I am SO tired I feel like crying!!!!!
So, I came up with a solution to the work problem and told him he could try asking his boss and he was like, "No one is going to want to work that." I'm like, WHAT? The guys there are ALWAYS asking for overtime! And if nothing else, ONE Supervisor could cover to give you one day off! But instead, he was like, well, they're just really short handed and you're acting like it's my fault. I said no, I'm not. I'm trying to help come up with a more reasonable solution rather than you working 84hrs. -- 62 on nights and 24 on days on one day of transition! And even if no one DOES want to work it, it isn't his problem! He's not the one who approved this stupid class and people's vacation without making sure that the floor was covered! So, the Supervisor is the one who should be responsible for making sure that it is covered, covered safely, and that if there aren't enough regular guys that HE comes in and works it so that his employees aren't worked to death! Everyone with any sense KNOWS that when you are tired that you are MUCH more prone to mistakes. And when you work in Engineering in an Industrial job, it is just not SAFE!!!!
On top of all that, like I said, I have a TON coming up this week and I am so tired I can't think. And I am getting no support. I get he wants to do the right thing for his job, and I am THANKFUL for this job, but sometimes you just have to say enough is enough and let them find another way. Especially when your family is starting to suffer. I won't lie, I'll make it. I won't fall apart. But it's frustrating as snot when men put their jobs above what is going on at home. I just feel like screaming! SCREAMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't know why, but that sorta did make me feel better.
So, I just had an argument with the hubb's. He's been working a TON of overtime lately and I get that he wants to work and become one of those guys that they just CANNOT let go of because he's so flexible, capable, knowledgeable, etc. But this working all the damn time is for the BIRDS! I have a TON of stuff coming up in the next couple of weeks, so I need him home some to help out. But instead of being flexible for his family, he's bending over backwards for them. You see, they did some sort of training retreat and forgot to schedule enough people. So, they had given 3 people vacation and now they are short handed. But instead of just sucking it up and making some of the Supervisors actually WORK, they're working the guys who are there to death! Now, keep in mind, this is Industrial Electrical, Mechanical, and Electronics work. My hubby is the only person besides one other qualified to do Electronics. OTHER THAN a couple of Supervisors. So, instead of saying hey, we screwed up and now we are going to help you cover, they've scheduled him an impossible shift with no turnover. He's going to be exhausted and that cannot be safe! Not to mention, I am already worn to a nub from an injury, busy schedule, and a baby who is still up a lot. I was up every hour last night with one or the other. Oldest was having bad dreams. I am SO tired I feel like crying!!!!!
So, I came up with a solution to the work problem and told him he could try asking his boss and he was like, "No one is going to want to work that." I'm like, WHAT? The guys there are ALWAYS asking for overtime! And if nothing else, ONE Supervisor could cover to give you one day off! But instead, he was like, well, they're just really short handed and you're acting like it's my fault. I said no, I'm not. I'm trying to help come up with a more reasonable solution rather than you working 84hrs. -- 62 on nights and 24 on days on one day of transition! And even if no one DOES want to work it, it isn't his problem! He's not the one who approved this stupid class and people's vacation without making sure that the floor was covered! So, the Supervisor is the one who should be responsible for making sure that it is covered, covered safely, and that if there aren't enough regular guys that HE comes in and works it so that his employees aren't worked to death! Everyone with any sense KNOWS that when you are tired that you are MUCH more prone to mistakes. And when you work in Engineering in an Industrial job, it is just not SAFE!!!!
On top of all that, like I said, I have a TON coming up this week and I am so tired I can't think. And I am getting no support. I get he wants to do the right thing for his job, and I am THANKFUL for this job, but sometimes you just have to say enough is enough and let them find another way. Especially when your family is starting to suffer. I won't lie, I'll make it. I won't fall apart. But it's frustrating as snot when men put their jobs above what is going on at home. I just feel like screaming! SCREAMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't know why, but that sorta did make me feel better.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
7/28/2011
SO.... weigh-in this AM was 200.5! Woot! I'm pretty darn happy with that! Even if I don't lose anything else (which I hope I do) I will be down 1.5 for this week come Sunday. Another pound would be great to get me back under 200. That would be a FABULOUS way to end the month! Although, this will be another month of no loss if I end it at 199.5, but I'd rather have maintained than gained. I am trying to stay positive. LOL And did I mention my cycle started? So, I am beyond happy. Even if I see nothing else but the 1.5, hopefully next week I will have a WHOOSH from water weight!
Yesterday ended up being a fairly easy day. I did do a few things around the house, but nothing drastic. My knee was REALLY twinging all day so I didn't want to push it. Today will be a bit more since I have to run around town for a bit and I need to do a few more things around the house that I wasn't up for yesterday if I can. I want to dust, finish up some laundry, and do dishes. That alone is about 3hrs. of stuff. LOL Dusting the whole house is a lot of work! Not sure if I will do the basement or not... I really need to deep clean down there and maybe the hubby will let me do that when he is home so I can knock it all out at once.
I tried another type of green shake yesterday. I used romaine in it along with strawberries, a couple of pieces of leftover frozen mango, and some peaches. The romaine is VERY different from the spinach in that it tastes almost... minty? Very fresh and invigorating! I liked it after just a couple of sips. However, I drank two servings and then left the other for later. MISTAKE. After it sits for a while, it REALLY gets a green taste... probably from the chlorophyll being released. Not good. Not good at ALL. So, if you decide to try these, make sure you drink it fresh! But I was very full after the first two glasses that I couldn't finish the third. So, may have to cut the recipe down a bit. Today I think I will have a raspberry, banana, and spinach. I'm getting low on everything so I will need to make a trip to the store soon. I also told my hubby that we needed to eat up some of the older things in the fridge before they get bad. We do pretty well with keeping up with it, but some of the fruits have been sitting there for a while. Time to eat those up in the form of smoothies! I bet I'm getting at least 3 or 4 servings of fruits and veg in those smoothies plus the protein and good fats. And with the greens, I don't need to add fiber! :D Not to mention the fact that there is a lot of liquids in them from the ice and almond milk.
Well, not much else to write about other than we got our meat! We decided to try them out last night and they were SO good! When fresh beef is cooking that is all natural and grass fed, the meat actually SMELLS like grass when it's cooking! It was crazy! And the meat is sooo tender that you don't really need much else but the meat and some veg. I think we have about 200lbs. of beef in our freezer right now! LOL Plus the about 50bags of frozen veg. I'm really excited to eat it and try it all out and see what we will be able to do next year. We got a good mix of of different cuts, so I hope that we can really find the best way to use it all. We got some GREAT roasts... up to 3lbs.! We can get 3 meals out of that. Straight roast with salad, roast and roasted veggies, and then either stew, chili, or even bbq or spaghetti. So many things you can do with roast. I know a lot of people don't like it, but it is honestly one of our fave things to eat because it's so versatile!
Ok, well, I think I've rambled on enough! I need to get off of here and get a few things done. And relax a bit. I'd like to read some more of my book. It's the last in the set and well... I'd like to turn them back in for credit so that I can get more books! LOL I've been thinking of getting a nook, but I'm not sure if it would be worth the money. The nook color is pretty darn expensive. I haven't really looked around or anything, yet, though. But the hubby keeps saying that for certain things, he thinks that the nook, in the end, would save us money. Because a trip to the used bookstore almost always results in a $40+ purchase. Yes, we turn them in for credit when we're done, but you know you rarely get back what you put into them. So, I've been wondering if for books that I just want to read and return if it would be better to get the nook for and then books I want to purchase to keep to get from the used store. I guess I should do some research and see what would be the best options. I really love books!
Ok, Ok, I'm going! All of you take care!
Yesterday ended up being a fairly easy day. I did do a few things around the house, but nothing drastic. My knee was REALLY twinging all day so I didn't want to push it. Today will be a bit more since I have to run around town for a bit and I need to do a few more things around the house that I wasn't up for yesterday if I can. I want to dust, finish up some laundry, and do dishes. That alone is about 3hrs. of stuff. LOL Dusting the whole house is a lot of work! Not sure if I will do the basement or not... I really need to deep clean down there and maybe the hubby will let me do that when he is home so I can knock it all out at once.
I tried another type of green shake yesterday. I used romaine in it along with strawberries, a couple of pieces of leftover frozen mango, and some peaches. The romaine is VERY different from the spinach in that it tastes almost... minty? Very fresh and invigorating! I liked it after just a couple of sips. However, I drank two servings and then left the other for later. MISTAKE. After it sits for a while, it REALLY gets a green taste... probably from the chlorophyll being released. Not good. Not good at ALL. So, if you decide to try these, make sure you drink it fresh! But I was very full after the first two glasses that I couldn't finish the third. So, may have to cut the recipe down a bit. Today I think I will have a raspberry, banana, and spinach. I'm getting low on everything so I will need to make a trip to the store soon. I also told my hubby that we needed to eat up some of the older things in the fridge before they get bad. We do pretty well with keeping up with it, but some of the fruits have been sitting there for a while. Time to eat those up in the form of smoothies! I bet I'm getting at least 3 or 4 servings of fruits and veg in those smoothies plus the protein and good fats. And with the greens, I don't need to add fiber! :D Not to mention the fact that there is a lot of liquids in them from the ice and almond milk.
Well, not much else to write about other than we got our meat! We decided to try them out last night and they were SO good! When fresh beef is cooking that is all natural and grass fed, the meat actually SMELLS like grass when it's cooking! It was crazy! And the meat is sooo tender that you don't really need much else but the meat and some veg. I think we have about 200lbs. of beef in our freezer right now! LOL Plus the about 50bags of frozen veg. I'm really excited to eat it and try it all out and see what we will be able to do next year. We got a good mix of of different cuts, so I hope that we can really find the best way to use it all. We got some GREAT roasts... up to 3lbs.! We can get 3 meals out of that. Straight roast with salad, roast and roasted veggies, and then either stew, chili, or even bbq or spaghetti. So many things you can do with roast. I know a lot of people don't like it, but it is honestly one of our fave things to eat because it's so versatile!
Ok, well, I think I've rambled on enough! I need to get off of here and get a few things done. And relax a bit. I'd like to read some more of my book. It's the last in the set and well... I'd like to turn them back in for credit so that I can get more books! LOL I've been thinking of getting a nook, but I'm not sure if it would be worth the money. The nook color is pretty darn expensive. I haven't really looked around or anything, yet, though. But the hubby keeps saying that for certain things, he thinks that the nook, in the end, would save us money. Because a trip to the used bookstore almost always results in a $40+ purchase. Yes, we turn them in for credit when we're done, but you know you rarely get back what you put into them. So, I've been wondering if for books that I just want to read and return if it would be better to get the nook for and then books I want to purchase to keep to get from the used store. I guess I should do some research and see what would be the best options. I really love books!
Ok, Ok, I'm going! All of you take care!
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Whoa Buddy!
WHOA BUDDY have we been busy! The last two days have consisted of purging, cleaning, and organizing of mass proportions! You see, I had a VERY cluttered garage. I've been cleaning it out here and there when the hubby wasn't looking, but nothing massive. And I had been helping him to organize the things he wanted to keep. I'm a store and label kinda gal, so that's what I had been doing slowly as to not KILL myself. Well, then the farm called and said *GASP* our meat will be delivered Weds.! WOOT! So, I needed to clean out the garage to get a clear path to the deep freezer. AND I also needed to get that deep freezer organized like crazy. And I did! THANK YOU TARGET! I got 4 of those milk crates for $3 each and then some other little nesting/stacking storage bins and now you can get to ANYTHING in that bad puppy! I dig it. But, I also took a HUGE load of stuff to Goodwill. Then there are TWO trashcans stuffed to the gills. Luckily, regular trash ran today, but now recycling is overflowing. Going to have to break out the spare can! I really should take a pic and post since I searched and searched for ideas to organize a deep freezer and no one seemed to have any great ideas. My hubby was impressed! He even got out there today and ended up doing a bunch of organizing and purging, too! This is the best our garage has looked in FOREVER! While he worked in the garage, my oldest and I got to work on the family room and rec area. He was GOOD and got rid of a bunch of stuff. Now that area is neat and organized again!
I am thinking we will take a break from that for a bit to do a few projects. Then once those are done, we will go back and do some more organizing and whatnot. I would really like to do the area under our stairs and go through the attic again. We did it once before, but at the time we didn't have much money to put into replacing things so I know we sorta held on to a lot of stuff. I'd like to clear it back out. I think when money is tight, you're more reluctant to get rid of things because you just never know when you will get to replace it. And even though I wouldn't consider us 'broke' or 'poor', I tend to be a worrier. I live on a budget and like to save and if there are changes, my darn brain panics and reads us as broke. LOL So, when I feel like we are 'short', I automatically tend to slightly hoard things for 'just in case'. I'm trying to get out of that mindset. And now that we have paid off some things and built our savings back up, I'm feeling more at ease. So, it's time to go through those boxes and things again with a fresh eye. And if I don't use it and haven't used it in a while, it's going to be time to let it go. I can donate, sell, or recycle it. Last resort is trash.
