I feel like crud tonight. This afternoon has royally sucked. ROYALLY. I'm trying hard to see the good in it so I'm not sure I should even talk about the bad. But there really were good things along with the crap.
So, where do I start? I guess I'll start in the beginning of the day. I didn't get that much sleep the night before, but I woke up feeling pretty ok. I had taken my allergy and sinus med earlier when I got up with oldest, so I must've slept a bit deeper with fresh meds. So, I decided today would be a good day to go and run a few errands. Which is sorta nuts because it's Friday. And in this area, traffic is nutso on a Friday making piss poor drivers even worse! LOL But me and youngest went on. I'm glad we did. I went to the fabric store first and ended up scoring some great and expensive fabric for only $6! I couldn't believe it. I had been thinking of recovering my bar chairs because they currently have black fabric and with kids, it makes it impossible to keep it clean. Black hides a lot, but being fabric, they have to be scrubbed and scrubbed and scrubbed to stay clean. So, I had thought that going to a slick fabric like a good vinyl or something would solve that issue. The only problem is, many of the fabric stores I had looked at for vinyl or similar were SO HIGH. $25 and up. Unreal. So, I kept passing. But I went today and got some and I love it so much! I have no idea exactly what the style is, but it's a very pale greenish tan. I wasn't sure I would like it because it's a style and not plain black, but I really do like it. And I think it will go with our new tile and fresher look. We went to a couple of other places after that and I was able to get magnetic paint and chalkboard paint. I was originally going to leave the side of the pantry that faces the foyer blank and just plain white. But after much thought, I think that having the magnetic chalkboard there will be good. I'll have some where to post the kids things and somewhere for youngest to play with his magnets. Yes, I know it's in the front of the kitchen, but at the same time, I won't be getting scratches on my fridge! And if I end up hating it later, I can always paint back over it.
So, the first part of the day was really good. But then I came home and after doing a few things, decided to take a break and get online. And the rest of the evening went down from there. And the truth is, I am so angry and so hurt that I can't even put all of it into words. And it isn't just one thing. It's several things. All of it just... dumb. No other words. Dumb, childish, selfish, inconsiderate.... all of that and more.
In the end, I spent some time crying and then decided that crying wasn't going to accomplish a thing. So, I decided to get to work and work off my frustration. I re-potted my kitchen rope plant. I started a load of laundry. I made the kiddos dinner. And then I worked on the kitchen some. I finished sanding the kitchen sink base and cleaned that up. I cleaned all of the cabinets to remove all of the dust/debris. Then I touched up a couple of spots with the spackle. I decided to go ahead and get a good first coat of paint and did all of that, then sanded the spackle and painted those areas, too. Since I had paint left over, I went downstairs and second coated the bases so those are done other than installation and their doors. I'm pretty happy with the results so far!
So, you see, even with a shitty afternoon, I choose to see that this morning was good and this evening was good. Even if my eyes feel like sand and my heart feels like lead. I can't really do anything about the bad, but I can choose to find good.
I guess I don't have much else to talk about. It's getting late and the dogs are barking so I should let them in.