After

After my last post, I decided to suck it up and get on the scale the next AM.  So, I got on yesterday morning and saw.......  181.5.  Such utter bullshit.  :/  I'm so frustrated I could SCREAM.  I have come really close the last few days and I am honestly frustrated to the point of where I don't want to do this anymore.  40 days of no loss is starting to wear at me and I'm feeling like what is the damn point.  I tried to be non-chalant about the first 30 as it was a new way using MFP settings.  But it's been 10 days and I've dropped cals and I've done everything that I know to do besides continuing to drop cals.  Which is a PAIN.  I'm barely over 1700 cals on average and that is without eating back exercise.  :/  So, my average is lower.  But I guess to see real loss, I'm going to have to get my average even lower.  Otherwise I'm not going to see any loss.  It's just so damn irritating!!!!

I think what I am going to do is start dropping my cals some more.  Nothing drastic, but I want to work my way back down to 1600.  I just felt more successful doing that than I am now.  I want to lose slow, but losing only maybe a quarter of a pound a week is frustrating me.  I'm not sure why it's happened but it has.  Maybe I've not been active enough or maybe something else is going on.  I'm not sure.  I keep trying to remind myself that if all else fails, my clothes fit better and that is what is important.  But right now, I am frustrated to still be in the 180's.  :/  I gotta get my brain in a better place and the only way to do that is to get solidly back in the 170's and make some progress towards the 160's.  I'm not sure if MFP is helping me or hurting me at this point....