Another thing I've been thinking on lately is my oldest's bedroom. They make these loft beds with a futon under them and he loves them... but he won't sleep on the top bunk. So, we have a futon downstairs and we've been thinking of using that for his bed. It would take up about the same amount of room as his current bed, but if he wanted to sit it up and use it for a couch, he could. I just don't know if it's worth the trouble from day to day. Right now, we're not super happy with his room because it seems as if the furniture is just too large. But at the same time, we hate to buy new furniture that he might just up and destroy. Our original plan was to use old furniture from other things (that I refinished black) until he was old enough to get a more 'big boy' style bedroom. He got this stuff at about... 3? Maybe 4... Anyways, we thought he could use it until he was about 8 to 10, but now we are wondering if that was the best idea. It's holding up well, it's just BIG! We had thought of an IKEA bedroom since it wouldn't be crazy expensive. UGH. Not sure WHAT to do! But I feel like something needs to give because his room always looks... crowded. My Mom thinks we're crazy and should just leave it alone, but we need better organization for in there. It's one of the few rooms that I have REALLY had an issue with getting together. I think the solution is to get rid of the armoir, dresser, and bookshelf and get an all-in-one system. Maybe mixing some of the Trofast and Malm stuff from Ikea. We could keep the bed and maybe the nightstand. I'm just not sure what to do. I'm not sure why his room is proving to be so difficult!
On a good note, I have been keeping busy. I weighed this AM and saw 201.5. I know that is only another half a pound down, but considering I am about to start my cycle and this is only Weds., I'll take it! Every little bit will help. But today, I think I will take it easy. I do need to do a few things, but I have had 4 pretty busy days so today should be a calmer day. I need a down day once in a while! LOL I may read and take it easy. But I probably should do some stuff! LOL Like, fold another load or two of laundry. But I don't want to be on my feet for hours and hours today. Especially since I took a fall downstairs on the concrete floor. My knee is a bit sore. Yup, sounds like a good day to take it easy if I can actually do it! LOL But already, my brain is thinking it would be nice to go outside and do some weeding during naptime. But I really shouldn't. LOL
I don't know what to say about food. I haven't done much with it to be honest. I am still trying to have my shakes but I am attempting to have a different kind each day. I was reading that your body absorbs nutrients best when you mix them up. So, one day I have a blueberry and spinach, the next raspberry and banana, and then today I was thinking of having strawberry. I may have some mango or something left in the freezer to mix in with it. Or I could do a splash of orange juice. Now, I know what you're thinking... this isn't low carb! Well, yes and no. It's not traditional low carb, but I'm not using anything artificial and I am focusing on getting in a mixture of nutrients. I am having carbs. Just not cheap, highly processed, lack of nutrient carbs. I just feel like maybe the reason I keep stalling out is I am missing something, nutrient wise. I have been feeling better getting in the extra protein and the mixture of greens and fruits. The only other thing is I have been trying not to eat carbs later in the day and evening and when I eat a meal, I'm focusing more on the veggies. I am pretty much eating two bites of veg for every bite of protein. And of course lots of water. I DO need to get better about my vitamins, though. I do great for a couple of days and then backslide and forget. Hard to keep up with that when there are SO many things to keep up with!
But I'm feeling good. I just really want to focus on the type of foods and staying busy since I don't seem to ever be able to do 'formal' exercise anymore. I do miss it, and we're working towards it. I just think that right now I need to focus on my protein shakes and getting lots of extra fruit and veg in there and continuing to stay away from man-made carbs. I probably still won't go back to eating rice and potatoes, but I may have them when they sound good. I just hope that I figure out what I am lacking that is slowing me down and can get it straightened out. Especially if it is a nutrient thing! I never understood why people tracked their micro and macronutrient intake until now. Makes lots of sense! Now I just need to find a way to incorporate even more veg and some fruit into my diet. I'm loving the shakes, but I'm a bit.... hesitant, I guess is the word... to try other greens. I've read that parsley is great, and so is kale, but kale is bitter. Going to do some more research here in a bit to see what I can find.
I think that is enough rambling for today. You ladies have a great day!
I am thinking we will take a break from that for a bit to do a few projects. Then once those are done, we will go back and do some more organizing and whatnot. I would really like to do the area under our stairs and go through the attic again. We did it once before, but at the time we didn't have much money to put into replacing things so I know we sorta held on to a lot of stuff. I'd like to clear it back out. I think when money is tight, you're more reluctant to get rid of things because you just never know when you will get to replace it. And even though I wouldn't consider us 'broke' or 'poor', I tend to be a worrier. I live on a budget and like to save and if there are changes, my darn brain panics and reads us as broke. LOL So, when I feel like we are 'short', I automatically tend to slightly hoard things for 'just in case'. I'm trying to get out of that mindset. And now that we have paid off some things and built our savings back up, I'm feeling more at ease. So, it's time to go through those boxes and things again with a fresh eye. And if I don't use it and haven't used it in a while, it's going to be time to let it go. I can donate, sell, or recycle it. Last resort is trash.
Another thing I've been thinking on lately is my oldest's bedroom. They make these loft beds with a futon under them and he loves them... but he won't sleep on the top bunk. So, we have a futon downstairs and we've been thinking of using that for his bed. It would take up about the same amount of room as his current bed, but if he wanted to sit it up and use it for a couch, he could. I just don't know if it's worth the trouble from day to day. Right now, we're not super happy with his room because it seems as if the furniture is just too large. But at the same time, we hate to buy new furniture that he might just up and destroy. Our original plan was to use old furniture from other things (that I refinished black) until he was old enough to get a more 'big boy' style bedroom. He got this stuff at about... 3? Maybe 4... Anyways, we thought he could use it until he was about 8 to 10, but now we are wondering if that was the best idea. It's holding up well, it's just BIG! We had thought of an IKEA bedroom since it wouldn't be crazy expensive. UGH. Not sure WHAT to do! But I feel like something needs to give because his room always looks... crowded. My Mom thinks we're crazy and should just leave it alone, but we need better organization for in there. It's one of the few rooms that I have REALLY had an issue with getting together. I think the solution is to get rid of the armoir, dresser, and bookshelf and get an all-in-one system. Maybe mixing some of the Trofast and Malm stuff from Ikea. We could keep the bed and maybe the nightstand. I'm just not sure what to do. I'm not sure why his room is proving to be so difficult!
On a good note, I have been keeping busy. I weighed this AM and saw 201.5. I know that is only another half a pound down, but considering I am about to start my cycle and this is only Weds., I'll take it! Every little bit will help. But today, I think I will take it easy. I do need to do a few things, but I have had 4 pretty busy days so today should be a calmer day. I need a down day once in a while! LOL I may read and take it easy. But I probably should do some stuff! LOL Like, fold another load or two of laundry. But I don't want to be on my feet for hours and hours today. Especially since I took a fall downstairs on the concrete floor. My knee is a bit sore. Yup, sounds like a good day to take it easy if I can actually do it! LOL But already, my brain is thinking it would be nice to go outside and do some weeding during naptime. But I really shouldn't. LOL
I don't know what to say about food. I haven't done much with it to be honest. I am still trying to have my shakes but I am attempting to have a different kind each day. I was reading that your body absorbs nutrients best when you mix them up. So, one day I have a blueberry and spinach, the next raspberry and banana, and then today I was thinking of having strawberry. I may have some mango or something left in the freezer to mix in with it. Or I could do a splash of orange juice. Now, I know what you're thinking... this isn't low carb! Well, yes and no. It's not traditional low carb, but I'm not using anything artificial and I am focusing on getting in a mixture of nutrients. I am having carbs. Just not cheap, highly processed, lack of nutrient carbs. I just feel like maybe the reason I keep stalling out is I am missing something, nutrient wise. I have been feeling better getting in the extra protein and the mixture of greens and fruits. The only other thing is I have been trying not to eat carbs later in the day and evening and when I eat a meal, I'm focusing more on the veggies. I am pretty much eating two bites of veg for every bite of protein. And of course lots of water. I DO need to get better about my vitamins, though. I do great for a couple of days and then backslide and forget. Hard to keep up with that when there are SO many things to keep up with!
But I'm feeling good. I just really want to focus on the type of foods and staying busy since I don't seem to ever be able to do 'formal' exercise anymore. I do miss it, and we're working towards it. I just think that right now I need to focus on my protein shakes and getting lots of extra fruit and veg in there and continuing to stay away from man-made carbs. I probably still won't go back to eating rice and potatoes, but I may have them when they sound good. I just hope that I figure out what I am lacking that is slowing me down and can get it straightened out. Especially if it is a nutrient thing! I never understood why people tracked their micro and macronutrient intake until now. Makes lots of sense! Now I just need to find a way to incorporate even more veg and some fruit into my diet. I'm loving the shakes, but I'm a bit.... hesitant, I guess is the word... to try other greens. I've read that parsley is great, and so is kale, but kale is bitter. Going to do some more research here in a bit to see what I can find.
I think that is enough rambling for today. You ladies have a great day!
Monday, July 25, 2011
Yesterday
Yesterday was a fun but busy day. I DID get some housework done, but not as much as I should have simply because... we ended up going shopping and out to dinner. You see, our TV took a crap. Now my hubby is a smart guy. He's going to school for his degree in Electronics/Electrical Engineering. So, he took the time to look up the repair guides online, took the TV apart, and then diagnosed the problem. It's a $100 fix. But now, NOW I don't trust the TV. We brought our oldest's TV out here to use until it was repaired and then we decided screw it, we're buying a new one! Mostly because like I said, I don't trust the old Samsung anymore and oldest's TV (that he uses for games like old school Nintendo and VHS) is well, and old Tube TV we bought back in 2000. We ended up getting a new one and set it up last night. It's pretty great, but HUGE. It's a man TV. LOL The only thing so far that I've noticed I don't like is that the TV is 1080. Netflix is 720. So the pic on the TV isn't as good. But when you watch DVD's... OMG. FANTASTIC. DVD's are 1080. INSANE how good the pic is. And we got a crazy good deal. :D
Then we hung out and did a few other things. Like, let the kiddos play at the play area in the mall and took them to Great American Cookie since it was youngest's b-day. Clap for me -- I only had like, 2 small bites of cookie! :D I had a shake before we went, so I just had a taste. We did lunch out and the hubby and I shared a salad from TB. Wasn't great. But I figured since we were out walking for HOURS it was fine. That's two days I've gotten out and walked around. May not be walking on a treadmill, but I was up and moving! Dinner was the only place I didn't do great. Well, dessert. I had a mini caramel pie. So yum! But it will be the last for a while. But I'm ok with having it. I probably SHOULDN'T, but oh well. It was moderation.
Didn't weigh this AM. I figured I did yesterday on my 'official' day so no point in today on top of that. I probably will again soon, but not too soon. I DID, however, try on my bridesmaids dress last night. OY. It was TIGHT. When I tried dresses on, I tried on a 14 and it fit great. However, I guess I should've taken into account that it was a sample and would be slightly stretched. Cause it fit great unlike the one I tried on last night! I hope I can lose a few pounds in the next few weeks; otherwise that dress is going to be like wearing a corset for an entire day! But I think if I could lose at least 5 or 6lbs., I would be ok. The hubby said the only place that 'looked' tight was the bodice... which means I need to lose some back fat. UGH. Hard area to lose for the most part. But when I was losing, it did seem that area had gone down because this weird rolly area I'd had went down. I hope that happens with losing this time! I would really like to be under 195 for the wedding. That's 7.5lbs. to lose to get to 194.5. I think that is do-able if I don't stall out AGAIN. I am going to aim for 7.5!
Well, I am going to get off of here. I need to get to work and finish some of the things I wasn't able to get done yesterday and a few other things. Hopefully the hubby can do the phone calling and let me get the other stuff caught up. Not sure what we will do tomorrow, but if I get a lot done today, maybe a project or two can be finished. Like, cleaning up the garage some! We are having our beef delivered on Weds., so we need a clear path to the freezer! I sure hope it will all fit. I plan on organizing the deep freezer and moving a few things up here just to help insure there is plenty of room. At least until my parents take part of their meat. Not sure WHAT we're going to do if all of this doesn't fit. I sure hope it does! Might have to ask a neighbor to hold part of it. But I hope not. Anyways, off I go to start and hopefully finish a few things!
Then we hung out and did a few other things. Like, let the kiddos play at the play area in the mall and took them to Great American Cookie since it was youngest's b-day. Clap for me -- I only had like, 2 small bites of cookie! :D I had a shake before we went, so I just had a taste. We did lunch out and the hubby and I shared a salad from TB. Wasn't great. But I figured since we were out walking for HOURS it was fine. That's two days I've gotten out and walked around. May not be walking on a treadmill, but I was up and moving! Dinner was the only place I didn't do great. Well, dessert. I had a mini caramel pie. So yum! But it will be the last for a while. But I'm ok with having it. I probably SHOULDN'T, but oh well. It was moderation.
Didn't weigh this AM. I figured I did yesterday on my 'official' day so no point in today on top of that. I probably will again soon, but not too soon. I DID, however, try on my bridesmaids dress last night. OY. It was TIGHT. When I tried dresses on, I tried on a 14 and it fit great. However, I guess I should've taken into account that it was a sample and would be slightly stretched. Cause it fit great unlike the one I tried on last night! I hope I can lose a few pounds in the next few weeks; otherwise that dress is going to be like wearing a corset for an entire day! But I think if I could lose at least 5 or 6lbs., I would be ok. The hubby said the only place that 'looked' tight was the bodice... which means I need to lose some back fat. UGH. Hard area to lose for the most part. But when I was losing, it did seem that area had gone down because this weird rolly area I'd had went down. I hope that happens with losing this time! I would really like to be under 195 for the wedding. That's 7.5lbs. to lose to get to 194.5. I think that is do-able if I don't stall out AGAIN. I am going to aim for 7.5!
Well, I am going to get off of here. I need to get to work and finish some of the things I wasn't able to get done yesterday and a few other things. Hopefully the hubby can do the phone calling and let me get the other stuff caught up. Not sure what we will do tomorrow, but if I get a lot done today, maybe a project or two can be finished. Like, cleaning up the garage some! We are having our beef delivered on Weds., so we need a clear path to the freezer! I sure hope it will all fit. I plan on organizing the deep freezer and moving a few things up here just to help insure there is plenty of room. At least until my parents take part of their meat. Not sure WHAT we're going to do if all of this doesn't fit. I sure hope it does! Might have to ask a neighbor to hold part of it. But I hope not. Anyways, off I go to start and hopefully finish a few things!
