It just hit me, that the reason why so many things that I SHOULD be over are still annoying me is because I have so few other distractions. And by distractions, I mean a life. I don't have very many friends here. While I do have friends, we are spread all out and I don't have an active social life here. As a result, I think that is why when things bug me or hurt me, I dwell on them and remain annoyed much longer than I should. I mean, really, I need to get over it and not let it still grate on my nerves! But it's still rubbing me raw and I can't seem to stop feeling the way I do or stop talking about it with the friends I do have. How do you move on? WHY is it that this one particular thing is driving me so bonkers? I can't put my finger on it.
It's not like I don't have things to do. I feel like I'm always doing things. I'm busy with the kids, talking to friends and family, normal house stuff, projects... but not a lot of adult face to face interaction. Maybe that is it. But I've tried here. I've covered this topic to death. I just don't click here. And I know that sounds lame, but it's true. Poor Didi knows how I feel -- she's had the same issue and it's why she is now finally moving. We plan on moving, too, but we know we have to wait until some other things come into play. Anyways, I'm just not sure how to stay busier. I'm on here, FB, MFP and then all my other IRL stuff. But somehow, it's not blocking it out and I'm not moving on from it. It's not like I can address it at this point because since I had thought I was going to just move on and let it go, I never addressed it with the person. Too much time has passed now and well... it's silly to still be upset! Maybe I should just make it a point to not talk about it AT ALL. Maybe that is my issue. If I'm going to let it go, I should LET IT GO.