Back again

So, here I am, typing a blog with nothing in particular to write about.  Just felt like writing.  I'm still pondering the whole diet thing, and I've been talking it over with a couple of friends and the hubbs.  The thing is, I just don't know what to do.  *SIGH*  Decisions are hard.

I've counted it up, and I have about 6 cases of almond milk and 5+lbs. of protein powder.  If I do four shakes a day, that is like, 72 days I could do of liquid plus a lean and green dinner.  OR, I could do straight liquid for 48.  That is, if the hubby doesn't need any.  If he uses them, then it will be less.  So, what to do?  Part of me thinks, man, I could do this and see if I can handle straight liquid, but then part of me feels like that isn't right.  The other part of me is being awful and saying, I CANNOT do another 2mos. of this!  URGH.  I just don't know what to do.

My biggest hesitation with ALL liquid is that I will be weaker and cheat.  Not to mention, the fear of 're-feeding'.  Meaning, re-introducing food after abstaining for weeks.  Every person I've seen do it eventually has issues with the initial weight gain (cause food weighs more than liquid).  And I don't want to do that.  I'd much rather do the L&G.  Do my weekly weigh-ins, and then focus on eating low carb to maintain and adding that back in a little after that so that I don't see a sudden JUMP in numbers!  But with the L&G, the weight-loss does seem to be lower and slower.  Which hasn't been an issue up until now, but I'm just ready to be DONE.  I know, I know -- I didn't get fat overnight and I'm not going to lose it overnight.  But come on, after a while, you just want to maintain, and not be so obsessive about it.

I just need to suck it up and make a decision.  How I'm going to do that, I'm not sure.  But I need to and now is a good time before I go to the grocery store.  No point in loading up on food if I am not going to be eating it!  Even if it's low carb.  Sure would save us a ton on the grocery bill this go around!  So, I need to decide fairly soon.  But as of right now, I'm leaning toward doing a complete full fast just to do it and get it over with!!!  As I said before, I'm not going to decide now because I want to do this with lots thought, dedication, and positive energy.  And I can't do that if I rush into it.

Well, I guess that's all that's rambling in my brain for now.  I WILL make a decision SOON.