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Going with the flow
So, MsCatty, after taking some time to think it over, I believe I've come to the conclusion that I am utterly boring! I was trying to think of something different to get involved with that I really love so that I could meet other people. Because heck, I always encourage people to get out and meet people. I mean, I don't want to be one of those people who is like, 'Do what I say, not what I do.' But here's the issue... I moved from a bigger city to a smaller area. And so far, no matter what I've tried, I've just not met many people. And I've tried. I've joined all kinds of groups and gone to all kinds of things and I've just not clicked. I'm starting to feel like maybe I'm trying too hard? I mean, the friends that I believe will be lifers that I have now, I met without trying. They've been random. And the things we have in common are well... random. I have met some nice people and acquaintances, but not many people that I feel like I can confide secrets in or depend on. In retrospect, it isn't that they aren't nice people... it's just that for whatever reason we just don't have that 'click'. And to be honest, I'm boring. I don't really have any 'extreme' interests. I love board games, reading, doing crazy stuff to my hair and nails, gardening, home improvement.... and we do things that go with those, but so far not much luck meeting people. So, I've come to the conclusion that part of the reason I am having trouble this go around is because I am rather boring! And being in an area that isn't saturated with people and things to do... Well, it's made the opportunity to meet people like me more difficult. But I'm not going to give up. I'm just going to try not trying so hard. I'm going to be friendly and do my thing but leave myself open to meeting new people. I think once oldest goes to school, that will help. But still not going to force it. Just going to go with the flow and put it out of my head. I don't need nor want to stress over something like that. I've been silly in doing so.
On a good front, I got up and weighed in this AM. I saw 202. :D That's 2lbs. down from last Sunday's official weigh-in! Which is only 4lbs. from my lowest. So, I am feeling better about what I am doing. I think maybe taking the time off did some good. And this week, I was eating carbs, but focusing on limited ones. I may cut back some more and I know for sure I will be using my green protein shakes more, but so far, I'm feeling good. I don't want to be too drastic even though I am ready for results. I am feeling like something this week (even with being sick) worked better. I just don't know what it was! I ate pretty well and drank lots of water. So, I really wonder if maybe I was just stuck... I guess we will see in the following weeks. If not, I think I will take your suggestion MsCatty and have my thyroid checked again. I know I have PCOS and that slows me down, but maybe my thyroid has gotten out of whack. Who knows? LOL
The hubby is off for the next couple of days so I plan on getting in some exercise. If the rain is cleared, going to walk the dog. I am thinking I will walk him in our neighborhood for the next few days. Then, when the hubby is back at work, I will attempt to get another day or two in of walking on the treadmill. Just 20 to 30mins. as SOON as nap time rolls around. I know I have other things I need to do during that time, but I need to make some cardio a priority. At least a few days a week. Although, I really don't think planned cardio is as beneficial as just staying moving. My Granny never 'exercised' but she was always moving. Gardening, moving things, cleaning. She would've been a hundred on her next birthday, but she passed away. Until she was like 97, she was up and still doing her own yardwork! So, that's my exercise goal... I want to be busy for the majority of the day. I don't mind sitting here in the AM checking my mail, doing my blog, etc. But come noon, I want to be up and moving the majority of the time. I think that's realistic unless I am sick or really tired. And if I can get some pure walking time to zone out, that will be good, too. More for my emotional state than my body, though. LOL And the Pilates. GOT to find time for the Pilates. I KNOW what kind of results I get, and I know that I would feel better doing them. So, got to get to it. I have 3 weeks until my friends wedding... I am thinking of taking measurements again tonight, starting the Pilates, and then seeing where I am in 3 weeks. Small challenge for myself! :D I especially want to see some changes in my arms. I know everyone has those areas they hate, and mine are my triceps. It's hereditary in my family to have 'batwings'. Even the super skinny family members have them. So, I'd like to somewhat tame the bats and get them under control. I am hoping that with weight loss they will shrink a bit and the toning will make them appear smaller. I don't want 'guns' but I would like a nice shape. I remember when I was about 10lbs. smaller they already looked better. Hoping that is the case once again!
Let's see... I believe that covers it all. I think that's enough! This is looking LONG. Sorry ladies... lots on my mind lately! LOL I guess I should get off of here and get started on my house. Lots to do to catch up on housework from being sick. And then yesterday, I didn't get much done due to still being tired and I went out to run a few errands in the evening. Which was futile, because they ended up not having what I needed at either store! Pain in the BUTT! Oh well. I just need to catch up today and not let it keep piling up. And I can do it all today (for the entire week!) if the kiddos will cooperate. So far, youngest is a grouch. But if I don't get it all done, it's still ok and I am not going to fret. Enjoy your Sunday, ladies!
On a good front, I got up and weighed in this AM. I saw 202. :D That's 2lbs. down from last Sunday's official weigh-in! Which is only 4lbs. from my lowest. So, I am feeling better about what I am doing. I think maybe taking the time off did some good. And this week, I was eating carbs, but focusing on limited ones. I may cut back some more and I know for sure I will be using my green protein shakes more, but so far, I'm feeling good. I don't want to be too drastic even though I am ready for results. I am feeling like something this week (even with being sick) worked better. I just don't know what it was! I ate pretty well and drank lots of water. So, I really wonder if maybe I was just stuck... I guess we will see in the following weeks. If not, I think I will take your suggestion MsCatty and have my thyroid checked again. I know I have PCOS and that slows me down, but maybe my thyroid has gotten out of whack. Who knows? LOL
The hubby is off for the next couple of days so I plan on getting in some exercise. If the rain is cleared, going to walk the dog. I am thinking I will walk him in our neighborhood for the next few days. Then, when the hubby is back at work, I will attempt to get another day or two in of walking on the treadmill. Just 20 to 30mins. as SOON as nap time rolls around. I know I have other things I need to do during that time, but I need to make some cardio a priority. At least a few days a week. Although, I really don't think planned cardio is as beneficial as just staying moving. My Granny never 'exercised' but she was always moving. Gardening, moving things, cleaning. She would've been a hundred on her next birthday, but she passed away. Until she was like 97, she was up and still doing her own yardwork! So, that's my exercise goal... I want to be busy for the majority of the day. I don't mind sitting here in the AM checking my mail, doing my blog, etc. But come noon, I want to be up and moving the majority of the time. I think that's realistic unless I am sick or really tired. And if I can get some pure walking time to zone out, that will be good, too. More for my emotional state than my body, though. LOL And the Pilates. GOT to find time for the Pilates. I KNOW what kind of results I get, and I know that I would feel better doing them. So, got to get to it. I have 3 weeks until my friends wedding... I am thinking of taking measurements again tonight, starting the Pilates, and then seeing where I am in 3 weeks. Small challenge for myself! :D I especially want to see some changes in my arms. I know everyone has those areas they hate, and mine are my triceps. It's hereditary in my family to have 'batwings'. Even the super skinny family members have them. So, I'd like to somewhat tame the bats and get them under control. I am hoping that with weight loss they will shrink a bit and the toning will make them appear smaller. I don't want 'guns' but I would like a nice shape. I remember when I was about 10lbs. smaller they already looked better. Hoping that is the case once again!
Let's see... I believe that covers it all. I think that's enough! This is looking LONG. Sorry ladies... lots on my mind lately! LOL I guess I should get off of here and get started on my house. Lots to do to catch up on housework from being sick. And then yesterday, I didn't get much done due to still being tired and I went out to run a few errands in the evening. Which was futile, because they ended up not having what I needed at either store! Pain in the BUTT! Oh well. I just need to catch up today and not let it keep piling up. And I can do it all today (for the entire week!) if the kiddos will cooperate. So far, youngest is a grouch. But if I don't get it all done, it's still ok and I am not going to fret. Enjoy your Sunday, ladies!
Saturday, July 23, 2011
On the road...
So, a few days ago, I posted about getting back on the road to dieting and knowing that my weight was going up and I needed to do it or else. I felt REALLY good about that... and then I got sick. UGH. Stupid stomach virus! Needless to say, I haven't been on any kind of plan. I've been on the, please let me keep it in without it killing me plan! Egg drop soup was my friend. Why, of all things, THAT helped my stomach I don't know. But it sure hit the spot. It's 10AM and that sounds SO good right now.... I love egg drop soup. I guess since it's low carb, that's good, huh? LOL Can't be too bad on cals either since it's basically just broth and eggs! Maybe some ginger and green onions, too. Either way, it was my safe food. Made me feel SO much better and stopped the cramping. Yay!
So, now I'm going on day 3 and yesterday and the day before were the worst. Yesterday I was just crazy tired and my tummy was tender so eating was sporadic. I mostly picked at my food and sipped water all day. I didn't feel horrid, just exhausted. Today I feel ok! I had an LC pita with PB and some honey and of course my coffee. Later I plan to have an omelet, fruit for snack, and then steak and salad for dinner. YUM. Tomorrow, I won't be having the pita. I will either have the omelet then or a protein shake. I'm flushin' the carbs out! Although, the pita itself probably isn't all that bad coming in at 7g of carbs and full of fiber. The bad would be the honey that I mix with the PB. LOL So, I will for sure be nixing the honey. I love the stuff, but it's like crack for me. I LOVE it. On everything. Many times that will be my snack when I'm having a moderate day. Low sugar vanilla ice cream, a sprinkle of cinnamon and a drizzle of honey. OY. I just love honey! So, I try to stay away from it when doing really low since it's really just sugar... but better for you than the other if you buy locally.
Anyways, that's really my big news. LOL That I've been sick and not on track but not due to falling off. I am hoping that I feel even better tomorrow and can keep moving forward instead of feeling like poo. I do feel ok today, so surely by tomorrow I will feel really good and really get to moving on my diet/exercise. I will attempt to catch up with everyone soon!
***UPDATE***
Today has not gone as planned. Instead of an omelet, I had a green protein smoothie. Then I had some ham and cheese, and vanilla wafers. The wafers weren't the best choice.... I should've just said NO. But I ate those since I was having a horrible craving for a cheeseburger. I don't even know why. LOL Anyways, with the ham and cheese and wafers, the craving has passed. Hopefully that is the last for today. I still plan on having steak for dinner and some sort of salad or spinach and maybe some mixed veggies. Depends on how hungry I am.
I signed up for fitday.com. I am going to give it a go and see how I like it and then sparkpeople and a couple of others. Hopefully I will find one that fits. I just wish I wasn't so tired so I FELT like doing things. Youngest went to bed late, got up during the night and then up at 6AM. I've had around 4hrs. of sleep so I'm feeling groggy and can't seem to get over it. Drinking some more coffee and water now in hopes to get perked back up to get a couple of chores done around the house. AKA, dusting and some laundry. If I am not dead out tired later, I may go ahead and give myself a pedi and a mani. My hands and feet are looking ROUGH. I'm not sure why I'm worried... This weekend (starting tomorrow) we are going to be cleaning out the garage and getting rid of some things. So, I need to do some laundry and get that stuff out of the way tonight and tomorrow since it's in the garage! I've kept up on it pretty well, but I need to do a few loads to keep it that way. Maybe I will go down here in a min and throw in a load since the kiddos seem happy. :D
I PLAN on checking in over the next couple of days, but it may get busy here and I am thinking I will be tired flushing these carbs out. My carbs are fairly high today with the wafers... but I believe I am still going to come out lower than yesterday! So, either way, it's going down. And I am going to also going to do more of my protein/green shakes. I watched a Documentary on a guy who did a 60 day juice fast and how in the end, he felt SO good. He used it to detox due to an autoimmune disorder. Now, for me personally, I don't want to do a full fast like that, but I did protein shakes heavily last time and had great results. Not only physically, but medically and emotionally. I am really leaning more towards that again. I KNOW I can do it. I KNOW I get great results. But I also KNOW it can be hard at times. But something has got to give... I'm sick of fighting so hard to get nowhere when it comes to diet.
I've been doing some more looking around for exercise. And the hubby and I are working on a schedule. I think that I will be able to do it again soon! I just have to get up and do it.
So, now I'm going on day 3 and yesterday and the day before were the worst. Yesterday I was just crazy tired and my tummy was tender so eating was sporadic. I mostly picked at my food and sipped water all day. I didn't feel horrid, just exhausted. Today I feel ok! I had an LC pita with PB and some honey and of course my coffee. Later I plan to have an omelet, fruit for snack, and then steak and salad for dinner. YUM. Tomorrow, I won't be having the pita. I will either have the omelet then or a protein shake. I'm flushin' the carbs out! Although, the pita itself probably isn't all that bad coming in at 7g of carbs and full of fiber. The bad would be the honey that I mix with the PB. LOL So, I will for sure be nixing the honey. I love the stuff, but it's like crack for me. I LOVE it. On everything. Many times that will be my snack when I'm having a moderate day. Low sugar vanilla ice cream, a sprinkle of cinnamon and a drizzle of honey. OY. I just love honey! So, I try to stay away from it when doing really low since it's really just sugar... but better for you than the other if you buy locally.
Anyways, that's really my big news. LOL That I've been sick and not on track but not due to falling off. I am hoping that I feel even better tomorrow and can keep moving forward instead of feeling like poo. I do feel ok today, so surely by tomorrow I will feel really good and really get to moving on my diet/exercise. I will attempt to catch up with everyone soon!
