Aargh

I feel a bit better today, but my face is a bit achy.  I've been taking meds and pushing through everything, but it's difficult.  I just feel tired and sluggish all day.  It's hard to do anything when your head feels like a blob.  :/  And that is the best possible description.  I'm not being a lardy or anything.  I cleaned the kitchen (including the nasty island chairs; thanks kids!) and worked on laundry and did the regular pick up plus helped oldest with some school work.  Also helped the hubby to finish a project.  But I did nothing beyond that.  Well, except using up a bunch of veggies in the fridge to make a stir-fry.  lol  I still have a bunch of celery and carrots left.  The celery is soft, but cooked still tastes really really good!  Makes me feel bad that for the last few years, if I had it and it got soft I had thrown it out.  Sometimes I made it into soup but usually it got composted.  Anyways, since I have some left and carrots, I am thinking about popping some mushrooms in there and making a soup.  I don't have any fresh roasted chicken, but I was thinking of roasting a couple of breasts and shredding them in it.  Then maybe adding some taco seasoning and VOILA!  I really am trying to get more veggies/fruits in there to see if the volume thing will work for me.  I'd like to say I feel good about it, but so far I'm just struggling to eat that much.  I'm thinking I may be a quality over volume eater.  I'd much rather have some good cheese than a big bowl of lettuce.  Not that I don't like lettuce cause I do.  But you get what I mean.

Anyways, been playing with the MFP calculator and seeing how it works, what it's suggestions are and etc.  It says that to lose half a pound a week (my previous goal) that I need to eat 1800 cals a day.  That's sorta crazy to me, but I guess it makes sense in some way.  I'm bigger and I know the bigger you are the more calories you need.  As I lose, that calorie window will get smaller.  I ate 1765 yesterday.  I didn't exercise formally yesterday.  Some part of me is like, screw what they say I should do and go back to 1600.  The other part of me wants to just ride this out for a bit and see how it works for me.  It's not like I'm in any huge rush or anything.  I just want to keep making progress.  And honestly, it's fun seeing how I'm doing on everything.  Not just with cals but with sodium, fiber, etc.  That's pretty neat.  :)  I hope I have it set right.  I have mine set as 'Lightly Active'.  I am not super active but always after a 3yr. old and whatnot.  I'd say, honestly, I'm somewhere between 'Sedentary' and 'Lightly Active'.  It just depends on the day.  I feel like most of the time I'm running like crazy.  Then there are days I just sit.  This week has been a mix... I wish I felt better.  I don't feel awful just not great.  Well, at least today.  lol

Back to what I was saying.  I'm enjoying playing with all the MFP settings to see where I want to be.  What I don't like is the thing at the bottom that says if you eat like this you'll be here in 5 weeks.  I think I am going to ignore that feature.  Another poster complained about it and I'm with him.  It's annoying.  I like the basic guidelines and ideas of it, but I don't like that little projection at the bottom.  Instead of making me feel motivated, it makes me feel discouraged.  And I'm not sure why.  It just... does.  I think because using the 5 week projection sounds so... far away.  And the loss seems so minimal.  It's weird to me.  lol  I guess I'm weird.  But I will keep playing with the different settings to see if I want to do what they suggest or if I want to do what I was doing and so on.  But for now it's new and fun and well... I do feel motivated to put in my food and all that.  lol  I am a bit frustrated with putting some foods in -- their database is pretty long and some things are duplicates in name but have different cals.  So, I'm having to get things set up initially.  I like that it keeps track of the things you typically eat and keeps those so that you don't have to look it up each time.