***UPDATE***
Today has not gone as planned. Instead of an omelet, I had a green protein smoothie. Then I had some ham and cheese, and vanilla wafers. The wafers weren't the best choice.... I should've just said NO. But I ate those since I was having a horrible craving for a cheeseburger. I don't even know why. LOL Anyways, with the ham and cheese and wafers, the craving has passed. Hopefully that is the last for today. I still plan on having steak for dinner and some sort of salad or spinach and maybe some mixed veggies. Depends on how hungry I am.
I signed up for fitday.com. I am going to give it a go and see how I like it and then sparkpeople and a couple of others. Hopefully I will find one that fits. I just wish I wasn't so tired so I FELT like doing things. Youngest went to bed late, got up during the night and then up at 6AM. I've had around 4hrs. of sleep so I'm feeling groggy and can't seem to get over it. Drinking some more coffee and water now in hopes to get perked back up to get a couple of chores done around the house. AKA, dusting and some laundry. If I am not dead out tired later, I may go ahead and give myself a pedi and a mani. My hands and feet are looking ROUGH. I'm not sure why I'm worried... This weekend (starting tomorrow) we are going to be cleaning out the garage and getting rid of some things. So, I need to do some laundry and get that stuff out of the way tonight and tomorrow since it's in the garage! I've kept up on it pretty well, but I need to do a few loads to keep it that way. Maybe I will go down here in a min and throw in a load since the kiddos seem happy. :D
I PLAN on checking in over the next couple of days, but it may get busy here and I am thinking I will be tired flushing these carbs out. My carbs are fairly high today with the wafers... but I believe I am still going to come out lower than yesterday! So, either way, it's going down. And I am going to also going to do more of my protein/green shakes. I watched a Documentary on a guy who did a 60 day juice fast and how in the end, he felt SO good. He used it to detox due to an autoimmune disorder. Now, for me personally, I don't want to do a full fast like that, but I did protein shakes heavily last time and had great results. Not only physically, but medically and emotionally. I am really leaning more towards that again. I KNOW I can do it. I KNOW I get great results. But I also KNOW it can be hard at times. But something has got to give... I'm sick of fighting so hard to get nowhere when it comes to diet.
I've been doing some more looking around for exercise. And the hubby and I are working on a schedule. I think that I will be able to do it again soon! I just have to get up and do it.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Oh crap.
I am not feeling so good today. I know why... I've been stress eating and drinking and it has caught up with me today. Then I got on the scale... 210! NO JOKE! I knew it would be high, but not THAT high. I thought maybe 205. But I should've known because I am VERY swollen from late night salty snacks, margaritas, and flat out stress. So, irregardless of what my final diet decision is, I need to get on some sort of track. So, today is going to be LOTS of water, vitamins, and lower carb and reasonable cals. No junk food, salty or sugary snacks, and no alcohol. I am thinking about going back to food journaling for a while. Thinking of using a website if I can find one. I've heard of several. Any recommendations? I would like a program where I can put in the foods I eat most often and it will remember it for me. I did it all myself with pencil and paper, but it would be nice to have a program if possible.
I will once again go back to 'official' weigh-ins on Sundays. After seeing that 210 this AM, I know I've got to get it in gear. Yes, I know that almost all of it is water, but I have to do something. I've given myself about a week off, so now it's time to get back to work. I may not have a concrete plan, but I want to eat better and find some sort of exercise to fit in. I can only do the best I can, ya know? And after a break, I feel more ready to give it a go. So, as I said, starting today, I'm going to get back on the wagon. I will weigh-in Sunday. And if I have time, I will post my 'before' pics. I hope to do a progress pic when I hit 20lbs. Hopefully it won't take me long to get back to that!
Not going to make this long since my last couple of posts have been long. Thank you to all you ladies for being supportive, offering suggestions, and well... just reading. I think I will pull out of this slump just fine!
I will once again go back to 'official' weigh-ins on Sundays. After seeing that 210 this AM, I know I've got to get it in gear. Yes, I know that almost all of it is water, but I have to do something. I've given myself about a week off, so now it's time to get back to work. I may not have a concrete plan, but I want to eat better and find some sort of exercise to fit in. I can only do the best I can, ya know? And after a break, I feel more ready to give it a go. So, as I said, starting today, I'm going to get back on the wagon. I will weigh-in Sunday. And if I have time, I will post my 'before' pics. I hope to do a progress pic when I hit 20lbs. Hopefully it won't take me long to get back to that!
Not going to make this long since my last couple of posts have been long. Thank you to all you ladies for being supportive, offering suggestions, and well... just reading. I think I will pull out of this slump just fine!
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
On Sale
Aargh! SO frustrated! I found some good coupons for Gerber products today and the darn things won't print! I'm hoping they are on sale, too! Since youngest is almost a year old now, we don't do a lot of baby products anymore. He mostly eats whatever we are having. But it is nice to have SOME of those 'convenience' foods for him like the puffs and the dehydrated fruits. He has seemed a bit bored with some of the food options lately, so I am thinking we may add more 'baby' foods back in for a bit to give him more variety. We really do tend to eat the same things over and over. LOL And I am REALLY hoping this one won't be as picky of an eater as oldest. I'm not a picky eater and neither is the hubbs! Which is part of the reason dieting isn't as bad as it could be. I eat almost everything. But it also makes it hard at the same time because there are very few foods I don't love!
Speaking of, the hubby and I have been really talking over the diet thing. He can feel my frustration and I was pretty clear about how I am at a crossroads. So, last night, we sat down and talked over every diet I've ever tried since we've been together. I remember trying low fat and it didn't work for me. I'm almost positive I gained. I also gained like crazy on Slim-Fast. And that brought me to low cal. I don't remember losing or what I did, but the hubby remembers I lost a good chunk in two weeks, and then it just stopped. He said he remembers coming home from work and I was upset and crying because I had weighed at the gym and I just wasn't losing. Even though I was eating less than 1600 cals and working out for 1 to 2 hrs. at least 4 times a week. I gave up for a while. I remember that because I just felt like, what was the point? I know I sat at a pretty high weight for a while and then when we started trying to get preggo, I kept having issue after issue and kept going to the Dr. At first, it was 'it's all in your head'. Then after years, my new Doc after moving said, 'You have PCOS.' That's when I went to low carb. That's when I dropped down under 20g per day and FINALLY lost weight. I lost 25lbs. and got pregnant. For a few years, all was well, but I didn't try to lose again until we moved to TN. And that was only because on oldest's b-day, I saw a pic of myself that was so awful I knew then that I HAd to do SOMETHING. That was when my weight was 226.5. I went to a low carb diet and did mostly protein shakes. I know that for the most part, it would be considered a liquid protein diet. I found it pretty easy mostly because I could work it pretty well. I would be able to have my shakes and my dinners and if I WANTED to go out I allowed myself a treat meal now and then. I lost 40lbs. Then I got preggo with youngest. Since youngest has been weaned, I've been trying to lose weight but got serious in Jan. Well, Dec. 26th. I cut back on some and lost some but again, I didn't see much success until I cut my carbs way back. So, I am considering going back to an almost 'liquid protein diet'. I don't really consider it that, but I guess that's the closest name. To me, it's more like Phase 1 Atkins. Because I still eat meals. I just mostly use the protein shakes.
That's where I'm at now. After talking it over and over, as much as I would like to, I don't know if 'just' cutting my cals would be enough. Although, I have to admit I KNOW that my cals probably weren't very high when I did mostly the shakes before. But in the end, it would be a diet that was not only low in cals, but low and cals and focused on reduced carbs. Because apparently I don't lose well otherwise. But another part of me wants to just try low cal because I haven't shown any symptoms of PCOS since before I had youngest... Although I've never heard of anyone being 'cured'... just being under 'control'. But if I were going to do it, I'd want to give it a REAL go. Like, 30 days. Because you just can't tell unless you give yourself a good amount of time. 2 weeks just isn't enough time to REALLY test a diet out because with almost any plan, you have that initial loss. It's after that you have to really see what is going on. What do you ladies think? Yes? No? UGH. I guess I am just partially worried because I am in a wedding in the middle of August and I don't want to gain. It's in 3 weeks. Speaking of, I need to try my dress on! I hope it fits. I know I may need it shortened a bit, but I hope that is all. UGH. Hope it's not too tight. But should I give it a go and see if I can do just low cal? Decisions decisions decisions...
Well, I think this is long enough now and I want to read for a bit. I am taking the rest of the afternoon to rest, and then I am going to do some housework tonight after the kiddos are in bed. Then tomorrow, finish up some stuff and attempt to find a playdate for the kiddos. Not to mention I am thinking of signing older up for something for the next few weeks before he drives me NUTS. We need to be reviewing for school, too. fun fun.
Speaking of, the hubby and I have been really talking over the diet thing. He can feel my frustration and I was pretty clear about how I am at a crossroads. So, last night, we sat down and talked over every diet I've ever tried since we've been together. I remember trying low fat and it didn't work for me. I'm almost positive I gained. I also gained like crazy on Slim-Fast. And that brought me to low cal. I don't remember losing or what I did, but the hubby remembers I lost a good chunk in two weeks, and then it just stopped. He said he remembers coming home from work and I was upset and crying because I had weighed at the gym and I just wasn't losing. Even though I was eating less than 1600 cals and working out for 1 to 2 hrs. at least 4 times a week. I gave up for a while. I remember that because I just felt like, what was the point? I know I sat at a pretty high weight for a while and then when we started trying to get preggo, I kept having issue after issue and kept going to the Dr. At first, it was 'it's all in your head'. Then after years, my new Doc after moving said, 'You have PCOS.' That's when I went to low carb. That's when I dropped down under 20g per day and FINALLY lost weight. I lost 25lbs. and got pregnant. For a few years, all was well, but I didn't try to lose again until we moved to TN. And that was only because on oldest's b-day, I saw a pic of myself that was so awful I knew then that I HAd to do SOMETHING. That was when my weight was 226.5. I went to a low carb diet and did mostly protein shakes. I know that for the most part, it would be considered a liquid protein diet. I found it pretty easy mostly because I could work it pretty well. I would be able to have my shakes and my dinners and if I WANTED to go out I allowed myself a treat meal now and then. I lost 40lbs. Then I got preggo with youngest. Since youngest has been weaned, I've been trying to lose weight but got serious in Jan. Well, Dec. 26th. I cut back on some and lost some but again, I didn't see much success until I cut my carbs way back. So, I am considering going back to an almost 'liquid protein diet'. I don't really consider it that, but I guess that's the closest name. To me, it's more like Phase 1 Atkins. Because I still eat meals. I just mostly use the protein shakes.
That's where I'm at now. After talking it over and over, as much as I would like to, I don't know if 'just' cutting my cals would be enough. Although, I have to admit I KNOW that my cals probably weren't very high when I did mostly the shakes before. But in the end, it would be a diet that was not only low in cals, but low and cals and focused on reduced carbs. Because apparently I don't lose well otherwise. But another part of me wants to just try low cal because I haven't shown any symptoms of PCOS since before I had youngest... Although I've never heard of anyone being 'cured'... just being under 'control'. But if I were going to do it, I'd want to give it a REAL go. Like, 30 days. Because you just can't tell unless you give yourself a good amount of time. 2 weeks just isn't enough time to REALLY test a diet out because with almost any plan, you have that initial loss. It's after that you have to really see what is going on. What do you ladies think? Yes? No? UGH. I guess I am just partially worried because I am in a wedding in the middle of August and I don't want to gain. It's in 3 weeks. Speaking of, I need to try my dress on! I hope it fits. I know I may need it shortened a bit, but I hope that is all. UGH. Hope it's not too tight. But should I give it a go and see if I can do just low cal? Decisions decisions decisions...
Well, I think this is long enough now and I want to read for a bit. I am taking the rest of the afternoon to rest, and then I am going to do some housework tonight after the kiddos are in bed. Then tomorrow, finish up some stuff and attempt to find a playdate for the kiddos. Not to mention I am thinking of signing older up for something for the next few weeks before he drives me NUTS. We need to be reviewing for school, too. fun fun.
Monday, July 18, 2011
Food Fest
I had an all out food fest yesterday. I was getting REALLY frustrated with my oldest and before the day could really get going, we'd had several screaming matches. He is being difficult to say the least and is absolutely frying my brain. In a fit of anger, I cursed. *sigh* I don't like to curse at him. But like my friend said, it's not that I am cursing at him, it's that my brain cannot take anymore and I need a tiny release in some manner so the dirty words come out to keep me from exploding. I'd say that is totally accurate. I try not to curse, but man oh MAN was it hard yesterday. I don't know what we're going to do about or with him. It's just barely past 11 and we've already had an issue this AM. He is the biggest drama llama in my life right now. I love him, but he sure knows how to push all the WRONG buttons. Anyways, the hubby thought I deserved a break... especially since he was going golfing with the boys today and then maybe out to lunch. So, after thinking on it I agreed. After the stressful morning and rushing to get out the door, I realized I hadn't had much to eat. I stopped to eat... at DD. *sigh* Totally awful for me but tasted SO good and was EXACTLY what I had wanted! I spent the whole afternoon out browsing the used book store, shopping, and then going to the movies... where I had nachos and a candy bar! BAD BAD BAD. But it was so FUN FUN FUN. I refuse to beat myself up. I enjoyed it too much! Not just the food, but the time out. It would've been nice to have a friend to hang out with, but I guess that was not to be.
Here's the thing -- I had a great circle of friends until we moved here. I'm not sure what it is about this area that we just don't fit. Even the hubby says he feels out of place here and he's had a hard time connecting with people. Although he confesses it doesn't bother him as much since he doesn't need as many friends. But he feels like we have NONE here. No support and no family. My family does come up once in a while (like they did over the weekend) but it's not the same as them living right down the road. This lack of a support system has made things hard on us just because we are use to having one. We're making it and figuring it out, but it would be nice to have the support at certain times. Like when my husband got a flat and none of our 'friends' here could even give me a ride back from dropping the car off. Or when my Dad was in the hospital and we needed someone to watch the kids so I could be at the hospital with my family. Thankfully, the hubb's job is pretty flexible so he's been able to use his vacation and flex time. It would just be nice to keep those for future use. But without any kind of circle of support here, that's just not possible. I miss real Girl's nights, BBQ's, and group trips. :( I know I should just get over it and learn to be content. I AM trying, I just feel lonely at times.
Didi, we are doing a full remodel. Not for the purpose or reselling or anything. We just bought a fixer upper! Our first house in VA was a small, boring place so we did quite a bit there. All cosmetic really. But we touched every inch putting in new flooring, painting, changing all of the landscaping, and basically taking a bland apartment style house and turning it into a warm and functional home. Because we were military, we lived there only about 5yrs. before we had to sell and move. We sold in 5 days. SERIOUSLY. It was FAST. And we did a 'For Sale by Owner'. We had a few offers, too. Everyone said they LOVED the house -- just as it was. As far as we know, the woman who ended up buying it didn't change anything but the 'guest room'. It was our oldest's baby room. It was sherbert orange! So, not shocked someone would paint it! LOL We thought that since we had done so much there, that we would buy a fixer upper this go around and BOY has it been! We've had lots of issues come up... some being structural. But considering how the economy has gone, it was the right choice. So far, we haven't really lost money. Yeah, we could've bought newer and something that needed less work, but the thing is we knew that a large part of what we bought we would want to change such as paint and flooring. It just made more sense for us to buy an older home and do those things than to spend all that money only to spend more to make those changes? We're personalizing with the thought that we may sell someday, but for the most part, this house is for us. And as of right now, we haven't really lost any money like a lot of people have. If we do move in the future, it will be a while from now so hopefully the market will pick back up some. But even if we were to sell right now, we'd be ok. But we're just having fun and doing it right now to make us happy. It sure has been a job, though! Like I said, we'd have probably spent about the same on a 'newer' house, too. Believe it or not, the most expensive stuff has been the cosmetic. The structural hasn't been bad so far. That's not to say that something won't come up, but the cosmetic stuff has been what will drive you bonkers. Light fixtures and tub faucets are expensive! LOL Other than that, the most expensive has been our windows. But I love them and we needed them. That's one expense we wouldn't have had with a new place, but then again construction grade materials suck so who knows. The first place was 'newer' and 3 of the windows had to be replaced. Oh, and the sliding door. So... yeah. You just never know!
Well, I'm not sure what this week will bring. I keep going back and forth on what to do with my diet and I'm sorta in a place where I don't even want to try. I weighed yesterday at 204, but that didn't surprise me at all. I had salty Mexican food the night before and a margarita. I had been good all day until dinner. So, I got up to 204 and then I had a big day out yesterday. I dared not weigh this AM! But I think I'm probably around 200 to 202 without the sodium bloat. I've enjoyed being off of a diet for the last few days, but I am thinking I need to make some plans and stick to it. I mean, it's mid-July and I've not made much progress. I've considered going back to LC and doing higher protein, I've considered doing just calorie counting and then calorie counting with a focus on LC. And I've also considered not doing anything. lol And just eat healthy. But I don't think that just eating however I want will get me far. I guess what I need to do is really sit down and think about where I want to be this time next year. Honestly, I'd like to be in the low 150's and wearing a two piece to the pool! But I'm no where near that. I even found my first 'progress pic' last night and WOW. I look horrid. That should've gotten me motivated, but I just don't know what to do.
Like I said, I DID consider trying calorie counting again. According to one of those online calculators, I need to eat around 2200 cals a day to maintain my current weight of 204. I know one pound is suppose to equal 3500 cals. So, to lose 1lb. a week, I need to eat 1700 cals a day. If I did 1600 cals per day, that would put me negative over 600 cals a day plus any exercise. So, I should, in theory, lose weight. The only problem is, I've done calorie counting before and not made any progress. But that was years ago. So, should I try it again or just go back to low carb? I don't know what to do, but I am at a crossroads and need to do something. I'm not ready to throw in the towel. But I just don't know where to go. I keep getting stalled out and it's frustrating. *sigh* Any advice or help here would be great!
Ok, well, I am going to get off of here for now. I think I am going to chill, read, and then chill and read some more. I don't feel like doing much else. LOL I should probably work on laundry, but BLEH. I don't wanna! Have a great week chicks and talk to you soon!
Here's the thing -- I had a great circle of friends until we moved here. I'm not sure what it is about this area that we just don't fit. Even the hubby says he feels out of place here and he's had a hard time connecting with people. Although he confesses it doesn't bother him as much since he doesn't need as many friends. But he feels like we have NONE here. No support and no family. My family does come up once in a while (like they did over the weekend) but it's not the same as them living right down the road. This lack of a support system has made things hard on us just because we are use to having one. We're making it and figuring it out, but it would be nice to have the support at certain times. Like when my husband got a flat and none of our 'friends' here could even give me a ride back from dropping the car off. Or when my Dad was in the hospital and we needed someone to watch the kids so I could be at the hospital with my family. Thankfully, the hubb's job is pretty flexible so he's been able to use his vacation and flex time. It would just be nice to keep those for future use. But without any kind of circle of support here, that's just not possible. I miss real Girl's nights, BBQ's, and group trips. :( I know I should just get over it and learn to be content. I AM trying, I just feel lonely at times.
Didi, we are doing a full remodel. Not for the purpose or reselling or anything. We just bought a fixer upper! Our first house in VA was a small, boring place so we did quite a bit there. All cosmetic really. But we touched every inch putting in new flooring, painting, changing all of the landscaping, and basically taking a bland apartment style house and turning it into a warm and functional home. Because we were military, we lived there only about 5yrs. before we had to sell and move. We sold in 5 days. SERIOUSLY. It was FAST. And we did a 'For Sale by Owner'. We had a few offers, too. Everyone said they LOVED the house -- just as it was. As far as we know, the woman who ended up buying it didn't change anything but the 'guest room'. It was our oldest's baby room. It was sherbert orange! So, not shocked someone would paint it! LOL We thought that since we had done so much there, that we would buy a fixer upper this go around and BOY has it been! We've had lots of issues come up... some being structural. But considering how the economy has gone, it was the right choice. So far, we haven't really lost money. Yeah, we could've bought newer and something that needed less work, but the thing is we knew that a large part of what we bought we would want to change such as paint and flooring. It just made more sense for us to buy an older home and do those things than to spend all that money only to spend more to make those changes? We're personalizing with the thought that we may sell someday, but for the most part, this house is for us. And as of right now, we haven't really lost any money like a lot of people have. If we do move in the future, it will be a while from now so hopefully the market will pick back up some. But even if we were to sell right now, we'd be ok. But we're just having fun and doing it right now to make us happy. It sure has been a job, though! Like I said, we'd have probably spent about the same on a 'newer' house, too. Believe it or not, the most expensive stuff has been the cosmetic. The structural hasn't been bad so far. That's not to say that something won't come up, but the cosmetic stuff has been what will drive you bonkers. Light fixtures and tub faucets are expensive! LOL Other than that, the most expensive has been our windows. But I love them and we needed them. That's one expense we wouldn't have had with a new place, but then again construction grade materials suck so who knows. The first place was 'newer' and 3 of the windows had to be replaced. Oh, and the sliding door. So... yeah. You just never know!
Well, I'm not sure what this week will bring. I keep going back and forth on what to do with my diet and I'm sorta in a place where I don't even want to try. I weighed yesterday at 204, but that didn't surprise me at all. I had salty Mexican food the night before and a margarita. I had been good all day until dinner. So, I got up to 204 and then I had a big day out yesterday. I dared not weigh this AM! But I think I'm probably around 200 to 202 without the sodium bloat. I've enjoyed being off of a diet for the last few days, but I am thinking I need to make some plans and stick to it. I mean, it's mid-July and I've not made much progress. I've considered going back to LC and doing higher protein, I've considered doing just calorie counting and then calorie counting with a focus on LC. And I've also considered not doing anything. lol And just eat healthy. But I don't think that just eating however I want will get me far. I guess what I need to do is really sit down and think about where I want to be this time next year. Honestly, I'd like to be in the low 150's and wearing a two piece to the pool! But I'm no where near that. I even found my first 'progress pic' last night and WOW. I look horrid. That should've gotten me motivated, but I just don't know what to do.
Like I said, I DID consider trying calorie counting again. According to one of those online calculators, I need to eat around 2200 cals a day to maintain my current weight of 204. I know one pound is suppose to equal 3500 cals. So, to lose 1lb. a week, I need to eat 1700 cals a day. If I did 1600 cals per day, that would put me negative over 600 cals a day plus any exercise. So, I should, in theory, lose weight. The only problem is, I've done calorie counting before and not made any progress. But that was years ago. So, should I try it again or just go back to low carb? I don't know what to do, but I am at a crossroads and need to do something. I'm not ready to throw in the towel. But I just don't know where to go. I keep getting stalled out and it's frustrating. *sigh* Any advice or help here would be great!
Ok, well, I am going to get off of here for now. I think I am going to chill, read, and then chill and read some more. I don't feel like doing much else. LOL I should probably work on laundry, but BLEH. I don't wanna! Have a great week chicks and talk to you soon!
Saturday, July 16, 2011
And I'm feelin'....
Somewhat good! We got a LOT of work done today. All the painting (of the walls) is now done in the kitchen, dining room and the main wall of the foyer. I still need to do the accent color in the foyer, but the main wall is done! YAY! The hubby got up the trim around the dining room door so trim needs to be painted there and around the house. That's another plan of attack! :D Hubby got up flashing and some trim. Tomorrow is more trim and the top flashing. We will see if we have the time and energy to get up some siding! We also were able to order our windows for our bedroom. Woot! Not to mention, we had a FUN (feel the sarcasm!) encounter with our insurance again this AM. We have decided if the MF'n Adjuster calls again, we will NOT deal with him. We will refer him to our contractor or tell him to call his immediate boss. I refuse to deal with the man anymore. He called my house at 8AM on a SATURDAY! This was his 5th call!!! A-hole! I'm done being nice. I'm fried out with him and I refuse to put up with a grown man acting like an insolent child.
And to add some bling to this conversation, I am feeling so good because we had take-out Mexican for dinner and the hubby went to the liquor store and got me some margarita mix and tequila. Sweet man! I think he could tell I was worn down and needed to relax. Trust me, it helped! I feel light as a bird right now! But I only had one and that's all I will have. I know my limits and well, anything over a slight buzz is too much. I worry that we will end up wasting the mixer since I rarely drink. I enjoy drinks, but I just normally don't. Strange since I feel like (even though it's never been admitted to me) that my bro drinks more often. I have no proof, so it may just be in my head. No idea.
I AM feeling a bit down. Mostly because I saw tonight that some 'friends' of mine apparently planned a GNO without inviting me. And they didn't hide it. I guess they planned it and then 'accidentally' talked about it between two of the girls going. Well, they should KNOW that if you post something and I am friends with both of you that it shows up on my wall. So, now I am feeling upset that I was left out. And I don't know why. But honestly, I am getting tired of trying. Tired of trying to fit in here with women who don't give a rat's ass about me. It's like, trying to fit a damn firetruck in a mouse hole. And I don't get it. What the hell is wrong with me that I can't make friends here. Nothing. I had great friends in SC and VA and hell, even TN before I moved. The real question is, what the hell is wrong with the women here? Maybe I'm too outspoken. I have no idea. Either way, I'm damned lonely on that front. I feel VERY thankful to have a fabulous hubby. We have our ups and downs like any couple, but for the most part, he's super supportive and just always open to listen. I always try to listen to him, too. I don't always like what he has to say, but in the end I know he knows me better than anyone and will be honest with me.
So, overall, good day. Did I mention my parents came up to help us with the kiddos? I didn't really need it seeing as how the weather put us a day behind so we weren't able to do the siding, but it was great to have them here and I appreciated the help immensely. Like I said, we got a lot done! And I'm proud of the fact that projects got done. I know there are many more, but these are just some more to knock off the list! Makes me happy and proud and want to do MORE! I'm not sure what I want to get done next.... Maybe the bathroom? We had finished it once but I had been unhappy with the end result. Maybe soon I should come back to that... or do the foyer? Or maybe I should just keep on painting. Seems like the painting is never ending! But if I could get a few more good days, I think I could knock it out! :D I guess we will just have to wait and see what our timeline is, how the weather behaves and whatnot.
Well, I've rambled long enough now. I feel like I post about the same ol' same ol'. Since I am taking some time to re-set, this isn't really too much about diet, exercise, weight, right now. Although, I will say that I think I've not been too bad until tonight. I see churros and coffee coming at me now so I KNOW my carb count will be higher! But I'm not going to sweat it and I'm going to keep going on with going on! I haven't weighed and don't know if I will for a while. I just don't feel like stressing over it right now. Maybe I should consider opening another blog on like, Tumblr.... or Blogger.... hmmm... not sure. Anyways, g'night ladies and take care! :D
And to add some bling to this conversation, I am feeling so good because we had take-out Mexican for dinner and the hubby went to the liquor store and got me some margarita mix and tequila. Sweet man! I think he could tell I was worn down and needed to relax. Trust me, it helped! I feel light as a bird right now! But I only had one and that's all I will have. I know my limits and well, anything over a slight buzz is too much. I worry that we will end up wasting the mixer since I rarely drink. I enjoy drinks, but I just normally don't. Strange since I feel like (even though it's never been admitted to me) that my bro drinks more often. I have no proof, so it may just be in my head. No idea.
I AM feeling a bit down. Mostly because I saw tonight that some 'friends' of mine apparently planned a GNO without inviting me. And they didn't hide it. I guess they planned it and then 'accidentally' talked about it between two of the girls going. Well, they should KNOW that if you post something and I am friends with both of you that it shows up on my wall. So, now I am feeling upset that I was left out. And I don't know why. But honestly, I am getting tired of trying. Tired of trying to fit in here with women who don't give a rat's ass about me. It's like, trying to fit a damn firetruck in a mouse hole. And I don't get it. What the hell is wrong with me that I can't make friends here. Nothing. I had great friends in SC and VA and hell, even TN before I moved. The real question is, what the hell is wrong with the women here? Maybe I'm too outspoken. I have no idea. Either way, I'm damned lonely on that front. I feel VERY thankful to have a fabulous hubby. We have our ups and downs like any couple, but for the most part, he's super supportive and just always open to listen. I always try to listen to him, too. I don't always like what he has to say, but in the end I know he knows me better than anyone and will be honest with me.
So, overall, good day. Did I mention my parents came up to help us with the kiddos? I didn't really need it seeing as how the weather put us a day behind so we weren't able to do the siding, but it was great to have them here and I appreciated the help immensely. Like I said, we got a lot done! And I'm proud of the fact that projects got done. I know there are many more, but these are just some more to knock off the list! Makes me happy and proud and want to do MORE! I'm not sure what I want to get done next.... Maybe the bathroom? We had finished it once but I had been unhappy with the end result. Maybe soon I should come back to that... or do the foyer? Or maybe I should just keep on painting. Seems like the painting is never ending! But if I could get a few more good days, I think I could knock it out! :D I guess we will just have to wait and see what our timeline is, how the weather behaves and whatnot.
Well, I've rambled long enough now. I feel like I post about the same ol' same ol'. Since I am taking some time to re-set, this isn't really too much about diet, exercise, weight, right now. Although, I will say that I think I've not been too bad until tonight. I see churros and coffee coming at me now so I KNOW my carb count will be higher! But I'm not going to sweat it and I'm going to keep going on with going on! I haven't weighed and don't know if I will for a while. I just don't feel like stressing over it right now. Maybe I should consider opening another blog on like, Tumblr.... or Blogger.... hmmm... not sure. Anyways, g'night ladies and take care! :D
Why, yes Didi, I AM busy! LOL
I couldn't help myself! HA! Shout out Girrrrrrrllllll! I am always busy it seems... but even more so now since the hubby is off and we are trying to get some major stuff knocked out. So far, so good. Now, if the darn weather would just cooperate!!! It's raining and we need to install siding. How we are going to get it installed with this crappy weather, I don't know. AND I need to do some painting outside. But it's just too wet! I feel like I am NEVER going to get this darn exterior painting done. *sigh*
So, today should be another busy one IF the weather cooperates. I also may make some more bread -- the kiddos have really enjoyed the bread! I may start buying bread making stuff in bulk and making my own. That way, they will eat it! LOL And my soup was DELISH. Going to put that on low here in a bit to be warmed up for lunch. YUM YUM.
I guess this is going to be short. Got to get going and hopefully PERK UP! Have a great weekend!!!
So, today should be another busy one IF the weather cooperates. I also may make some more bread -- the kiddos have really enjoyed the bread! I may start buying bread making stuff in bulk and making my own. That way, they will eat it! LOL And my soup was DELISH. Going to put that on low here in a bit to be warmed up for lunch. YUM YUM.
I guess this is going to be short. Got to get going and hopefully PERK UP! Have a great weekend!!!
Friday, July 15, 2011
Resetting
So far, I feel like my reset is going well. I'm not pigging out, I'm not being crazy and eating tons of sugary, salty, or carby foods. I'm just eating a more 'normal' version of what I will once I hit goal. Whole grains and healthy carbs. And I feel ok. TMI, but I've been a bit gassy! LOL The worst thing I've had, really, was a chocolate milkshake. And I came no where near finishing it. It was good, but just too much for me! So, I let the hubby (who stays irritatingly thinner without even TRYING) have it. I had a turkey club on sourdough -- YUM. But I didn't eat all the bread. But the turkey, OMG was SO good! I don't know how they made it, but it was DELISH! I could've eaten just that and the toppings and been happy as good as it was! LOL We were at Perkins and the kiddos ate free, too. I just couldn't get over the food being fresh and so yummy. Somehow, I don't think of fresh when I think of a place like that, but I guess I need to reset my thinking on that, too!
Anyways, so I am humming along. I decided since I was going to take a few days off to break out the bread machine. I made some banana nut bread and it was SO good! Instead of using sugar, I used Splenda. I also mixed in mostly whole wheat flour instead of white. Next time, I think I will even sub in some oat bran or oatmeal and some other rough grains. The bread was good, but coulda used some Oomph! That and, well, I love rough breads. I also used Greek yogurt instead of regular or sour cream. Hopefully that gave it some more protein! Then I used pecans instead of walnuts. Not sure why, but I just don't care for walnuts. The pecans were good and didn't have that weird twang I always taste in walnuts.
Water and vitamins has been good the last couple of days! I think I may have forgotten yesterday (the vitamins) but we were out most of the day and I don't really like to take them all at night. I actually need to go take some now. LOL I try to split them up. I don't always, but I try. I know for some of them it's best with food and others on an empty stomach. So, I try to split it up. I've also done a lot of walking so I at least got in some exercise! LOL Just nothing formal. I never made it to walk the dog the other night but I am hoping to today. I know it sorta cuts into our time, but I need to for his and my sanity. Especially his. He's hateful as all get out right now!
Other than that, just staying busy, trying to get projects done, and not think so much about being on a 'diet'. I hope it will help. I just got to keep moving along and not let the numbers drive me so crazy. I am being conscious of my food intake and staying busy, but I'm not dwelling like crazy on it. It's been sorta nice! I am starting to feel less stressed and like I'm getting somewhere. I need that to continue! Now, if we could just get the guys to agree on the insurance for the house, we'd be good. LOL The car is done now I just need to get repairs. Other good things money wise have been we paid off our CC and made a good payment to the other one. Hope to have that paid off in a year. We used it as a personal loan for work on the house since it was such a low rate. Slowly but surely, we hope to catch up. I also need to open a Roth IRA. I had started the paperwork a few months ago, but never finished. I need to finish that and put enough in to catch me up for the last year and a half. I had meant to start it at 31. I know we've lost some interest, but the more I start out with, the easier it is to 'catch up'. I just want to make sure we are setting aside enough now to provide for us in the future. I think with the Roth, we'll be at 13%. We want to work our way to 15% and then 20%. I know that sounds like a lot, but I worry that there won't be putting back enough with only the 10% that is usually recommended. I think 20% is more realistic. I don't want our overall budget to be too tight, but I also don't want my hubby or myself working until we're 70! At 70, I want to be chillin' in a condo on the beach! LOL
See why I never feel like I rest? LMAO! I am ALWAYS thinking about projects, money, the future, my kids, etc. and so on. So, taking a little break from stressing over dieting to get a few other things straightened out seems to be helping my state of mind. Even today, I am feeling less foggy and frazzled and it's only been a couple of days. It's amazing! And I'm not going whole hog, either. I'm just eating moderate and staying busy. Except for now where I am on here. But I consider this to be a part of my 'health' now. I need this place to come and vent and dump out all these crazy emotions so they aren't bottled up and causing other damage. Mentally, you know. And right now, I'm feeling really more positive than I had been. So, it's all good!
But now, now I gotta go and get to work on something. I'd like to find one of the lids I am missing to one of my decanters. Finish some more paint and start some more paint, and do some housework. Busy busy! But I am going to do it with a smile today because I feel better and hopefully smiling will only bring on more happiness. Good luck ladies and have a great weekend! Wish me luck on getting some siding done! :D
Anyways, so I am humming along. I decided since I was going to take a few days off to break out the bread machine. I made some banana nut bread and it was SO good! Instead of using sugar, I used Splenda. I also mixed in mostly whole wheat flour instead of white. Next time, I think I will even sub in some oat bran or oatmeal and some other rough grains. The bread was good, but coulda used some Oomph! That and, well, I love rough breads. I also used Greek yogurt instead of regular or sour cream. Hopefully that gave it some more protein! Then I used pecans instead of walnuts. Not sure why, but I just don't care for walnuts. The pecans were good and didn't have that weird twang I always taste in walnuts.
Water and vitamins has been good the last couple of days! I think I may have forgotten yesterday (the vitamins) but we were out most of the day and I don't really like to take them all at night. I actually need to go take some now. LOL I try to split them up. I don't always, but I try. I know for some of them it's best with food and others on an empty stomach. So, I try to split it up. I've also done a lot of walking so I at least got in some exercise! LOL Just nothing formal. I never made it to walk the dog the other night but I am hoping to today. I know it sorta cuts into our time, but I need to for his and my sanity. Especially his. He's hateful as all get out right now!
Other than that, just staying busy, trying to get projects done, and not think so much about being on a 'diet'. I hope it will help. I just got to keep moving along and not let the numbers drive me so crazy. I am being conscious of my food intake and staying busy, but I'm not dwelling like crazy on it. It's been sorta nice! I am starting to feel less stressed and like I'm getting somewhere. I need that to continue! Now, if we could just get the guys to agree on the insurance for the house, we'd be good. LOL The car is done now I just need to get repairs. Other good things money wise have been we paid off our CC and made a good payment to the other one. Hope to have that paid off in a year. We used it as a personal loan for work on the house since it was such a low rate. Slowly but surely, we hope to catch up. I also need to open a Roth IRA. I had started the paperwork a few months ago, but never finished. I need to finish that and put enough in to catch me up for the last year and a half. I had meant to start it at 31. I know we've lost some interest, but the more I start out with, the easier it is to 'catch up'. I just want to make sure we are setting aside enough now to provide for us in the future. I think with the Roth, we'll be at 13%. We want to work our way to 15% and then 20%. I know that sounds like a lot, but I worry that there won't be putting back enough with only the 10% that is usually recommended. I think 20% is more realistic. I don't want our overall budget to be too tight, but I also don't want my hubby or myself working until we're 70! At 70, I want to be chillin' in a condo on the beach! LOL
See why I never feel like I rest? LMAO! I am ALWAYS thinking about projects, money, the future, my kids, etc. and so on. So, taking a little break from stressing over dieting to get a few other things straightened out seems to be helping my state of mind. Even today, I am feeling less foggy and frazzled and it's only been a couple of days. It's amazing! And I'm not going whole hog, either. I'm just eating moderate and staying busy. Except for now where I am on here. But I consider this to be a part of my 'health' now. I need this place to come and vent and dump out all these crazy emotions so they aren't bottled up and causing other damage. Mentally, you know. And right now, I'm feeling really more positive than I had been. So, it's all good!
But now, now I gotta go and get to work on something. I'd like to find one of the lids I am missing to one of my decanters. Finish some more paint and start some more paint, and do some housework. Busy busy! But I am going to do it with a smile today because I feel better and hopefully smiling will only bring on more happiness. Good luck ladies and have a great weekend! Wish me luck on getting some siding done! :D
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Grumpy
I am feeling rather grumpy today and I'm not sure why. I just don't feel like doing much of anything. I think yesterday soured me rather well. BLEH. I TRIED to have a down day... to relax... because I knew I had a lot to accomplish over this 7day with my hubby. And then he agreed to work the last day and that cut us down to 6. Today isn't going well so now we are at 5. And I just can't let go of the grumps. The kid's nasty attitudes and incessant whining yesterday just put me in a foul mood. And the hubby, too, once he got home. Our whole evening was spend dealing with naughty children, fussing, etc. By the time we got them down, it was our turn and then baby was up several times. I'm tired on top of being grouchy and I just don't know how to break this funk. I've even been up cleaning and doing chores, but not with joy. Not that I normally clean all that much with joy, but here lately whenever I was doing something I had been feeling accomplished. Not so with today. Today it was just a do it mood and no happiness attached that I can feel, yet. I do feel somewhat good it's done, just not super happy. I still hope to get a few other things done like another couple of loads of laundry, some dusting, and maybe finish that project. I don't want to spend all day sitting here feeling grumpy. The hubb's keeps saying I should get out for a bit, but it is SO hot I have NO idea what he thinks I could do. I have no shopping to do and only a hand full of errands. Nothing I really want to get out and do in this heat. NOTHING. I don't even WANT to shop since I have nothing to shop for. Nothing fun anyways. So, here I sit typing this blog and feeling like a grump. BLEH.
Thanks ladies for your positive words. I need them right now. I am just going to take it easy the next few days and hope that I do indeed reset myself. I've had an angry tummy today, and I'm not sure what that stems from. I get it randomly, and I never know what sets it off. It's not the same feeling as when I was eating the salad or when I had stomach issues a few years back. It's just annoying! That isn't helping my frame of mind at all. But it does make me feel like taking a step back for a few days will be the most helpful.
Well, going to end this depressing post now. I hope you ladies have a great week.
***UPDATE***
The day is now almost over seeing as how it is after 8. And I must say, I feel a bit better. Breakfast was LC toast with butter and sugar free strawberry jelly (just jelly with no added sweeteners -- I LOVE it because there's just fruit in there!) and scrambled eggs with cheese. Plus a cup of coffee. Lunch was a big salad and some leftover pizza with a diet coke (that I didn't finish! I rarely do. Don't know why...). Snack was... I guess some chocolate! LOL I ate a couple of small pieces and they were good, but I probably should've had a real snack. Dinner is going to be steak, roasted asparagus, and a baked sweet potato. Probably won't be a dessert or late snack, but we will see. And no wine. Just water and more coffee.
I DID get up and clean my kitchen, pick up around the house, do some more laundry, fold laundry, and then finished the wall and another area for my project. I am REALLY proud of that! I ran out of paint, or I would've done more. But no worries -- I have another gallon of it. But I'm done for tonight. So, I'm a bit perked up and more calm? So, hopefully tomorrow I won't be as grumpy. I am thinking of getting up and going to the bookstore in the AM. There are several books I'm wanting, so I wanted to go and get them alone if I could. And I'll do a couple of errands while out, too. Then when I get home, we can work on a few more projects. FUN! :D OK, going to go now that dinner is done. G'night ladies!
Thanks ladies for your positive words. I need them right now. I am just going to take it easy the next few days and hope that I do indeed reset myself. I've had an angry tummy today, and I'm not sure what that stems from. I get it randomly, and I never know what sets it off. It's not the same feeling as when I was eating the salad or when I had stomach issues a few years back. It's just annoying! That isn't helping my frame of mind at all. But it does make me feel like taking a step back for a few days will be the most helpful.
Well, going to end this depressing post now. I hope you ladies have a great week.
***UPDATE***
The day is now almost over seeing as how it is after 8. And I must say, I feel a bit better. Breakfast was LC toast with butter and sugar free strawberry jelly (just jelly with no added sweeteners -- I LOVE it because there's just fruit in there!) and scrambled eggs with cheese. Plus a cup of coffee. Lunch was a big salad and some leftover pizza with a diet coke (that I didn't finish! I rarely do. Don't know why...). Snack was... I guess some chocolate! LOL I ate a couple of small pieces and they were good, but I probably should've had a real snack. Dinner is going to be steak, roasted asparagus, and a baked sweet potato. Probably won't be a dessert or late snack, but we will see. And no wine. Just water and more coffee.
I DID get up and clean my kitchen, pick up around the house, do some more laundry, fold laundry, and then finished the wall and another area for my project. I am REALLY proud of that! I ran out of paint, or I would've done more. But no worries -- I have another gallon of it. But I'm done for tonight. So, I'm a bit perked up and more calm? So, hopefully tomorrow I won't be as grumpy. I am thinking of getting up and going to the bookstore in the AM. There are several books I'm wanting, so I wanted to go and get them alone if I could. And I'll do a couple of errands while out, too. Then when I get home, we can work on a few more projects. FUN! :D OK, going to go now that dinner is done. G'night ladies!
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Dang you!
Stinkin' dang scale said 199 again today. So, I have decided that I am going to do moderate carbs for a few days. I don't think I will do a high day. But moderate for a few days to try to reset whatever is going wrong. I just can't handle 5 weeks of no loss. The only thing I know to do is up my cals and carbs for a few days to see if that is what is going on. Maybe my cals have been too low? I know my carbs haven't been. I'm not sure. I don't know what is going on, but I'm frustrated. SO frustrated. And instead of giving up, I have decided to try to reset my body. I am going to focus really hard on my vitamins and water and eating more balanced the rest of this week and through the weekend. I will see how my body and the scale responds on Sunday, and then I will go from there. I refuse to quit trying! I REFUSE!!!
On a positive front, I managed to get even more done yesterday when it comes to projects. Next is another light sanding and then another coat of paint. I got all the cleaning in that area, sanding, priming and the first coat of paint done. So, one sanding and more paint and that area is done. Then I need to move on to the next area. I was afraid my hubby would think it was nuts because really, it's SO little. But he was so happy! He was like, 'Doing it little by little sure is getting a lot done!' I told him that seemed to be the motto of my life recently! LOL Little by little, I'll get one of the projects done. It may take longer, I may waste a small amount of product during clean up, but at least my brain is letting me sleep more at night. Mostly because I feel more accomplished so I don't have all these feelings of frustration floating around. It's like by organizing one drawer in your kitchen every day, by the end of the week your whole kitchen is organized. Same with these little projects. Not to mention it keeps my brain and fingers busy so I'm not thinking about food! Plus, I'm sure going up and down chairs and ladders, sanding, painting, MOVING burns calories! Probably better than a workout. Not that I shouldn't be working out... I really should. At least with the Pilates. Toning would be better than nothing at this point to make what I have look better!
I guess you gathered from that last comment, that I'm not working out. *sigh* I've been tempted by the summer challenges, but I honestly am just trying to watch the food and keep moving rather than a formal workout. Like I said, I need to get back to the Pilates and over the 7 day, the hubby and I are going to try to work out a schedule. We've talked it over before and tried different things that just didn't work. So, we are going to see what didn't work, why, and try to come up with a new plan. My goal is going to be 3 days a week and then if I get an extra, that's bonus. I would love to commit to 3, but right now I'm doing none! Today is Tues., and so far, I haven't done a thing that would be considered formal exercise. Or even worked the dog. Lame, I know. And he's been hateful as a result. I should've treadmilled him during nap time but I had just wanted to take it easy. UGH. I see a walk in my future if the weather holds out. If not, treadmill for doggy at least. He needs to burn energy. I need to get exercise. Should be easier than this! Just hard with two little ones. Now I know why so many Mom's join the Y -- it's the free daycare!
Well, I guess I should be getting off of here and doing something with this day. I had originally planned on taking it easy and reading a book, but I keep looking at the kitchen and thinking, I should do that one little area... then that whole wall will be finished! But I don't want to overdo and burn myself out. I also need to work on more laundry. I think I got 3 loads washed and two dried yesterday. Which means I need to dry at least one and wash at least 2. So, that way 5 loads are done and ready for the 7 day. I might even do a couple of small ones just to have them done. So, that is all for now chicks. Have a great day!
On a positive front, I managed to get even more done yesterday when it comes to projects. Next is another light sanding and then another coat of paint. I got all the cleaning in that area, sanding, priming and the first coat of paint done. So, one sanding and more paint and that area is done. Then I need to move on to the next area. I was afraid my hubby would think it was nuts because really, it's SO little. But he was so happy! He was like, 'Doing it little by little sure is getting a lot done!' I told him that seemed to be the motto of my life recently! LOL Little by little, I'll get one of the projects done. It may take longer, I may waste a small amount of product during clean up, but at least my brain is letting me sleep more at night. Mostly because I feel more accomplished so I don't have all these feelings of frustration floating around. It's like by organizing one drawer in your kitchen every day, by the end of the week your whole kitchen is organized. Same with these little projects. Not to mention it keeps my brain and fingers busy so I'm not thinking about food! Plus, I'm sure going up and down chairs and ladders, sanding, painting, MOVING burns calories! Probably better than a workout. Not that I shouldn't be working out... I really should. At least with the Pilates. Toning would be better than nothing at this point to make what I have look better!
I guess you gathered from that last comment, that I'm not working out. *sigh* I've been tempted by the summer challenges, but I honestly am just trying to watch the food and keep moving rather than a formal workout. Like I said, I need to get back to the Pilates and over the 7 day, the hubby and I are going to try to work out a schedule. We've talked it over before and tried different things that just didn't work. So, we are going to see what didn't work, why, and try to come up with a new plan. My goal is going to be 3 days a week and then if I get an extra, that's bonus. I would love to commit to 3, but right now I'm doing none! Today is Tues., and so far, I haven't done a thing that would be considered formal exercise. Or even worked the dog. Lame, I know. And he's been hateful as a result. I should've treadmilled him during nap time but I had just wanted to take it easy. UGH. I see a walk in my future if the weather holds out. If not, treadmill for doggy at least. He needs to burn energy. I need to get exercise. Should be easier than this! Just hard with two little ones. Now I know why so many Mom's join the Y -- it's the free daycare!
Well, I guess I should be getting off of here and doing something with this day. I had originally planned on taking it easy and reading a book, but I keep looking at the kitchen and thinking, I should do that one little area... then that whole wall will be finished! But I don't want to overdo and burn myself out. I also need to work on more laundry. I think I got 3 loads washed and two dried yesterday. Which means I need to dry at least one and wash at least 2. So, that way 5 loads are done and ready for the 7 day. I might even do a couple of small ones just to have them done. So, that is all for now chicks. Have a great day!
Monday, July 11, 2011
Title??? Ummm...
Yesterday ended up being a fairly productive day. After I finished my post, I decided to get up and get something done even if it was only something VERY small. I ended up cleaning the kitchen and then doing some organizing in my dining room and kitchen, and then painting. There was this area right beside and behind my fridge that I had yet to paint, so I decided to pull the fridge out, clean behind it, and paint. I had been putting it off, but it only took a short amount of time! I even sanded and patched a spot that I should be able to work on again later if I get the energy. But we will see. I still feel tired today, but nothing anywhere NEAR as severe as what it had been. Maybe I am finally catching up! LOL
What I REALLY need to work on today is laundry. I plan on taking it all down here in a bit and then sorting and starting some during younger's nap time. He is too mobile now for me to do it when he is awake and the downstairs isn't kid friendly enough for him to go down. It's really set up for older kids. I need to do something about that soon. Just not sure what? Probably just move a few things around and put up some doors and gates. Right now, there are no doors. Mostly because we are buying and replacing doors as we can and downstairs was a complete change. We took out a single door and put in a double french. When we went to pick the door up after we had framed, they were no longer carrying that size in store and is now a special order. That's happened a couple of times simply due to time between designing, building, and then going to buy. I sorta understand why people pay others to do the work! HA! We haven't really had the money to order since. Mostly because we've been doing other things! LOL And NOW we've decided that the set-up down there isn't really working. We have a garage downstairs, but the actual spot is SO SMALL that it does us no good. I CANNOT part a full size SUV in there. So, we've decided to take out the garage door, put in a patio door, and put in a carport that matches our house and roofline. We are then going to leave the garage somewhat rough, but more finished than it is now. We're going to put in an insulated drop ceiling (to buffer sound), repair and paint the walls, repair and paint the concrete floor, put in a new interior and exterior door, and then paint and install the cabinets we got for down there. We are going to leave the laundry area where it is and then organize the storage area. The side that use to be for the car will become our new workout area and long term storage. We already have a deep freezer tucked into a good spot, but I need a few shelves put in there. We are going to use the same kind as what we have on the other side and we are going to leave it all open. I think I will even see if the hubbs will install a stereo system and TV in there. But we will see. It won't be high end since it's a garage, but it would be nice to have all of the workout stuff there and be able to watch TV or listen to the radio while in there. Plus, once we get all that moved it would be nice to be able to go in there and do whatever while the kids were in the rec room. :D
It's going to be REALLY nice to have a different workout area. Where it is now just doesn't work! I want that room to be just a guest room and office. And I want to take the itty bitty room that is under the stairs that I use for an office and turn it back into storage. Slowly but surely, finding a layout that works. And having a workout room is right there at the top. Having it in with the guest room and office just wasn't working. Even though we don't have a TON of company, it just doesn't work for even casual use. Most of the rooms in our house need to be efficient and do double duty. And that room was doing triple. Which was just too much! I will be SO glad to have a designated area!!! Just hope we can get to it soon.
My weight today is the same. I was severely disappointed to see 199 and then 199.5 again today. I just want to be under 198 right now. I am getting frustrated. I keep telling myself to get over it, but it's a pain to try really hard, to hold back on everything, and still see nada. I get that I had some things over the weekend, but not enough to keep from losing. Ugh. I don't know what to think and I am just feeling like what's the point? I know that the point is I could be up. But dad gum. This battle gets annoying! I guess the good is still that my clothes fit differently. Maybe I will see something in the next couple of days. And yes, I'm weighing daily again just to get myself back on track and see if I can figure out what I am doing wrong. I haven't been formally tracking my food, but I am thinking about going back to that just for a few weeks to see if I can figure out what is wrong. It's that or I am afraid I am going to go nuts. I haven't lost anything in weeks. WEEKS!!! And I get that I haven't been 100%, but geez. Surely I don't have to be THAT strict to lose 1lb. a week?? I am afraid I messed something up with that week I took off back in June. What, I don't know. But something. The only thing I haven't been doing is taking my vitamins like I should... could THAT be making any kind of difference??? Hummm.... I didn't think it would since I eat pretty well. But maybe? I need to re-order some and get back into the routine. Maybe I'll take those here shortly... And re-order here shortly... plus some other things I need to order.... Busy busy busy.
Well, I guess I will get off of here and get my booty to work. Well, at least on the pute, putting younger down, and starting laundry. Although, I am just now starting my protein shake. LOL I had a boo boo with it and had to doctor it some so I am late drinking it. Have a great day chicks. And I hope that some of you will come back soon. Seems like no one is posting as much as they were or commenting. And honestly, I miss that!
What I REALLY need to work on today is laundry. I plan on taking it all down here in a bit and then sorting and starting some during younger's nap time. He is too mobile now for me to do it when he is awake and the downstairs isn't kid friendly enough for him to go down. It's really set up for older kids. I need to do something about that soon. Just not sure what? Probably just move a few things around and put up some doors and gates. Right now, there are no doors. Mostly because we are buying and replacing doors as we can and downstairs was a complete change. We took out a single door and put in a double french. When we went to pick the door up after we had framed, they were no longer carrying that size in store and is now a special order. That's happened a couple of times simply due to time between designing, building, and then going to buy. I sorta understand why people pay others to do the work! HA! We haven't really had the money to order since. Mostly because we've been doing other things! LOL And NOW we've decided that the set-up down there isn't really working. We have a garage downstairs, but the actual spot is SO SMALL that it does us no good. I CANNOT part a full size SUV in there. So, we've decided to take out the garage door, put in a patio door, and put in a carport that matches our house and roofline. We are then going to leave the garage somewhat rough, but more finished than it is now. We're going to put in an insulated drop ceiling (to buffer sound), repair and paint the walls, repair and paint the concrete floor, put in a new interior and exterior door, and then paint and install the cabinets we got for down there. We are going to leave the laundry area where it is and then organize the storage area. The side that use to be for the car will become our new workout area and long term storage. We already have a deep freezer tucked into a good spot, but I need a few shelves put in there. We are going to use the same kind as what we have on the other side and we are going to leave it all open. I think I will even see if the hubbs will install a stereo system and TV in there. But we will see. It won't be high end since it's a garage, but it would be nice to have all of the workout stuff there and be able to watch TV or listen to the radio while in there. Plus, once we get all that moved it would be nice to be able to go in there and do whatever while the kids were in the rec room. :D
It's going to be REALLY nice to have a different workout area. Where it is now just doesn't work! I want that room to be just a guest room and office. And I want to take the itty bitty room that is under the stairs that I use for an office and turn it back into storage. Slowly but surely, finding a layout that works. And having a workout room is right there at the top. Having it in with the guest room and office just wasn't working. Even though we don't have a TON of company, it just doesn't work for even casual use. Most of the rooms in our house need to be efficient and do double duty. And that room was doing triple. Which was just too much! I will be SO glad to have a designated area!!! Just hope we can get to it soon.
My weight today is the same. I was severely disappointed to see 199 and then 199.5 again today. I just want to be under 198 right now. I am getting frustrated. I keep telling myself to get over it, but it's a pain to try really hard, to hold back on everything, and still see nada. I get that I had some things over the weekend, but not enough to keep from losing. Ugh. I don't know what to think and I am just feeling like what's the point? I know that the point is I could be up. But dad gum. This battle gets annoying! I guess the good is still that my clothes fit differently. Maybe I will see something in the next couple of days. And yes, I'm weighing daily again just to get myself back on track and see if I can figure out what I am doing wrong. I haven't been formally tracking my food, but I am thinking about going back to that just for a few weeks to see if I can figure out what is wrong. It's that or I am afraid I am going to go nuts. I haven't lost anything in weeks. WEEKS!!! And I get that I haven't been 100%, but geez. Surely I don't have to be THAT strict to lose 1lb. a week?? I am afraid I messed something up with that week I took off back in June. What, I don't know. But something. The only thing I haven't been doing is taking my vitamins like I should... could THAT be making any kind of difference??? Hummm.... I didn't think it would since I eat pretty well. But maybe? I need to re-order some and get back into the routine. Maybe I'll take those here shortly... And re-order here shortly... plus some other things I need to order.... Busy busy busy.
Well, I guess I will get off of here and get my booty to work. Well, at least on the pute, putting younger down, and starting laundry. Although, I am just now starting my protein shake. LOL I had a boo boo with it and had to doctor it some so I am late drinking it. Have a great day chicks. And I hope that some of you will come back soon. Seems like no one is posting as much as they were or commenting. And honestly, I miss that!
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Motivation?
I have NO motivation today. I am utterly and completely worn out and I just feel like at any moment, I could drop. But I know I won't. I'm just tired and FEEL like I could. I've been to bed, I've had sleep. I just feel like yuck from days of running around. I need to get caught up on housework -- especially laundry and dusting. But I just have no energy. Not to mention the projects that I need to work on, too. I'm having a protein shake with caffeine right now. Latte. YUM. I am hoping that will perk me up. I even went to bed at a decent time last night and I still don't feel great. Hopefully I can get the drive up to get a few things done. This week will probably be very busy, so I need to get caught up. Especially the laundry. But I need to get out of this funk. It seems to be lifting somewhat since I started this. Mostly because I got little man down, I'm having my protein latte, and oldest went outside and burned off some steam. Maybe the rest of the day won't be so bad? UGH. I hope not. Like I said, lots to do.
Where to start? I need to do regular cleaning, a spot of deep cleaning, and a project. Maybe I should do it in one area? Hmmm... Not sure which area to even start in. LOL ALL the areas need work! But I'm already so tired, I don't want to overdo.
Weight is the same. Not that I expected any different. After several days of working outside in the heat and doing manual labor, I knew it would be. Then there was date night Friday night and the wedding shower Sat. Friday my confessions were 2 glasses of wine, a few bites of yummy, crusty bread, and then a little less than half of a pound cake dessert. But that was after a lot of walking. Sat., my confession is one small cupcake at the shower. Oh, and a few tortilla chips but I didn't have anything else to eat the chili dip with. And I wanted to eat that since there wasn't too much else I could eat. LOL It was good, even if I only had a few chips with it! LOL I used them mostly as scoops. I don't think anyone really noticed. And the cupcake was worth it -- it was REALLY yummy! One of the other girls there made them. And I even got a smaller one. What was weird was one of the dresses that hadn't fit for a long time fit when I tried it on fit. So, I wore it! I know when I bought it I was at least 5lbs. thinner than I am now. Weird. The last time I tried it on, it was LITERALLY skin tight. So, imagine my surprise at it fitting and fitting WELL. I hope it looked as good as it felt like it did! I guess we will see when the pictures are posted.
I guess that is all for now. I can't think of anything else to cover right at the moment with my brain so dang fried. That is part of the reason I just don't know if doing anything is any good. Mush brain makes for poor decisions at times. But, I SHOULD be able to do simple housework at least. Ok, off I go. Good day chicks.
Where to start? I need to do regular cleaning, a spot of deep cleaning, and a project. Maybe I should do it in one area? Hmmm... Not sure which area to even start in. LOL ALL the areas need work! But I'm already so tired, I don't want to overdo.
Weight is the same. Not that I expected any different. After several days of working outside in the heat and doing manual labor, I knew it would be. Then there was date night Friday night and the wedding shower Sat. Friday my confessions were 2 glasses of wine, a few bites of yummy, crusty bread, and then a little less than half of a pound cake dessert. But that was after a lot of walking. Sat., my confession is one small cupcake at the shower. Oh, and a few tortilla chips but I didn't have anything else to eat the chili dip with. And I wanted to eat that since there wasn't too much else I could eat. LOL It was good, even if I only had a few chips with it! LOL I used them mostly as scoops. I don't think anyone really noticed. And the cupcake was worth it -- it was REALLY yummy! One of the other girls there made them. And I even got a smaller one. What was weird was one of the dresses that hadn't fit for a long time fit when I tried it on fit. So, I wore it! I know when I bought it I was at least 5lbs. thinner than I am now. Weird. The last time I tried it on, it was LITERALLY skin tight. So, imagine my surprise at it fitting and fitting WELL. I hope it looked as good as it felt like it did! I guess we will see when the pictures are posted.
I guess that is all for now. I can't think of anything else to cover right at the moment with my brain so dang fried. That is part of the reason I just don't know if doing anything is any good. Mush brain makes for poor decisions at times. But, I SHOULD be able to do simple housework at least. Ok, off I go. Good day chicks.
Friday, July 8, 2011
Just an update...
198.5 this AM. WHICH, I'm a bit shocked about. I expected to be back over 200. I am SO sore so I thought for SURE I'd have water retention out the wazoo. I mean, I was chugging water like none-other, but I was sweating like a SOW! I mean, it was pouring off of me! But we managed to get a whole lot done and now we can really relax when we have date night tonight! :D I plan on being pretty good. I do plan on a glass of wine and maybe half a lower sugar dessert. But other than that, I want to stay on plan. Shouldn't be too hard. That's why I love LC - it's easy to stay on plan even when going out if you know what to look for. You may get some carbs sneaking in at times, but for the most part you learn how to order pretty quick. The only thing is, I think my cooking is better than theirs many times! LOL
Anyways, like I said, we got a LOT done! We made our run to the dump this AM and then stopped for an errand. It was nice to finish up today and feel like we had made some progress. Now if we can only have a few more days being productive like this, we'll get somewhere. Sadly, the hubbs goes back to work tomorrow so I'm not sure what that will bring. Guess we will have to wait until he is off again. On a bad note, our insurance is giving us a hard time about repairs to the house. They are saying that due to the 'condition' of the home and the age, they aren't willing to pay full replacement cost. Uhhh... isn't that the POINT of insurance is to cover the cost of current replacement??? The guy who came acted like our house was a dump. I explained that we were remodeling and that we had bought the house in rough shape. AND that we were making repairs as we could since it was in such bad shape and was costing a small fortune. He just looked around like it was a shambles. Yes, some paint and trim isn't done, but OMG you should've seen this place before!!!! You wouldn't believe it. We've done the best we could between expanding our family, extensive repairs, job changes, and freaky weather. Even the neighbors here have said that they are relieved that we bought it and started cleaning it up. We apologized about the length of time, and they said considering how bad the outside was, they knew that we were doing our best because the inside had to have been bad, too. It was. We had some structural damage to boot. Plus mold. SO, I was rightfully annoyed at the rude behavior of the Adjuster. We called to complain today. They said they would call us back but they DID apologize for his brusk behavior. I hate being treated like a child. I know we look very young, but I just turned 31. I don't need to be spoken to as if I'm an 18yr. old, wet behind the ears, kid!
On another front, I am trying to be more positive. I have been getting back to responding to blogs and hoping that by being supportive to everyone else, I'll somehow start to believe in myself again and what this journey is really about. I keep telling myself not to be disappointed in where I am and not to let it get me down because just like I've said and told countless others, at least I am where I am and not up. Maintaining or slowly losing is better than gaining. But I just feel like I'm failing right now. I keep thinking that I should've made it further and if I had just buckled down, I could be at goal. UGH. I feel like it will be next year before I am even close to where I need to be. Not that there is any shame in that, just that sometimes when I talk about my weight and whatnot, people look like, yeah, right! I shouldn't care what they think. I shouldn't be berating myself. But I have been. My plan of attack has been to try to be positive and support others in hopes that it rubs back into my brain. LOL Is it working yet? Not really. But I am going to keep trying.
Well, this is all for today. Going to try to get going and get in a few more things before our date night. Have a good weekend, chickies!
P.S. I may not write again until Sunday. Busy busy busy!
Anyways, like I said, we got a LOT done! We made our run to the dump this AM and then stopped for an errand. It was nice to finish up today and feel like we had made some progress. Now if we can only have a few more days being productive like this, we'll get somewhere. Sadly, the hubbs goes back to work tomorrow so I'm not sure what that will bring. Guess we will have to wait until he is off again. On a bad note, our insurance is giving us a hard time about repairs to the house. They are saying that due to the 'condition' of the home and the age, they aren't willing to pay full replacement cost. Uhhh... isn't that the POINT of insurance is to cover the cost of current replacement??? The guy who came acted like our house was a dump. I explained that we were remodeling and that we had bought the house in rough shape. AND that we were making repairs as we could since it was in such bad shape and was costing a small fortune. He just looked around like it was a shambles. Yes, some paint and trim isn't done, but OMG you should've seen this place before!!!! You wouldn't believe it. We've done the best we could between expanding our family, extensive repairs, job changes, and freaky weather. Even the neighbors here have said that they are relieved that we bought it and started cleaning it up. We apologized about the length of time, and they said considering how bad the outside was, they knew that we were doing our best because the inside had to have been bad, too. It was. We had some structural damage to boot. Plus mold. SO, I was rightfully annoyed at the rude behavior of the Adjuster. We called to complain today. They said they would call us back but they DID apologize for his brusk behavior. I hate being treated like a child. I know we look very young, but I just turned 31. I don't need to be spoken to as if I'm an 18yr. old, wet behind the ears, kid!
On another front, I am trying to be more positive. I have been getting back to responding to blogs and hoping that by being supportive to everyone else, I'll somehow start to believe in myself again and what this journey is really about. I keep telling myself not to be disappointed in where I am and not to let it get me down because just like I've said and told countless others, at least I am where I am and not up. Maintaining or slowly losing is better than gaining. But I just feel like I'm failing right now. I keep thinking that I should've made it further and if I had just buckled down, I could be at goal. UGH. I feel like it will be next year before I am even close to where I need to be. Not that there is any shame in that, just that sometimes when I talk about my weight and whatnot, people look like, yeah, right! I shouldn't care what they think. I shouldn't be berating myself. But I have been. My plan of attack has been to try to be positive and support others in hopes that it rubs back into my brain. LOL Is it working yet? Not really. But I am going to keep trying.
Well, this is all for today. Going to try to get going and get in a few more things before our date night. Have a good weekend, chickies!
P.S. I may not write again until Sunday. Busy busy busy!
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Okkkkk.....
So, I wrote the previous blog yesterday and some last night and only just posted it this AM. But now I'm starting another so I guess it's whatev. My body is weird. 200 yesterday and back and forth a bit for the days before and then 198 today. Ooooh! Mean body! I knew that's what would happen. I told myself if I got up and weighed and I was 200, I was going straight to DD to have a donut and a latte! LOL But it was 198. So, I had half a LC latte and an omelet. This is a tease. UGH. I don't know how to feel! I have been sticking on plan and taking it easy until today. Today is catch up on yardwork day. I've sweat half to death and drinking a ton of water. I'm sure my weight will be up tomorrow as a result. lol
Well, not going to make this long. I need to go do some mowing and finish my bushes. Weeding, spraying, clean up, are mostly done. Just need to finish the bushes, clean that up, and mow. FUN. Maybe even work on a new flower bed. We'll see. Either way, I have a lot to do now that I'm cooled off again. lol
Well, not going to make this long. I need to go do some mowing and finish my bushes. Weeding, spraying, clean up, are mostly done. Just need to finish the bushes, clean that up, and mow. FUN. Maybe even work on a new flower bed. We'll see. Either way, I have a lot to do now that I'm cooled off again. lol
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